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tomorrow

Freaks w/ luvwillow-saffi-4rde-ri4h [harmless]

I again had a lot of fun making this and expressing my feelings, hope you all like it and thanks to @m1v for the beat! <3

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/1KesEFxQeIQ4aU8DNCUvrC?si=43b144b9374e42aa

prod. @m1v
cover by k1baru - https://www.instagram.com/k1baru/
amv by newtella: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AK0A_EPKy7I
amv on PARADOX AMVs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErFEmPFz_sE

lyrics:

intro (newtella):
Until one day, the wind ceases to blow
I fall and I fall and fall, and fall even more
Gentle as a feather
A dry quill, expressionless

verse:
Why did you leave me all behind
When I needed you the most?
Do you even care what you lost?
Do you really think you will find
Something so so fine 
That will make you seem less grime
I will climb, and find, this one reason
Why I'm alive, let it ease in
I loved you when you left me
I just wish you kept me
Honestly I dont even like
The way things are now
Anyhow you think it is fine
Or do think its a sign?

pre-bridge:
My life is dreamlike 
(Yeah it's dreamlike)
I hate that I'm alive
(I dont wanna be alone)
So alone...
I just wish I knew what you were
Feeling way before

bridge: 
**happy noises** °^°

verse:
I think I know when you said I'm your star
But now you left me all behind, is it so far?
I dont know what to say to you
But I think I lost it all
And its not because of me
Youre the one who blew 
This relationship to the end
Are you sure youre the one to amend?
Because I think youre rotten from the inside
Like you killed me on sight
I told you I dont even wanna fight
I saw the light flashing front of me

farewell (prod. m1v)

New Jersey freestyle feat. vanity

:* cold out 
lyrics
baby its so cold out tonight
come warm me up with ur knife
lets watch the constelations in the sky
while i bleed out n i fkin die
i js wanna be with u 2nite
let my blood warm u as i die
i js wna b with u 2nite
I JS WANA B WIF U 2NITE

i ws wlkin thru the woods when i saw u
who tf is she ima fall thru
bloody cups filld w tears ima end u
blood leakin from my neck as i watch (?)

baby its cold outside 2nite
so i grab my coat n grab my knife
now im on my way 2 end her life
pull up with a tank and make her die
rip out all her organs hear her cry
scream 4 me more u whore just die
gna make her bleed out in the snow 2nite
GNA MAKE HER BLEED OUT IN THE SNOW 2NITE

baby what the fuck are u gonna do
blade in my sleeve and im gna cut thru u
js wna hear her scream as i cut u 
stalk u in the night with my knife u cant undo
knife on my wrist baby js come thru

cold out

Thanks to both for the features! @imyxno @disoc8 I hope you all enjoy!

prod. iceboi & recyclebin

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/1g0oyHgSrfZ0WaMVvugmng?si=b0a0984c2fd44a8e

lyrics:
[chorus: uglyhappiness]
Dark elf finally Im alive again
Dark eyes on yourself
Im not trying to get you back
Just to get screwed back again
Fuck you, always spitting lies
Always saying Im the worst
Forgot what person you are?
I hope you get cursed
Cus you certainly are
The most toxic person to exist
I wish we never really kissed
Yeah I miss the times
But I dont really miss you at all
I just hope you fall so deep

[verse: i'm yxno]
I fell so deep, I cant even focus on myself
DID YOU REALLY JUST PUT A GUN TO MY SHELF
DO YOU REALLY WANNA SEE ME DEAD
DO YOU WANNA SEE ME 6FT UNDERGROUND
DID YOU REALLY NEVER SEE THE BOND THAT WE HAD
And now I feel sad every day
I JUST WISH I COULD SAVE 
WHAT WE HAD, ON A DAILY
KILL MYSELF IN THE SPOTLIGHT
I CANT EVEN WIN THIS FIGHT
WHATS THE POINT IF I DONT FEEL ALIVE

[chorus: uglyhappiness]
Dark elf finally Im alive again
Dark eyes on yourself
Im not trying to get you back
Just to get screwed back again
Fuck you, always spitting lies
Always saying Im the worst
Forgot what person you are?
I hope you get cursed
Cus you certainly are
The most toxic person to exist
I wish we never really kissed
Yeah I miss the times
But I dont really miss you at all
I just hope you fall so deep

[verse: disoc8]
ion wanna live anymore
i been chillin in the crib, gettin lit watching gore
wanna smoke anotha spliff, i might cop another draw
bitches talking fucking shit, now they guts out on the floooorrr

now they guts aren’t where they meant to be
bitches fucking hate me and it’s fucking with me mentally
acting like a friend but ur moving like an enemy
acting like a friend but i won’t forget what u said to me

[bridge: uglyhappiness]
Look at me normally
Im stuck in this anomaly
Dont take this pesonally
Ill never love u eternally
Ur fucking with me mentally
Ill go thru my life fearlessly

