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Twisted up in my imagination...

out of my head

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

S T R E A M

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

love u @seem_bng
Mixed, Mastered & Produced by: @areyoumatthias
Vocals Mixed by: @kayostarri

lyrics:

im starting to think im worthless
cause my lifes a fucking mess
im just going through these curses
please know im trying my best

you're saying its not as bad as it seems
but i know you'll learn to regret me
i wanna learn to love myself
but im just so fucking ugly, yeah

dropping out, disappointing everyone
try my best to make it up to my mom
do my best, that's what you use to always say
now im falling apart on the brightest day

now im bitchin' 'bout how life ain't fair
got me doubled-down, on my knees, tearing out my hair
got one big, happy family, but im never there
cause no one ever gave a shit, no one ever cared

x2

i want to love myself, but im sO F*CKING UGLY DUDE

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

this song means a lot to me,  so hope yall enjoy<3
also last release for a while since ill be super busy
love yall<3

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty

lyrics:
i didnt care, you were showing off,
yea no wonder we never blasted off,
you went with him with no care in the world,
but didnt look back to see what had unfurled,
dont look at me with those eyes and those curls,
you were my world,
but now i sit back cause i know that its over,
and through it all, yea i kept my composure,
tried so hard just to work it out, yea,
but you didnt want that,
you needed a reason to leave cause i wasnt special to you, and you got that,
but now that you want that,
what others cant give you,
but hey i was on that,
i gave you the world when you would wake up, 
dont say you forgot that,

(vocalize)

i didnt care, you were showing off,
but now it has come back to haunt me,
wish i could sleep with the ceiling off,
instead the memories surround me,
make it so hard to breath,
my sweat is soaking my sleeve,
i wont lose the fight to my conscious,
the next time she ups and leaves,
beat myself up for no reason,
i know im worth something,
but when im misused i just cant see it,
think im worth nothing,
you used to say i was pure gold,
but now where are you that ive been told,
that you didnt care a bit,
so ill find somewhere my heart will fit

no wonder (prod. boyfifty)

produced by jhove
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
maybe when we're older
i'll finally get it right
lay your head on my shoulder
as we drive into the night
i dont wanna be here if im not with you
(be here if im not with you)
maybe when we're older
i'll finally tie the knot
im so immature 
but i ponder it a lot
i just wanna spend my life with you
(spend my life with you)

yeah i know im making excuses
im on the brink boutta lose it
when you are feeling by yourself
i just sit and make music
yeah it's messed up i know it
i care and wanna show it
but it's kinda difficult
because i know you're also broken
i can change it, trust me
i know it's hard to love me
there's a lot that i dont talk about
i shrug it off, its funny
how i know you feel the same
and im the one to blame
maybe someday i'll grow up
but for now i'll stay the same yeah

i dont deserve you
(i dont deserve you)
i know i have issues
(i know i have issues)

yeah but you helping me through them
healing my cuts and my bruises
what you been doing is working
and my conditions improving
oh take me back tonight
i cant explain whats inside
and now im feeling the vibe
and now im feeling alright
(and now im feeling the vibe
and now im feeling alright)

maybe when we're older
i'll finally get it right
lay your head on my shoulder
as we drive into the night
i dont wanna be here if im not with you
(be here if im not with you)
maybe when we're older
i'll finally tie the knot
im so immature 
but i ponder it a lot
i just wanna spend my life with you
(spend my life with you)
x2

when we’re older (jhove)

i wish i could die (w/ Cavasoul)

for those in consideration

Produced by: @autrioly
Engineered by: @areyougiovanni
Written and Performed by:  @areyougiovanni @feelingmysorrow & @autrioly

Do or DIe

Do or Die (w/ Sorrow, Autrioly, & Promoting Sounds)

guess you could call this my remix of "past lives" by borns

past lives (prod. ken3r beatz)

I’ve known this shit since the start
You’ll always get played if you give your heart
stuck to that logic I’ve buried mine 
Deep in the depths where there’s ash every step all you see is regrets and severed ties
But besides I’ve tried to better mine
I’ve broke all my confidence record time
Ain’t nobody out there that'll cherish life
uh
they’ll throw you away if not something they need
got nothing to give then your out with the trees
It’s fucking comical how everyone leaves
They treat you like dead till you're actually deceased
They give you a bed and then choke you to sleep
Then wake your ass up just to shatter your dreams
It took me 10 years but I finally see 
I’m the only one now that’ll look out for me
I mean after all I can handle it
Always just me by my lonely then
No need for shit you call sentiment
Only loved when others benefit
Problems on me I can settle it
Either that or I settle in sediment 
I swear that Im trying to better me
But your only loved when others benefit

(coughs 3 times on beat somehow)
yeah
Sucking my blood they're some vampires
I'm burning alive in the bonfire
everything they do is for the benefit
im screaming and crying im throwing fists
I grab the knife to cut the tension
im taking it back get it in positon 
don't be surprised by the inquisition 
I prolly should say that im on a mission
im on a mission to break the cycle
of heartbreak pain and going psycho
take her back to the intermission 
I cry cry cry here are you with a smile
I get mad then run ten miles
find my body in three piles
I guess that id do more good if I was in a psych asylum
I live my life never settling
die ten times in the settlement 
they do it all for the benefit
I do it all for my better man
I live my life never settling
die ten times in the settlement 
they do it all for the benefit
I do it all for my better man

Benefit w/Lxst Boy (prod. poppy ozu)

@nkno x @soku - lost my way again (prod. ross gossage)

tell her i love her, but i dont know how i really feel

@nkno x @soku - lost my way again (prod. ross gossage)

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