Calm

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

iTunes

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

i hate me too

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu

yt: https://youtu.be/SLIKZXjkIu8

i thought that i had told myself
not to fucking fall in love
now i fucking find myself
singing to you in my songs

im sure im gonna hurt you girl
so you better stay away
know that youre at loss for words
i just dont know what else to say

i dont wanna be
the reason that you bleed
girl you better leave
yeah im trynna make you see

youre better off alone
at least youll still be free
while im smoking weed
for the scars im trynna heal
x2

while i find myself x3
ill never find myself

find myself (prod. kuroime)

@lilhappylilsad

music video: https://youtu.be/qSVPoTjlw-8

she told me i was nothing n it hurt
she used to make me happy n feel special with her words
i tried to shed some light on all the dark inside of her
she used to be my everything and now im off the drugs 

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

always in my bed i made her leave me here alone
screamin at her crying i would point her to the door
all i ever want is her to be here when im low
i try to act unbothered but i end up hurting more
x2

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

survive (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s
https://soundcloud.com/yung-jza-shawty

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6bt08gOCHM

lyrics: 

poppy tears: 

everything is a lie and nothing here is true 
how I feel inside and what meant to you
when I broke my spine I lay inside my room 
tried to take my life before a flower could bloom

where you go when I fell into your heart 
in a galaxy alone I found your star 
she said are you with it, I said if you are 
she be going for my neck like a vampire x 2

my dark red blood drips on your skin 
my heart holds love just deep within x 2

9TAILS:

one side of my pillows always cold 
cant sleep and i thought you should know
summer heat seeps in through the windows
2 o clock and youre still not home 

2 o clock and im still 
heard the ring but i cant find the phone
summer heat seeps in through the windows
3 o clock and youre still not home

4 o clock and im in my zone
fuck out my room can you please not touch me
she said she wanna know how to feel empty
if thats the case then just watch me

they always want me to meet their friends
why would i do that if i dont have any of them
i abandoned everyone i dont wanna start again
im still learning bout myself so i wont let no body in

pour it up
roll it up
smoke it up
drank

fade away
looking like
my eyes
sank

feeling worse
than i look
think i might
faint

feel myself
coming down
roll some more
stank

what you mean you cant see me anymore
slow it down tell me what you yelling for
say to quit i think i might just roll some more
3 grams to a zig couldnt pack more

❄︎ ✰ ❄︎ ✰ ❄︎

where you go w/ 9TAILS (prod. YungJZA)[visuals in description]

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

lyrics:
sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up
sometimes i just wanna make music 
other days i just wanna drink and lose it
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know man
i've been wasting time feeling like an old man
and i don't really wanna fucking go do shit
and i don't really care about what's popping
rather stay inside my head always throbbing 
rather stay inside and pet on my dog man
it's the only thing i ever fucking trusted
everything else always let me down 
but that's okay cause i let me down too
but that's okay cause i let me down too 

i'll let you down
i'll let you down 
i'll let you down
i'll let you down

sometimes i just wanna wake up 
look up in the mirror and not feel hated
not the best but i feel underrated
i've been down but i know imma flex up
me and gang some angels, yeah we next up
feeling cursed like damn baby i'm hexed up

sometimes i just don't wanna wake up
other days i just wanna get my bread up
sometimes i just wanna make music 
other days i just wanna drink and lose it
i don't know, i don't know, i don't know man
i've been wasting time feeling like an old man

sometimes (prod. flwrs)

Music Video : https://youtu.be/aRE0U5z2hvw
PRODUCED BY RAILREPEATER
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My Links:
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Instagram: www.instragram.com/6obbyy
Twitter: www.twitter.com/6obby

