Bring me back
I can't remember
What I lack
But I remember
I have a home somewhere
But now I'm here and it's gone
Where did I go wrong?

H-I-R-A-E-T-H
It grows larger with my age
Maybe I'll look back someday
And see that home was you


submission for the umbrella land word of the month prompt 4

H I R A E T H

Tell me, are you feeling like a shell of yourself?
Take the time (check your pulse) how’s your spiritual health?
Cause I always feel the lowest when I’m sapped from the source
And wasting time wondering why just makes things so much worse

You know why! 
(cause you’re frightened!) Tell me, why do you fear?
Why do you rob yourself of time that could be spent with Him near?
He’s never far (He’s never far)
He’s always right where you are
Oh I see now- I’m the one who’s always pushing apart!

God, forgive me (I’m so sorry)
I keep drowning me out
In a sea of distractions filling endless amounts
Of empty space inside my head that could be filled up with You
When I misstep, running back into Your hug should be the first thing that I do

(I’ve missed Your arms, I’ve taken a hit)
(I’ve taken way too long, I’ll admit)
(Tell this babbling fool not to quit)
(Before- B-Before it’s good)

Tell me, are you feeling like a shell of yourself?

Tell Me

Welcome back to the dining table
You eat here, you laugh here, you cry
We can talk about anything you want
We can figure out your life
You may not like who you’re seated next to
But it’s only just a meal
And once the dishes hit the sink
You’ll miss the way you feel

Did you feel embarrassed?
Did you feel like you were heard?
Did you stop at all to listen to the conversation’s words?

This is the dining table
Where every single day
We sit with those we journey with
And fold our hands to pray

The Dining Table

I can feel myself slipping
(Do you feel yourself slipping?)
I do. Somebody talk to me I don't like it
(Well, what about me, huh?)
Not you. I need a real person, not a voice in my head
(Not a voice in your head)
I think I'll hold my breath and count to ten and then and then and then and then and then.....

and then?

You know- I’ve never asked you… Where did you come from??

Oh, I’ve been with you since the day you were born! Time passed, and it took a while for us to find one another again, but look at us now!

Yeah. Look at us now, huh?

I’ll love you forever. Will you love me forever?

…

Won’t you?

Forever is a long time.

i t s   o n l y   f o r e v e r . . .

where did you come from??

Please don’t grow too attached to me
Cause I’ll be gone in a passing moment
(I love you with all I am)
But what is that if you’re not real?

Please don’t talk about yourself like that
If not for you I’d be so lonely
(Even if you don’t exist? -)
Well, isn’t it so fun pretending?

I worry for you and for I
(Why do you act as if this is goodbye?
Oh, we’ve only just begun)
But I don’t want to be the one
There’s so much I don’t know in life

(What to gain from all this thinking?
Let the seasons pass in time)
How convenient for you to say
You’re not the one on a deadline__________

dead___line

Let’s imagine together
A land with good weather
And tall coconut-y trees
With an emerald hue
To our tropical view
Crashing over the sandy sea

We’ll build a sandcastle together
With snail shell details we’ll build it build it high
We’ll dig through the night
Til the moon pushes the tide too close
And reminds us that our dreams were a lie

I don’t even remember
The pathway to get here
Or why we’re building so
But as long as you’re here then 
I’ll cancel my plans and
Forget where I had to go

We’ll build a sandcastle together
With snail shell details we’ll build it build it high
We’ll dig through the night
Til the moon pushes the tide too close
And reminds us that our dreams were a lie

sandcastle

how i longed to have met you when the moon wasn't quite so high

Sakura Heights Ultimate

I made a dreampop thing out of a sample by @AMazingScreeDude even though it probably wasn't what he was asking for

I'LL GOOO

I took a photo of someone I loved as we said goodbye
But they blinked as I hit the shutter- 
I should have checked the image twice
Now I can’t remember their eyes 
And forever they’re folded shut
Ceaselessly sleeping
Endlessly dreaming
Smiles apart

Smiles Apart

I hugged you in a dream
I saw you once the ink began to dry
I watched you make the team
Cheered you on as you caught your butterfly
I heard your little song
I know you didn’t mean to sing along
I wish that I spoke up
Before everything else went wrong

Dream Hug

Loopable track fully copyright free and modifiable! I would love if you could credit Umbrella Life if you do use it, but credit isn't required. (and I would prefer if you didn't resell them)

Commissioned by masterninjason

Winner

I hear a ringy ringy ringy at my ringy little door
and it's ringy ringy ringy sitting there and waiting for
so as ringy ringy ringy comes inside and orders up
I make ringy ringy's order then I ringy ring him up

ringyringyringy

Another day spent, another win
Yet here I am alone again
No one sings with a capy baritone

Can't harmonize to save my life
Can't live a life unsatisfied
Yet here I am, a capy baritone

Clementines and riversides
Can't describe my inner sigh
Simpler times
Can someone out there sing along
To my capybara song
Guess I'm doomed to be a capy baritone

Capy Baritone

"mom said it's my turn on the vocals next"

II - Instrumental Mix

II Instrumental Mix

As we walk into a boba shop together
Looking up we see the choices we can try
Just a half-sweet jasmine tea with lemon flavor (and what about you?)
Just a regular for me, that's what I'll buy (again?)

