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Rivilin

cus im fucked up left here on my own
the care crashed left my soul on the road
panic attacks stay close to home  
the words you say still cut my core

I chip my tooth yeah on the floor
heavy hands hit the face you love
take pills to cover what I saw
maybe im empty all along

your gonna hate what im gonna have to say cus heartbreak comes in all of the worst ways
im not mentally stable right now, ill be back you know ill call somehow
I hate myself for the way that you can’t bear to look at my face
I hate the fact that you fucked me up in the way where I feel disgraced

each of us has our own fucking problems to deal with
you know it wasn’t fucking fair on me but I still stood through it
but when I fucking needed you where were you to be seen
fucking hanging with my friend fucking him when you meet

so you buy us fucking MD so we feel a bit more
Im fucking doing it to fit in I want to take back it all
it wasn’t worth losing a friend over this shit
We’re so stressed the fuck out we lose our way

leo IV:


so obvious, I'm here alone and speechless
no secrets, why you always playing on the defense better off alone

she had a heart of gold and it turned to stone and mine turned to chrome
like baby where we left off yeah, I'm so fucking pissed off yeah

calm down take two pills baby yea I sleep strong
write bout you in the same song
can you tell me why we never get along

like that would be great, you was a fake
broken-hearted baby with a gun on her waist
I’m so sorry that I even wasted the days
yeah I love you in pain

Heart Breaker ; Dream Chaser FT. Leo IV

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
all my life
i knew something was up
it turns out once a year
my mom is santa’s little slut santas little slut
i heard a ho downstairs
i went to see just what
i caught a christmas affair
and i saw santa crack a nut

I’m boutta blow my brains out
I’ll never be the same
and all these years
i thought how christmases were great
now i just have nightmares
like every single day
becuase i left my bed
before santa went away

will the presents make up
for this nightmare
on christmas
and will i wake up
from this nightmare
on christmas
it’s time to wake up
for the gifts that you've gifted
i know i’ll hate them
so just don’t get it twisted

i'm going back to my bed
till the sleigh is in the air
there’s no way now
that i’ll ever forget
all the terror, isnt it
my fault somehow
no present's enough
to fix your son
no present’s enough
but take back none

will the presents make up
for this nightmare
on christmas
and will i wake up
from this nightmare
on christmas
it’s time to wake up
for the gifts that you've gifted
i know i’ll hate them
so just don’t get it twisted

i'm going back to my bed
till the sleigh is in the air
there’s no way now
that i’ll ever forget
all the terror, isnt it
my fault somehow
no present's enough
to fix your son
no present’s enough
but take back none

all my life
i knew something was up
it turns out once a year my mom
is santas little slut...

Nutcracker (Prod. Vaegud)

Escape

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

IDGAF

IDGAF (feat. blackbear)

//mid music
//w artist : holyegg

using a diff mic / audio processor this time around.

Lovely Nightmares

LOVELY NIGHTMARES! (prod. Squeril)

lyric video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zy6PLSWfNas

produced by onassis
mixed by onassis
cover art by ig @hxyzo

stand out (prod. onassis)

PLANTED (p. jaylen.)

kiLLa Laharl - Otherside (feat. s0cliche)

STREAM

ALIVE

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

You say I'm to blame now for all of our problems
 According to you I'm just evil in disguise
Tears in the rain, I got a mind full of sorrow 
Loving is pain
 I gave you my trust
my everything wasn't enough
still high off your drugs
a blurry frame of who I was
a dangerous lust
you're poisonous down to the touch 
Now I'm fading to a ghost, and I'm to blame 

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

I've been losing touch with the old you
If we keep losing trust it'll happen again
Better off alone in the bad news
Only time will heal the wounds

Started caving in
And i'm admitting it now
Distant memories are haunting more than doubt
Will it be enough 
All While you're rotting in my head
Like a plague of our regret
Hope I'm the same

lost in your pretty eyes
Don't chase tears waiting on me
Wasting life away
Always because of you
The chains are getting loose

My smile is coming down 
I wanna love you now
Begging to see the sun 
Take me for another round
I need her warm embrace
Before I meet the horizon 
I know only time will heal the wounds

Crown Of Sorrow ft. Luke Mara

IDLEGLANCE x Rivilin x Sepha.