Lyrics;
[Verse 1]
Smokin that  dope 
But I can’t cope
Feeling depressed
And I’m feeling alone 
Checkin my phone, 
I’m just a ghost
They all backstabbed me and left me alone
 I ain’t got friends
No one can cope  
Living my life till the end of the road, 
Bud is so green that it look like a toad.
Feelin depressed ,  I’m on my own 
Smokin a blunt I’m in my zone,
Louis my belt, Gucci cologne ,
all of these rappers they sound like some clones ,
Fuck what you say,
Take my own way 
Smoking a blunt straight to the face,
Smoking a blunt straight to the face
Fuck what you say I don’t chill with no fakes
Fuck what you say I don’t chill with no fakes, nah, 

[Hook]
I need to get a map, cause I cannot find my mind , 
Always smoking up in circles and I do it all the time
I Feel this sadness every night, I just wanna be alright ,
I Spark the blunt and then ignite, I take a shot and then take flight, yeah (x2)

[Verse 2]
Smokin so much to the point I can’t think
Stress on my mind 
Polo horse on my waist ,
Tommy my cap
Dope in my blunt 
Ounce in my trunk 
Tar in my lungs
Fuck all the ones who be talkin they full of it,
Steady just callin, I’m Askin, like who it is? 
 Loving me now but was hating me then,
Don’t call up my number don’t call me ur friend , nah 
I be smokin marijuana till I fuckin pass out,
I be mixin up the henney mix it with the crown,
I just wanna be happy but I hate this town,
I can’t even keep a smile or a friend around,

[end]

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.
prod, railrepeater

ghost (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGYyo9hQP70

@blacklunged

one of these days
i hope to be okay
im fixing the things
that felt right out of place
im an addict at best
you can take anything
as long as you stay
babe youll be my everything

i dont wanna bother you
stop hittin me up, were through
im takin it day by day
i dont even know what to say
im just tryna better myself
these bottles right up on the shelf
spent nights with the thoughts in my head
spent days wishin all this would end

no i dont need a friend
just need you to save my life
tried endin it twice
a blunts in my right
im thinkin wouldnt it be nice
to fade to the pavement?
these words on my grave are meant
to drive one last statement
right into the back of your neck

no i wont say sorry
i just want you by me
drive my car to your house
just to die in your arms
by myself

i'd die for you (prod. blacklunged)

prod. @youngburial

lyrics:

they all say "man you're looking so good now"
i'm feeling like shit though 
but you wouldn't know that cause you never ask me 
and i wouldn't tell you but the thought of you asking would mean the world 
and it's not like i want you to listen to me bitch 
but i just wanna know someone cares 
do you care?
or am i alone? 
am i alone? 

you think that you know me 
but you don't know me 
you just see what i what i let you see 
you think that you get me 
but we are so different 
you are the sky and i am the sea

you wouldn't know that (prod. fats'e)

produced by ocean beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCpipAjo9fIhDMXOoo0Mm86Q

lyrics:

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant
keep it together 
this cold winter weather
has tricked me to feeling a way
i got nothing else left to say to you
forget my embrace

you could sleep at night
youll be alright
but i tore you open inside
bring raw emotion to life
he doesnt have what i have inside
and i know you know that i could treat u right
make u feel right
evanesence girl ill bring you to life

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces

come thru with a quarter ounce talkin bout go until its done
fun
girl you perfect if u leave can you tell me who the fuck im gonna love
none
swear to god i went and met someone
got a bad bitch but she start shit for fun
girl its not fucking fun
picking up the pieces
tell me do u need me
do u wanna see me
do u want a sweater you could keep it when u leave me
i cant

dnt leave me (prod. ocean)

💘 VISUAL OUT NOW ON SADCHILL 💘 
link ~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njw_-zCzfYg&t=1s

thank you for listening ✨
produced by jayhmez
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lyrics

shorty tell me things that I dont know
diamonds in the whip im really frozen
told her I dont wanna see her go
told her she the one that keep me sober
shorty tell me things that I dont know
diamonds in the whip im really frozen
told her when i dream I see her ghost
told her she the one that keep me sober

told her shes the one I miss the most
she taught me how to reminisce and float
looking at the skies rolling woods to get me by
got her smoking on the blunt and she dont want step aside	
so we sippin on this fiji im easy, we blowing swishas 
shorty be my witness dont miss this cause it be history
switching up my problems they fading, these rappers jaded
told my girl we’ll make it, just stick with me till we famous ya wake up and these
problems, honestly chasing my dollars
asking questions but dodging from everything that she offered
full of options and on it this blurry quest for some profit
but ya’ll be sure I aint stopping, im taking flight like im poppins

cover art ~ www.instagram.com/call.me_rat

when i dream i see her ghost ✨AVAIL ON SPOTIFY

FOLLOW sorrow bringer HERE:   https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:

