I can't remember why

@oscni @xokimono

just like a deer, just like a doll
can u cut me up, can you sew me up 
ever since u left i got hella cuts
cut myself 20 times i cant get enough
if i kill myself right now would u know?
would u find out, feel it in ur soul?
just like a deer, throw me away
im just dead, who cares anyway

aprildeer ft xokimono (osani)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4hlseyD5HZyW75DwkQ9nbq?si=a3dcf2b5c6b94dff

where is u going, what do u mean
nothing the same, cant feel a thing
i feel alone need company
without u lost apart of me 
ever after we happily
wont wake up is this a dream
how do i know ur proud of me
never heard u are you proud of me
i see you, one of a kind i need you
yeah its true triple 4s on my wishlist i feel you
use me like a knife to cut thru you
what do i gotta do to get to you
can you hear me call
i just wanna fall
i just wanna ball
spend a rack at the mall
never heard u at all
dont wanna hurt u at all
ur my winter and the fall
never understood what ur talking about
ill stay with a secret ill never let out
u can talk to me... let it all out
baby honestly im the one whos at fault

happily ever after (chaosysl)

winter naturescross

deadaux:
cigarettes burn my skin
why God, cant i win
cigarettes burn my skin
why God, cant i win
she put a stake in my heart but im not a vampire
can u stitch me back up im a doll just crying
they threw away my key im locked in my dollhouse
fell asleep cant speak they sew my mouth
i cant see anything they cut out my eyes
im just a doll that wants to die 

oyrx:
walking round my town i dont rlly know nobody
i dont wanna be nobody, wanna be somebody
joint smoked up, ash burn on my skin
every day is pain and im struggling to live

deadaux:
pull my hair all out
locked inside my head idk whats wrong

oyrx:
u dont even care bout my heartache
ill die slow
i got this feeling in my stomach when u talk tho
n ill js smoke all my weed n pack my bowl when i get low
sometimes i think abt shit that happened 5 years ago
no matter the time i still got scars on my wrist
some days i wake up alrdy pissed
every chance that i missed, i wish that i'd go
now im focused on getting more dough ooooooo

deadaux:
stake in my heart but im not a vampire
can u stitch me back up im a doll just crying
they threw away my key im locked in my dollhouse
wake up cant speak they sew my mouth
i cant see anything they cut out my eyes
im just a doll that wants to die

im not a vampire ft. oryx

lyrics:
don't do rock I like to puff 
fuck them tryna
tryna sell me stuff 
he just actin tuff
quit up 
Ill call your bluff
knock him down he acting up   
I say quit the actin bruh
I feel like I'm crashing up 
I ain't listen to the lames 
that shit got me cracking up 
I been Poppin power pellets 
tryna tryna level up 
know that I'm not tryna front
tryna get my money 
I got no blood inside my heart 
when im chillin in my coffin 808s 
gon pick me up
I been feeling so fucked 
I been feeling so stuck 
you suck 
I been doing these drugs
to much 
too much
you suck 
to much 
enough is enough
but new drugs
do drugs 
too much acid
I need a new tounge
new tounge 
to much 
do drugs 
all of my friends 
are my good plugs 
do drugs 
do pills 
so fun 
have fun 
you live so long 
to die just once 
just
just say when u done 
(fuck me up)
just say when u done 
drugs say when you done 
drugs 
drugs 
(uhh) I been doing (drugs drugs drugs) fuck, bruh)
yuh glad I brought my what 
glad I brought my one 
thought I was gon nod(off) 
(nah)
but this not enough
middle fingers up (up)
(put your finger up)
fuck this to the sun (to the sun) 
say (say) I'm feeling good 
(but I'm feeling )
but I'm feeling none 
(drugs) don't tell me what to do 
(addiction) not a button you can push
(still itching)
ha I should have won
but I know I lost ha 
every day I'm up
every day I'm like 
what the fuck 
I want drugs
it ain't what they say ha
its just what they want 
narcan in my camo pants 
stop that not bad yuh I'm so sad
some days I'm so mad I cant kick it back
all day every day I wear my camo hat
steal you shit you wear the same and you wont get it back

stuck (shiver+zeptron)

prod. ilybeam

@topdown77: Razorblade up in my hand
I don't know if we'll meet again
These drugs go straight through my head
Vampires laying in my bed
I was born in the Haunted House
Leave blood up on the couch
Slice you up, please don't shout
Nobody gon hear you
Knives on me, I got to
Like a creepypasta baby, ima have to kill you
Creep up on you in the night
Send you to the afterlife
My diamonds they shine so bright
They might go and leave you blind

