doubts_unfinished.mp3

Here stands the mean, uncomely stone
'Tis very cheap in price!
The more it is despised by fools
The more loved by the wise.

Mixed and mastered by Disjointed.
Produced by Sin7ven & @blackwinterwells.
Art by Sin7ven.

Big thanks to @creepysusie and @blackwinterwells for featuring.

Psychopompom

Nothing Bothers Me (prod. blackwinterwells)

For the longest time, I was never particularly skilled with anything. I always just kinda got by, you know? Never excelling, never having any real passion or ambition for anything, I spent years pretty much just existing for the sake of existing.

This project originally started with the song "Anxiety Ad Nauseum" before I decided to try expanding on it and making an album.

Social anxiety is something I've struggled with for quite a while now. Whenever it hits, it manifests in a couple of different ways, the main way being stomach issues. Generally speaking I have a somewhat sensitive stomach, and it pretty much ALWAYS bothers me when the anxiety hits. From feeling generally upset at its lightest, to full-blown nausea and vomiting at its worst, it pretty much never fails to happen to at least some degree.

Now the social anxiety was tough on its own, but could have been somewhat handled with time and effort. The real cherry on top is that I was also diagnosed with something called CVS, aka "Cyclical Vomiting Syndome", which is about as fun as it sounds.

To put it as brief as I can, once I start vomiting my body has a tendency to get caught in a cycle of throwing up. It keeps trying to vomit despite my stomach already being emptied of anything that could potentially be causing it issues, or in the case of my anxiety, despite the lack of ANY tangible issues at all. The longest episode I've had so far lasted nearly 5 days, with it taking two separate trips to the ER for an IV with fluids and nausea medication before finally stopping.

This, combined with the social anxiety which causes it, has made it nearly impossible for me to socialize in person, let alone hold a job. All of these things culminated into me barely being able to leave the house for fear of the cycle starting again, me finding out about and relating to the term "Hikikomori", and finally, me coming up with this album as a way to try and express/vent about some of the shit I've felt over the years.

I made this album as a way to express a lot of things that I've been keeping in for a long time, never telling pretty much anyone. But also, I made this as what is hopefully a display of potential.

Breaking Point

KEEP THE CHANGE! OUT NOW.

MERCH: https://exociety.net

KEEP THE CHANGE!

MERCH!

Kill Bill x Rav - BOOM BOOM

when was the last time i walked anybody home? [prod. ntourage]
egypt [prod. styn]
climates [prod. stoic]
medusa [prod. styn]
purple ii [prod. dweeb]
bother (all my weight) [prod. neso]
mmmfff…. oyea!!! [prod.????]

i felt all my weight at once

https://soundcloud.com/beet-farm-assist put out a new tape recently so I celebrated by ripping one of his beats a recording over it!

Also https://soundcloud.com/youfoh

the lows ft. You F. Oh (prod. by BeetFarmAssist)

Video by @joemama2482
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1IDFgARDrZ_wWmkpcnSwCw

music video

canti - just something i always do

romance

lost & different

Youre gonna carry that weight

Taken from the upcoming 'Taking My Time To Be EP' - out 27/9.
Available to order on 180g bone coloured download here:
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Strawberry Guy - Mrs Magic

Your not-so-local beat making, nostalgia loving, disassociation professional

The lower the lows, the higher the highs, my friends. Keep moving forward...

Breaking Point

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