Izaya Tiji + deeply((WAMH Flip))

ken carson + Aquafina((WAMH Flip))

archangels

astolfo cosplayer

truereligion

topman

plastic surgery

key to my heart

chūsha + hildanlogic - Our Lane((WAMH Flip))

(our house, with the cross)


thin black ash
ashed over my mouth and nose
i watch eyes that have stared back at mine
never stare at mine again

i watched friends turn into Moses' ship parts
twisting and turning
til it feels like I'd withdraw 
i watched lovers that ive never talked to
in the next life ill make sure ill talk to you

i wish 
i could see stars
like the piano parts in this lifelover song
the glimmer of god
i wish
i could be all
it's all you breathe and all you exhale
inhale me

maybe I'd need to do this
in spoken word
monotone and monasterial
come here and come alone
come here and come alone
if i went back in time
instead of looking at her thighs
i would only have your eyes
your eyes stare back at mine
and we swim in Eden's light
i would turn off that Chase Atlantic
everytime you'd try to cry
cus i can't listen to plastic
if it's not made by Izaya
and I'd know your zodiac
and you know what my bones lack
and I'd know how it feels
to be in between all of that
and then you move on to the states
I'll ask how New York feels like
cus I'd feel like I'd fit right in
with rat blood on the lights

flower

(of course you smoke menthols)


im running dry noww
i need a good cry
just to see if i could make it
I'll break myself in the making
im sorry if i came across rudee
i didn't mean to
it's just how i watched my dad do it
atleast he didn't die but what if he did?

i would kill something real just to be a real boy
i would stop feeling anything just to be a stillborn
i would kill my cells and eggs just to be infertile
my old man's lung killer, cancer sticks judas throat

i feel ill
I don't wanna go outside
just by the slight chance that the sun might melt my right eye into a puddle of blood and
tears
i shed none to you
the devil is in this air conditioning
i refuse to ash my cig just cause this room has ceilings!

I don't wanna die because of love
I don't wanna die because of hate
I'll never give it up, I'll give up when my lungs fall out my body
blow american fumes singing american tunes
I don't wanna die because of love
I don't wanna die because of hate
if i had to die atleast make it symbolic
generational addictions it's a family tree

cancersticks

(7/1)


i survived another work day, but i didn't pass the litmus test
the only thing i thought about was.......
well alot of things, you in particular
but I'd like to snuff em out some day
"might as well give up on you, I'm never enough"
or whatever izzy said

last night i thought i was going to kill myself
but in the timeline that would be really funny
i just got home from the train station, i laughed with friends, i go to work tomorrow 
i saw with only eye out, i asked "is this really all I've got?"

i'm inside
where are you
and if i find you
what would i say?

way better now
I'm way better now


nov. 2022


oh crushing arms
i crushed on you for a long time 
distill your light in my hands

i went to your door
just to cry a little
I haven't cried ever since that year flew by 

what a fast fucking year flew by
frank ocean was right

and i thought i would die if i met you
but i never met you again

and a summer gone
another one to write in the book
of a never ending song i wrote about
you are
the street light i passed by the smoke in my ashtray
the riff i don't remember the days that had good weather
you are as thin as time


you're like life and vitality
you breathe the same air as the gods used to, breathe
and look for the first and the last, the last of your life that i saw
you can come and paint away with ease
and look for the cigarette near the pond
you would know that i was near



crushed+(interlude)





my boots r on my feet now
i wish tectonic plates
could shake the weight
and move all around
above hallowed ground
halloween night
i died a hundred times
if i couldn't watch
I couldn't think
I'd be just fine

blackened water
in the river
I'd jump and I'll drown
couldn't wait a day
so let me shiver
lock the dog pound
every dog runs back to it's owner
n im running out
i hate that I'm the one that took your soul
i knew it wasn't mine

come back my sweetheart
if i had i would bark
come back my sweetheart
my lips to ur heart
it beats like this song
un clean and unsung
come back my sweetheart
the stars in my sky

i just want to be your dog
i just want to be disposed of
i just want you to kill me





sweetheart_2023_10_31.m4a

(utsukushii jakarta)

like a trash heap you see flowing down the lakes
an eyesore never looked so great
and my face stings from the heat
it's the beat everyone loves to dance to
oh I don't know
i don't love this city like i love you

if i had questions i would ask why me?
there's a thousand other fish in the sea
in my heart i can feel your screams 
if our lives so dreary, dream
It's a selfish thing to think, but i wish i wrote that line for you 

i don't want us to ever drift apart
but in my gut that's what i think what will happen
I'm sorry for everything
I'm not a good human being
but that's just excuses
if you can't, I'll make you hate me

like a trash heap you see flowing down the lakes
I'm no better if i ever made you wept
I'm sorry for everything
I'm not a good human being
i know now it's too late
but at least know that i love you

I've been trying to find the reasons why
I don't want you to see me cry
under the full moon skies
where i said my last goodbyes
i just want to let you know
how much i hate this

the only one who's falling

(differentials)

like a fish out of the water
i can't breathe air that well
wandering eyes could find me in the corner
trying to inhale what i inhale
but it's you, you're the one that made me come all the way out here
a home I've been trying to sell
if you showed up in front of me now i can't tell if i would
sink or i would sail

lives lived different but does it really matter
if i wanna tattoo your name on my chest
you shouldn't know me i know that too well
i wouldn't write this song if i knew i didn't care

the only heads i recognize in this crowd
is agri farell and fuck
but it's cool i guess I'll just go take a smoke
until i remembered that rich households hate that
well that's another difference probably the biggest
I'll think about it later or never again
but even you and me drink the same water
all the times its cool some of the time its not

nana

(am i old enough to understand?)

i was born to hold
the flowers left and mold
into the ground it grew
of all the stories been told
and rhymes that get real old
the grays turn into blues
white lily scatters sunlight
like the things my uncle got right
a drip of the ocean on your honeymoon

im full of yourself
those eyes can see right through
the wishing well i wished for hell
to never come

and if i could dance, ill dance the longest all night
murmur, i murmur decipher words right
mutter like dogs, chain me to your hands
and your knees

is your love like energy at 2am?
randomly sprouting to just never be there again
cus I'm in love with that
even if in this life I'll never hold your hand again
atleast now i know what human warmth meant
cus I wasn't born touched
i wasn't born touched

if i could live eternally
my chin on your head
for eversince
if i could live eternally

ka/withallmyheart

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