Our orders may not be the same 
But we still come here every day because
We suck
(boba up a straw)

As another boring day becomes eventful
As we toss our cups and say our say la vies
Shall we meet again? (how's Tuesday?)
How delightful

Once again we'll meet to drink our boba tea~



Featuring Animagicsalina
https://youtube.com/c/Animagic
https://instagram.com/animagicsalina?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

Lyrics and music by Umbrella Life

Boba Shop

Boba Shop ft. Animagicsalina

Blue skies
Don't feel so warm after the rain
Brown eyes
But things just don't look quite the same

Ever watched the sun set under moonlight?
Ever felt the stars do not shine as bright?

Deep breath
The one you're getting used to hold 
Good look
But mirrors can't reflect the soul

Is the world I see losing connection
Or am I disconnecting from myself?


Featuring Phoe
https://soundcloud.com/phoemusic
https://www.youtube.com/c/Averagephoe

Lyrics and music by Phoe
Additional production by Umbrella Life

Misconnection

Misconnection ft. Phoe

I never thought I'd miss your name
Until I heard it again coming from my mouth
Hi familiar stranger passing by
Could I
Could we
Just spend a little time before I leave

Oh
Can't believe I left you long ago
Can't believe I let myself grow old
Oh
What's that you say?
Can't believe you've waited for this day
I think I'll stay

Every time I thought I'd left you came around and stole my breath away
Every time I thought I'd left you came around and stole my breath away
Every time I thought I'd left you came around and stole my breath away
Every time I thought I'd left you came around and stole my breath away

Oh
Can't believe I left you long ago
Can't believe I let myself grow old
Oh
What's that you say?
Can't believe you've waited for this day
I think I'll stay
I think I'll stay
I think I'll stay


Featuring Jason Solo
https://soundcloud.com/jasonsolomusic
https://www.instagram.com/jasonsolomusic

Lyrics and music by Umbrella Life

Familiar Stranger

Familiar Stranger ft. Jason Solo

I’ve got a crush on the girl next door
I’ve never met her
But she feels the same I’m sure
I wrote a letter
And it slid across the floor
Into her room

She wears a short ponytail high
It always bounces
When I see her passing by
She’s pretty tall but
Did she laugh, or did she smile
When I said hi?

Found her knocking on my door today
She got my card and
Asked if dinner was okay
I had a heart attack
But lived another day
To fall in love

It was a wonderful autumn night
Sharing a pizza
As we glowed in candlelight
I‘d never pass up
On a chance to do it right
And then she spoke

Wasn’t exactly what she had to say
Her silence spoke for her
And sucked my soul away
Nothing in common
I tried desperately to save
Our sinking ship

Who knew if she could see it too?
I really loved her
But what else were we to do?
Just growing awkward
As my small talk turned to gloom
We said goodnight 

And to this day she lives nearby
Still pretty from afar
And makes me want to die
I really gotta call
But then I’ll start to cry
And make things worse

Girl Next Door

Original track by @phoemusic
https://soundcloud.com/phoemusic/butter-lies

BUTTER LIES (Umbrella Life cover)

Daydream - Chipflip VIP

i'm glad we're friends
always feel like i'm drowned
i'm glad we're friends
thanks for sticking around
i'm glad we're friends
laughing onto the ground
i'm glad we're friends
i'm glad to know you
you're my friend

i'm glad we're friends

i'm glad we're friends (demo)

Dystopia

mother nature covered up my ears
staring 'cross the lake as we're pondering o'er the years
stopped to take a photo of a flower
we'd seen a hundred times before except this time was ours

and the world kept turning
and the world kept turning

and the world kept turning

it takes a real man to admit the genres he can't make

moogs

I've wanted to be with you for a long long time...

Make Me Laugh (cry)- HYPER VIP

Make Me Laugh (cry) - HYPER VIP

I never knew
We'd be together after all this time
Cause if I'd assumed
We'd be together you'd have told me I was lying
What would I do?
Living without you I'm just a lonely fool
Oh I'm just glad you're mine

You're Mine (demo)

you: bro i need some sick beats
me: i got you bro

time stamps:
00:00 - Quick Attack
00:41 - Master Mute
01:22 - PHD

UL Stock Rap Beats 2020

i was gonna score a musical and then i wasn't anymore

O Moon (demo)

so i'm sleeping when the sun rises
so my life's repeating my time and
fireflies are mostly my friends
i guess i'm down again

down again

Warm Up

San Francisco

rnb test

Beautiful Bruh

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