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자버릴까? 영원히 자버릴까?
Should I just go to sleep? Should I just go to sleep forever?
답도 없는데 싹 다 접고 자버릴까?
There's no solution - Should I just drop it all and go to sleep? 
거름이라도 되면 싹은 자라니까
At least a sprout could grow if I were to become fertilizer.
잘하니까 잘 살겠지 걘 잘하니까
He does well, so he's probably living it up because he does well.

혼자라니까 그게 다라니까
I’m on my own, and that’s all I’ve got.
내겐 나 하나 남은 게 전부 다라니까
I'm all that's left to me, and that’s all I’ve got.
고독하게 사는 게 뭔지나 알아 니가?
What do you know about living in loneliness?
깜깜무소식으로 지내도 잘 사니까
Because he's good even if there's no news from him

누구누구보다 누가 더 잘 사니까
Because so-and-so lives better than such-and-such
그런 너한텐 내가 잘 살게 보이니까 
To you, it looks like I'm doing well.
잘 사니까 잘 살겠지 뭐 잘하니까 
He's well off, so yeah he's probably living it up because he does well.
잘하니까 잘 살겠지 쟨 잘 사니까
He does well, so he's probably living it up because he's well off.

정말 불행한 날 봐줄 관심 있을까?
Would anyone even care to see the truly miserable me?
어떤 표정을 짓고선 어떤 생각 할까?
What kind of expression would they make, and what would they think about?
돌아오는 거라곤 오지랖과 혀 참
The only things to return are nosy interest and disdain.
쯧쯧쯧쯧쯧 정도면 다행일까
I'd be lucky to get by with just some contemptuous tongue clicks.

뭐 뭐겠지 겠지 추측과 비대칭
It's probably this, it must be that.  Assumptions and asymmetry
그런 삶에 메아리치는 외로워 외침
Screaming loneliness that echoes through such life
그 정도 불행쯤이야 여긴 쌔고 쌨지
Unhappiness of that kind are commonplace.
그렇게 남에 삶쯤 판단하기 쉽지
It is so easy for people to judge another person's life.

덕분에 기댈 기회마저도 뺏고 뺏지
Thanks to that, we lose the chance to lean on one another.
불행에 등수를 매기고선 이름 짓지
We just rank and label unhappiness.
덜 불행과 더 불행 중 증명됐냔 취지
Seeking proof of either less unhappy or more unhappy
그딴 가십거리가 아닌 진짜 빛이 필요해
I need true light and not such fuel for gossip.

한기가 스며드는 물렁해진 뼛속
Chills invading into my softened bones
껴입고 달래 보지만 움츠러들어 계속
I wear layers of clothing to seek comfort but still keep shrinking.
멈출 생각이 없이 떨어
Shaking non-stop
태아 적의 뱃속 엄마 안에 살던 때로 되돌아가 탯줄
Going back to when I was a fetus inside my mother's womb - umbilical cord.

하나만 끊는다면 이런 고통 없겠지
If I just end one thing, this pain would no longer exist.
고통 같은 건 모르는 채로 죽었겠지
I'd be dead - no longer knowing pain.
알게 되는 게 많아서 고통스럽다는 걸
More knowledge, more pain
알게 된 후론 더 알기가 되게 두려워진
Ever since I learned that, I've been afraid to learn more.

내 표정이 가만히 자리해 거울 속에
I see my still self in the mirror.
일그러진 표정이 내가 구기지 않았는데
I'm not trying to, but my face is in a grimace.
남이 구겨버린 종이처럼 구겨져 있는 게
As if it were a piece of paper crumpled by someone
아무리 노력해도 펴지지 않는데 왜?
Why won't it straighten out no matter how much I try?

불공평하잖아 똑같은 착각 주제에
It’s unfair. Even though they're both delusions
기쁨은 짧고 슬픔은 더 길게 남는데 왜
Why is happiness short while sadness lasts for a longer time.
슬픔을 곱씹다 보면 그게 또 상처가 돼
When you dwell upon your sadness, it turns into a wound.
흉턴 낫더라도 흉 지는 게 필요해 왜?
Even after healing, why does there have to be a scar?

'왜?' 라는 물음표를 떼고 산 게 부러워
I envy people who live without asking the question: 'why?'
그리 살면 난 나 아닌 거 같아서 두려워
I'm afraid to live like that because then I would not feel like myself.
운명론자처럼 운명 정해졌다 믿으면
If I believe in fate like a fatalist,
그나마 그런 점이 괜찮아지는 건지
I wonder if this kind of thing gets easier.

영감에 이끌리듯이 살아가 본 적 있지
I've tried living as if being led by inspiration.
그게 행복이라 느낀 그마저도 편견 취급한 사회의 편견에 부딪힌 편견은 더 큰 쪽에 의해 부서졌지
I felt that it was happiness, but that was my bias, and my bias collided with society's bias and got destroyed

산산조각이 났지만 그 조각을 쥐고 
It is smashed to pieces, but I grab the piece.
팔목에다 세워서 긋지는 않을 거야
But I won't put the piece against my wrist and cut.
세상을 향해 똑바로 세워서 쓸 거니까
I'll point it towards the world and use it.
그게 내가 지금 쓰고 있는 가사니까
That’s the lyrics I’m writing now.

얼마나 더 비참해질지는 잘 몰라도
I don't know how much more miserable I may become
내 팔이 어디까지 닿을지는 잘 몰라도
I don't know how far my arms will reach
힘껏 휘두를 거야 가진 거 전부니까
But I'll swing it with all my strength because that's all that I've got.
그게 내가 할 수 있는 전부니까
Because that’s all I can do.

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