[chorus: uglyhappiness]
Dark elf finally Im alive again
Dark eyes on yourself
Im not trying to get you back
Just to get screwed back again
Fuck you, always spitting lies
Always saying Im the worst
Forgot what person you are?
I hope you get cursed
Cus you certainly are
The most toxic person to exist
I wish we never really kissed
Yeah I miss the times
But I dont really miss you at all
I just hope you fall so deep

cruelty (ft. i'm yxno & disoc8) [prod. iceboi x recyclebin]

happy new year, praying for 2023 to be better and more enjoyable again! <3

mixed/mastered by me
prod. rottenspirit

Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/3Bas5FqqoKEXyeVJEwtJXU?si=bb1fe881003a4ceb

lyrics:
(intro:  Re Zero)
"Deep down inside
At the core of my heart
I'm just a small cowardly filthy piece of trash
Who's always worried about how other see me
How they'll accept or judge me
And nothing...
NOTHING ABOUT ME HAS CHANGED"

(chorus)
I am so stuck up in this time
I've been numb this whole year
I cannot hear your voice
And it was all your choice
You call me angry
When I'm just upset
Frankly, I sweat, I cannot forget you
We're on our own ways
You're in my head as always
You threw me to the ground
I was just crying front of you
We were not meant to be
I feel like you, thought I was a game
You found me lonely in a stage
Of agony, I hate you

(bridge: Re Zero)
I absolutely hate myself.

(verse)
Oh this fantasy, of you and me, 
it's so gone
Will you ever knock, on my door 
to say you are sorry
But this is just a dream
I cherished you
And you just buried me
Can you feel this fire inside ur heart?
You lied to me when you said you didn't love me
Now you got your heart broken one more time
And I can see everything aside of you
Call me crazy, I am just obsessed

(chorus)
I am so stuck up in this time
I've been numb this whole year
I cannot hear your voice
And it was all your choice
You call me angry
When I'm just upset
Frankly, I sweat, I cannot forget you
We're on our own ways
You're in my head as always
You threw me to the ground
I was just crying front of you
We were not meant to be
I feel like you, thought I was a game
You found me lonely in a stage
Of agony, I hate you

purgatory (prod. rottenspirit)

Broken inside my heart
Yeah and you let me go
There’s no option at the start 
Yeah and you should know 
The voices in my heart 
Yeah 
The voices tear me apart yeah 
you let me go

Broken inside my heart
Yeah and you let me go
There’s no option at the start 
Yeah and you should know 
The voices in my heart 
Yeah 
The voices tear me apart yeah 
you let me go [x2]

Voices in my heart [money kidd]

prod. me

Ghost city, ghost city
Watch as i float away 
Ghost city, ghost city
Watch as i float away 

Cracking 40s while i waste 
Until i fucking go insane 
Stand and pace, cant find no peace 
Bite my nails, i drag my feet
Searched my life, the most perfect circle
Found the truths but so damn hurtful 
Color me, bloody please
Heard your calls wont make me blink

Stare at walls when im in pain
Dont look at me, know im to blame 
Wish it didnt go this way 
All this life that i just waste 
Tell me that i'll find my place 
But know this is a rotten fate 
Fucked up teeth, a torn up taste
Rather leave so shut your face 

Ghost city, ghost city
Watch as i float away 
Ghost city, ghost city
Watch as i float away 

Ghost im a ghost 
So im so low 
Why'm i alone 
So i just

Ghost city, ghost city
Watch as i float away 

Ghost im a ghost 
So im so low 
Why'm i alone 
So i just go

my phantom diary

Art by Helen

This is my 17th song i posted a video of me singing this song back in early December 2019 pn my instagram  so this songs like 3 song books old but i didnt record it til like 2 months ago Its a Myspace Scene Revival type song for you to dance too and with everything going on rn this song is for u to listen to while locked up in ur house  But this songs about a couple exes of mine and other girls ive known who have played with me and thought they were all that or that they liked me  yet they  stole my heart tho i still really love a couple of them S/o to Adharmasatru and Yungjza Coldworldgang bby Rawr XD

Lyrics: Yeah she said she love me but she dont really care Acting like a model while the ppl stop and stare Got camera's flashing everywhere music blurring in my ear pop rocks on me As im crying candy tears then she just disappears like magic everythings so tragic I carry all this bagage Yeah she stole my heart Never said that you could have simi automatic The way you shout me down and left my heart on the ground I was lost and never found all the walls that surround

(hook)
Yeah hot topic zumiez go ahead and sue me candy dispensers i saw you at spencers memories never fade but some of them are rendered  yeah some of them are rendered  (2x)

(bridge)
I love you sue me cant believe this is how you do me i love you sue me cant believe this is how you do me(2x)

(Adharmasatru)
Your love it consume me If you do not like ut then you can sue me And im sorry baby for asuming  Everything that i thought you were doing I saw you at the mall You didnt care at all i never caught me when i fall Make it all my fault U dont return my calls its not ur fault at all at all at all
(hook)
(bridge)

farewell (prod. m1v)

uglyhappiness

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