I will go and you will stay 
I will look the other way 
I don’t like it when way you say 
I don’t give a fuck about it

You know I could never choose 
I don’t think the way you do
I won’t waste away with you 
I don’t give a fuck about it

Aye I’m losing my patience 
 All this time that we wasted, I can’t take it now I’m pacing cross the floor, I don’t want to see you anymore
Exchanging heat in the back seat I can smell you on my clothes 
Went and told you all my woes, now you’re gone that’s how it goes

And I’m falling to pieces please it’s all too much to take 
I know my place 
Just for my sake, could you tie my hands 
Lunch me in the face
And burn me at the stake 

What if this sadness never passes?
Skin keeps getting tatted
Go on update your status 
And look away as this train crashes 

I will go and you will stay 
I will look the other way 
You know i’m lying when I say 
I don’t give a fuck about it

I Will Look The Other Way Prod. sorrow bringer

[Prod. kamikaze]
Artwork by: cloutcohen
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Lyrics:
[Hook]

Balenciaga on my shoes,

I got bapestas on my clothes,

I be whippin in the ghost,

& I be chillin with my bros

All these peoples filled with lies 

I can see it in their eyes

I see the fakeness in desguise,

don’t need no fake love in my life

don’t need no fake love in my life  

 

[Verse]

All these exes hit my phone got no time for it,

I be sealing up a backwood and I take a hit,

People always talk about me don’t know how I live,

Call me tony hawk I pop my board then let it spin,

I be rocking all this vintage got some tommy hill

And I be sipping all this henney never poppin pills,

Said I be rocking all this vintage got some tommy hill

And I be sipping all this henney never poppin pills 


brunette Shawty chillin at my crib ,

she just wanna fuck , but I’m just tryna chill,

I just wanna make a mill, and tell my mom I copped a grill,

But they don’t wanna see you make it all these people out to kill, (x2)

[bridge]
I can see the envy all up in these people 

once they see you make your way they start acting evil 

I can’t trust nobody , cause they just want me to bleed slow, 

I been working on my crafts you know that I’m just  tryna glow  (x2)

[Hook]

Balenciaga on my shoes,

I got bapestas on my clothes,

I be whippin in the ghost,

& I be chillin with my bros

All these peoples filled with lies 

I can see it in their eyes

I see the fakeness in desguise,

don’t need no fake love in my life

don’t need no fake love in my life  

[Verse 2]
When I was out here showin love, all these people messed with,

My golden heart and all my feelings changed my damn perspective ,

People out here tellin lies like they was second guessing, 

All these people do not care and so I stay protected,

You wanna win this fight with life well you don’t need a weapon,

All these people wanna be a star but lack the passion,

I’m chasin all these dreams and I know ima make it happen,

Ima do it on my own and I won’t sign to Satan,

And everything I’m spitting real, I will not ever fake it,

Used to shop at Ross now we shop in gucci sections, 

I be chillin with my brothers cruisin in the Lexus

I told em soon we going far, we won’t stay in Texas

I put that on my momma and my grandma up in heaven 

,I told em soon we going far, we won’t stay in Texas

I put that on my momma , and my grandma up in heaven

I told em soon we going far, we won’t stay in texas 
Yeah, aye

fake love

@xam @lil_yung_pharaoh @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ug4VQPXCGxNfqMIxwh2xd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/bad-thoughts-feat-lil-yung-pharaoh-single/1464634124
YouTube: https://youtu.be/qjjQ49p3xmY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t  know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

[Verse 2: Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

Calm

Tyler James