In the graveyard, I been with some fuckin' creatures
If you need some fuckin' swag, Popstar Teen can be the teacher
On this beat just like a preacher
I fuck you once, I cannot keep you
If you talk shit, Ima fuckin' beat you
Circle small cause they some leeches
Tryna suck my energy
I got lots of enemies
Hiju, he a friend of me
Fuck em up, we make em bleed
I got some pieces I know niggas cannot buy these things
This zombie girl up in my bed tryna do naughty things

@hijuslastwish: youve been mine, youve been mine, youve been mine
all those lies even tho you know im right (kno im right)
youve been there youve been left youve been my side (by my side)
all those moments i got to realize (realize)
why dont u why dont u hold me by ur side
all those lies got me thinking yea i must realize
that i dont give a fuck about my whole life (my whole life)

got me sipping lean
all those thoughts they make me scream (i hate myself)
all those messages yea u left me on seen
i just wanted u to say baby dont leave (why dont u love me)
baby dont leave

feeling feeling right
snort another line
might OD dont care its my life
feeling feeling right
snort another line
might OD dont care its my life

ringtone
pickup
(yea its hiju n topdown)

creepypasta w/ hijuslastwish

prod @winterfurcoat (ᴗ˳ᴗ)ᶻ𝗓𐰁

helium x2
in my fragile lungs
straight to my brain
ill go away ill fly away
i hate that
i hate this
i just wanna go numb
stuffing falling out of me
sew me up n fix that

look at me x2
antisocial go away
feel out of place
i just wanna fit in x2
i just wanna go away
will i ever fit in?
i just wanna go away

i just want shut out 
all these annoying thoughts
i hate this i wish that
i wasnt so lost
i dont what to say
im so fcking stupid
my brain never registers 
im just so clueless

thxx deaduax 4 mix

look at me

lyrics:

ya i luv her bdsm queen
tie me up dont let me go plz
beat me till my skin breaks and bleeds
stomp on my chest until i cant breathe 
put me in camera humiliate me
you got whatchu want why tf do u hate me
all this pain and u still wont date me
all this pain all for a fake fling
sedate me
im ur fukin boytoy u can make me
do anything for u
girl i really adore u
you can tie me up play wit my ballz
u cant tie me up dont let me fall

zehferuha - humiliate me (prod - svmsynyster)

vid out now 
https://youtu.be/WqH0fF4LXYU?si=zW8LV0AK2lVG5ouc

HOW 2 ANNIHILATE BIBILICAL ABOMINATION "BEHEMOTH"   prod marcy the baptist

jeans i have them all splattered
ripped up like a masqure
this will match well with fur
roku everything is studded
wearing glavil tuha
zippers all on my skirt
diamonds all over my belt
glimmer n they shimmer
i wanna get thinner
like i try 2 everything excites u
i just wanna hide u
no one can no you gooo
princess damsel in distress
always the best dressed
buying everything u want
shopping is my fav hobby
dress up like a barbie
girl ur 2 knarly
like 2 dolly thats what they call meh
i just wanna parti
listen to old carti
get drunk take a sip of my bacardi
so fucked up im sorry
makeup is so messed up

glimmer n shimmer (sedate)

piece of me dies every time

lyrics
i jus Wana die
come and take me
come and rip my skin
baby rip it Open
i might sell my soul
end up on Death row
Love you like a zombie
never eat ur brainz
i can be ur pretty girl but you make me feel insane
"look Me in the Eyez
tell me what u see"
buttons in my eyes baby I can’t see
can u tell me
ever love a zombie?
they take my love
they wan copy
you could never steal
Cuz you don’t understand me

tell me who i #&@$%?#% killed
i cant #&@$%?#% feel
baby i don’t know what’s my deal
i cant feel my head cant feel for real
i got five personalities inside me
all this dark pain taking over me
but
I gotta live for my brother sedate
i cant die it can never be too late
gotta lead for the 1692
mental alyssum they crazy niggas too
i can’t die 3x
live a lie don’t live a lie
11/20/24


porcelain doll
a little child has
cracked your skull
your tears like
beads of amethyst
your lips for years
have not been kissed
the cracks have filled
with dust and mold
your soft shy heart
has turned so cold

buttonsforeyes prod irisu

HEY LoMve u  

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Sue me
one day all this shi gonna end listen to what you want to 

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I can't remember why

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