Rivilin: @rivilin
Sepha.: @sepha-joey

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/o9d0qB-Efow

Lyrics:

[Voicelines]:

I don't wanna d*e
Or k**l myself
I just wanna disappear
Until I feel okay

[Rivilin]:

You didn't want to understand
That's fair, that's ok
My head just hurts a lot
And every day just ends in constant pain
I met him down underneath
In the dark depths of my dreams
He tells me don't trust a soul
Cause no one is ever as they seem

Too bad it doesn't matter anymore
Glock straight to the temple
Dreams of dying by the door
And you can't get in
Cause my body's in the way
And you're screaming out for help
But nobody turns your way
And lately every night
Is plagued by nightmares
Waking in a sweat
Yeah I know I need some therapy
But I can't get a grip
Cause I can't afford the rent
And I can't afford to eat
Man, I always try my best
But this tastes just like defeat

[SEPHA.]:

Every time that I said I was fine
I was never
I was never
They who interrupt every dream of mine
I’ll flee from them forever
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just look away
Maybe I’ll just quit this
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just look away
Maybe I’ll just quit this
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just flee

Nightwalking dark alleys with a shrug
Self critical thoughts like a warm hug
Affirmations crushed like a bug
With a hard shell under your heel
As days get shorter
Feels like time tries to steal
All the comfort that you held onto
And say get real
Here's responsibility laid on a plate
Sorry that it's dry and it has no taste

Every time that I said I was fine
I was never
I was never
They who interrupt every dream of mine
I’ll flee from them forever
Flee from them forever

Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever

[Voicelines]:

Sometimes
The only way out
Is to fade away
Leave everything behind
And never look back

Flee Forever

Rivilin x Sepha. - Flee Forever

I don't know where I am anymore
Need a personality but i got four
And all my selves are always at war with myself
I'm at war with myself

I don't know who I am when I cry
A frightened stranger I wish he would die
Why am I always tempted to lie to myself
I lie to myself

Why does everyone hate me?
Never asked you to rate me
Feeling alienated lately, I just cry
I just cry

Look in the mirror, I see no one there
Skin full of holes and ink everywhere
long fingernails and neon blue hair, i'm a mess
I am a hot mess

Why does everyone hate me?
Never asked you to rate me
Feeling alienated lately, I just cry
I just cry

War With Myself

[VERSE 1]
Head buried deep, can’t see the sky
Rain falls heavy, but I don’t even cry
Show up a mess, you still let me near
Trace my bruises, whisper everything I fear
Fell for the chaos I can’t escape
Love the broken pieces, even when they scrape

[CHORUS]
She said,
“maybe I can fix you”
I wanted it, I needed it
(ohh)
But I’m too far gone, yeah, I’m too far gone
She said,
“maybe I could kiss you”
I needed it, I needed it
(ohh)
But I’m too far gone, yeah, I’m too far gone
She said…

[VERSE 2]
Tryna see the version of you that never came
Vices take control, feeding every flame
Demons at the edge, creeping in my mind
You swallow all the pain, leave the world behind
Wouldn’t trade this hurt for anyone, just let it be
Lost the friends I trusted, now it’s haunting me
Silence makes it louder, memories replay
Killed the old me, left fragments in the gray

[CHORUS]
She said,
“maybe I can fix you”
I wanted it, I needed it
(ohh)
But I’m too far gone, yeah, I’m too far gone
She said,
“maybe I could kiss you”
I needed it, I needed it
(ohh)
But I’m too far gone, yeah, I’m too far gone
She said…

[OUTRO]
She tried to fix me, but I broke her instead
Baby, no matter what you do, you can’t fix my head
You should burn while you have the chance
Run, run, and never look back

fix you

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Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

Prod. 5head

LYRICS
life always feels like a burden
I’m told the road I go is no good for me
and I need to resurface
I think I’m feelin' too weak

can't we chill and just sleep
gettin' caught up in sheets
baby let me just
sleep
all I want is some z’s
baby let me just
sleep
make another day go by
just sleep

I think my mind’s just a river that runs
I always feel like I’m never enough
It always seems like i gotta re-up
I rest my head I might never see ya
again
barely making the minimum
fending off the ones that I love
even you can taste the venom I salivate when I’m depressed
I promise you, on god, I’m happy
and that I’m just super beat
but I can barely tell what’s happening

so can't we chill and just sleep
gettin' caught up in sheets
baby let me just
sleep
all I want is some z’s
baby let me just
sleep
make another day go by
just sleep

life always feels like a burden
I’m told the road I go is no good for me
and I need to resurface
I tend to sit back and think about things

All our lives spent awake,
do you ever just rest your head
hoping it might be the last time
you ever wake up again?

The Social Demo

sleep (prod. 5head)

i like to make cool sounds and tell stories

Escape

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