Elixir

lyrics:

each time that i think of you i push another through
and recall how the bullet flew
each time that i think of you i barricade the room
one more wound

i was an angel, though plummeting
i watched it get dark, i'm playing it tough
the worst that could happen is happening to me
another round of shots for the boys on tv
i was an angel, but they made me leave
with stars in my eyes, crying as i wheel
as i hit the lake, i prayed it'd be green
it's all that i need, i deserve it, i think
i loved an angel, and it made me weak
i deserve it, i think
i deserve it, i think
i deserve it, i think
i deserve it, i think

i am punished by love
i am punished by love
i am punished by love
i am punished by love

i loved an angel, and it made me weak

Punish (demo) [ethel cain cover]

lyrics:

you don't have to lie me, baby
you don't have to lie anymore
what does it do anymore?

i know you hate me, i know you wanna leave
i know you don't wanna be here
i know that you hate me, i know you wanna leave

i know that i'm not what you bargained for
i know that you wish i was gone
i know that i'm not what you bargained for
i know i'm not what you want

//

if you could go back, go back in time
would you stay here, would you stay mine?
what will you do when i make you cry?
i know you hate when i can't decide
what will you do when she's on your mind?
would you go back, go back in time?

i'd consume your flesh in a heartbeat (demo)

lyrics:

before she leaves, amber waves at me
days go by, time on without me
i'll be alright

i take the long way home
shaking the bottle and letting them roll
'cause the devil i know is the devil i want

is it not fun to feel many other ways?
what you do is nothing to me, to me

i still kick rocks when the walking is good
and pretend at the chain link that i am the wood
as i'm leaning my head back, saying, "take me, i ain't gonna scream"
but here i am empty, watching love of mine leave
but i'll be alright, me and my amber waves
i'll be alright

is it not fun to feel many other ways?
what you do is nothing to me
is it not fun in the catatonia?
maybe it's true, you're nothing to me, to me

Amber Waves (ethel cain cover, piano demo)

a little simple track i worked up awhile ago and forgot abt. enjoy <3

teethe

Worship (demo)

charli xcx - party 4 u (slowed)

LYRICS:
my body is a lie
how i televangelize
a sacred place people come and go

poking and prodding
not knowing how it feels
chastising who i see in the mirror

i’m property, though
lakeside vacation home
slam me on the side of your boat and break my bones

and as you begin
i pray for the end
it’s always now that i think of god

maybe there’s nothing left to lend
maybe i should’ve stayed dressed
maybe he was never meant to help
maybe i do it to myself

finding new ways to say it out loud
a dog with no bone’s just unbound

swollen and rotting
i don’t matter unless i'm wanted
this body’s not mine anymore

i must be horrible
my flesh, disposable
i try too hard to be treated like this

maybe there’s nothing left to lend
maybe i should’ve stayed dressed
maybe he was never meant to help
maybe i do it to myself

finding new ways to say it out loud
a dog with no bone’s just unbound

Lakeside Vacation Home (demo v)

A long, unfortunate while (ethel cain cover)

embroider me with all your favorite things i've ever said ꨄ︎

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