My unique qualities as a musical artist are my voice, my lyrics, and my “instrumental” background. It's been said throughout my whole life that my voice is “unique,” has “a lot of color,” and is something that most don't normally hear in the music industry. I’d like to think it’s a breath of fresh air to not hear the same sound over and over again. I’d like to think I bring something new to people’s ears, something they neither love or hate. Just something different. When referring to my lyrics, I'm straightforward, something people have a difficult time hearing since I favor depressing lyrics. If I'm writing about murder, kidnapping, hating oneself, going insane, I don't sugarcoat it. I don't ignore it. My lyrics are for people who'll face it. Bravery's a trait someone must have if they want to read my whole lyric journal. Thirdly, my “instrumental” background doesn't refer to a stringed instrument or piano. I cannot read notes, yet alone play an instrument that isn't my vocal chords. When I say “instrumental” background, I mean I know how to write a song with background vocals that can replace all instruments. I don't have to have a piano, a harp, or a bass to create a whole song. Admittedly, I haven't done anything like this in the past. However, for this last project, I plan on doing what I can do on my own.
	 What do I have to offer the music industry? I don't know. I presume I bring not exactly a new genre, but a new voice where I can show people you don't need to be a musical genius to produce music. You don't have to play an instrument and sing. You can do one or the other. But I don't believe it has been shown that you can “make it big” with only a voice because even those who only use their voice will incorporate someone who can play an instrument or technology. I do no such thing.
	Things I can improve on my years to come would be: lyrics, my understanding of the music industry, and how protools works. My initial problem with my lyrics is I struggle to write something that's completely my own. Other artists inspire me. This isn’t necessarily bad, per se; it just is a bit tiresome. I’m sick of writing someone else’s emotions. The only reason I do is because mine do not trigger some sort of spark other people’s emotions do. My next issue is comprehending how the music industry works. I'm not one who can easily grasp reality, yet alone concepts within reality. I have tried to grasp something, anything. But I always come up empty-handed. Perhaps, I need to concentrate harder, force my head to wrap around things I couldn’t this year. I don't know how to do that. Maybe one day it’ll click. Until then, I think I’ll stick to my imagination, my pencil, and my journal. My final problem would be protools. Not only do I detest technology, but technology also detests me. I write the lyrics. I sing. I don't work computers, yet alone feel confident in composing something on protools unless the goal is to have smoke rising from the back and a shattered screen. Maybe one day I’ll willingly work with my unwilling partner.
	My aspirations for music in the future? To be honest, the question is quite laughable. I plan on continuing in my choir outside of school, and I plan on travelling with them for the years to come. But I don't see myself doing anything in the future with my voice. I cannot read notes; I cannot understand how to record and edit; forget about protools; and I prefer singing someone else’s work instead of my own. What I can definitely say is that I'll sing for the rest of my life, whether or not people “like,” “love,” or “hate” my voice. I couldn’t care less. It doesn’t affect me. After all, I don't need to pretend the public is smarter than me. I’m not doing it for fame or for them. If people connect with my voice, great. However, that's not my goal. My goal is to make myself feel better, to offer myself some comfort in someone else’s, or even my own, lyrics. To know that being alone's an impossible end to live. 


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