forgiveness follows acceptance

#Alive (sense)

words cant express and i dont know if action can

Truth (skunc asylate)

Moving forward can’t look back
Moving forth hurts like combat 
You were always the only one to have my back
You left me standing here like why’d you do that?
Why’d you do that
Why’d you do that
Why’d you do that

sometimes I feel like I’m not worth anything at all
And even if I was would it mean anything at all

I can’t stand here, not much longer
I can’t stay, and let my mind wander

Moving forward can’t look back
Moving forth hurts like combat 
You were always the only one to have my back
You left me standing here like why’d you do that?
Why’d you do that
Why’d you do that

leaving (icu132 + tekken96141)

produced by @eera0

2 steps forward Just a little farther
1 step backwards I can’t even bother
Why was I put here? is that all that this is?
Stuck in a loop I can’t  break this shit
Sorry god () I know I’m not the best kid
Sorry mom () I know That you hate this
wish I did the things that the rest did
Maybe then I wouldn’t be so desperate
Memories I lost the pains my vestige
Think about the past at 4 am so restless
Curled tight in my bed I feel helpless
Maybe in the morning I’ll be selfless
Maybe in the morning I won’t be wish
Maybe in the morning I’ll be
Dead

1 step forward Just a little farther
2 steps backwards I can’t even bother
Why was I put here? is that all that this is?
Stuck in a loop I can’t break this shit
Sorry god () I know I’m not the best kid
Sorry mom () I know That you hate me
wish I did the things that the rest did
Maybe then I wouldn’t be so desperate
Memories I lost 
Think about the past

Forward (eera)

For You (innsmouth)

hold (with3r)

Shoutout haydn shoutout Shel Silverstein 

It’s all too much I know I know

It’s all too loud
It’s overwhelming 
It’s an awful feeling
I can’t tell you how
I feel the ending
Up or down 
it’s all the same thing
It Goes on infinitely

I’m anxious it haunts me so
I look up and I crumble
It’s all too much I know
It’s all too much I know I know

It’s all too loud
It’s overwhelming 
I hate the feeling
I can’t tell you how
I feel the ending
Up or down 
it’s all the same thing
infinitely

And I know I can never retrace my steps
I’m way too anxious to count my breaths 
You call it stress I call it hurt
I know I know I’m not worth it

the wind howls suppressively
It goes forever it’s hard to think
We all walk these steps passively
Up or down doesn’t matter to me

It’s all too loud
It’s overwhelming 
It’s an awful feeling
I can’t tell you how
I feel the ending
Up or down 
it’s all the same thing
Just leave me out

It’s all too loud
There’s no defending 
I hate it all
I’ll tell you how
I fear the ending
Up and down 
it’s all the same thing
It goes on infinitely 

It’s all too much I know
It’s all too much I know I know
It’s all too much give up again
It’s all too much I fear the end

up or down (haydn)

produced by @isryel

I’ve got like 20 bucks in my bank account 
I scream and shout but really I don’t want to hear a sound
Why do we avoid the thought if it’ll just come back around
Why do we walk up these steps if only to fall down?

I fall down but get back up with no help
I may struggle but at least I’m myself
It’s a struggle everyday I’m not well
I’m indifferent to it no heaven no hell

Over my shoulder it could come at any moment 
Free will but I can’t reconcile with what I’ve chosen
Every memory melts in time I wish they’d stay frozen 
The good the bad, I’d forget it all I don’t want to
 

I’ve got like 20 bucks in my bank account
I scream and shout but really I don’t want to hear a sound
Why do we avoid the thought if it’ll come back around
Why do we walk up these steps if only to fall down?

We all fall down
uhm alright?

uhm alright (osyris israel)

produced by @icu132 and @swords2

since that day been filled with hatred
I miss the ones I love my heart is aching
Some of us go on, the rest remain here
I know One day I’ll follow but I still fear 

We’re all dying here will you let me breathe
I don’t want to talk will you leave me be
Flashbacks from the hospice I can’t even sleep
That night when you told me, I couldn’t believe

I couldn't believe
No I couldn’t believe
So I cursed it
So I cursed it

I was taught to tear myself apart
you taught me to do what I love
I still keep that love in my heart
I can’t sleep I’m still staring up above

hatred

hatred (icu132 + tekken96141)

@icu132

dedicated to those I’ve lost, and those I’m losing.

Already know I’m gonna die 
please don’t make it worse
And Everyday I still fight 
But that don’t make it worth it
And I’ve still got some life 
Break me for my service 
Yeah I don’t want advice 
I just want some words 

I just need some words
I just want to hear a voice
Don’t know why it kinda hurts
Maybe I should stop the noise 

But then I get to thinking
I ask these questions but I don’t have an answer
And I don’t know if someone does
I didn’t feel it in the moment but I don’t feel better

dogs

we keep going and going, far from here

What’s the point in this

I’m speaking but no one’s listening

What’s the point in this

I keep walking so distant

I cant tell where I’m at

Everything goes by so fast

I just want to go back

It’s so far from here

You’re so far from here

Far from here

So far

Far from here

So far

So far from here 

I don’t want to be anywhere

far from here

I’m so tired of the noise don’t wanna hear me out
I’m so tired of it all just wanna live it out
I’m so tired I just want to go to sleep
I spend a third of my life a fucking sleep
I don’t wanna go nowhere this shit is evil
All this shit is evil
I look outside all this shit is evil

maybe I’ll be pure in death but I’m still alive
I put baggage on my head but I’m still alive
Nobody hears me out

I starve myself often I don’t feel alive

I still feel so awful I don’t wanna lie
I don’t wanna lie

Hear me out

Hear me out

hear me out

no fun (duble + missing + martinleib)

fail

money

fail (duble + tgwog)

no show

no show ft. chinapoet (duble + gyozuh)

trudging

trudging (follow + noveks)

again

again (grxgvr + katebi)

let it be

let it be ft. esperr (kohl + follow + 6houl)

everyones ok

everyones ok (javier)

hank hill

hank hill ft. swords2 (duble + maxwtj + tgwog)

saddam

produced by @1avoid

I scream aloud Just to feel centered 
say what I want But I don’t feel much better
Everyday becomes more of an endeavor
I don’t like the future But by the past I’m fettered

It’s A pain no freedom could atone for
Knowing that I said it made it hurt more 
I keep going forwards keep going forwards
Is this the future that we work towards

I just leave it up to fate 
I don’t want to dedicate
Anymore
All the life that we consecrate
What’s it for
Everything becomes an awful pain 
And I abhor 
Everything you say it’s tainted

And no matter what I say it can’t be worded
Maybe what I’m feelings not important
Like a descriptions Sisyphean is it worthless
I’m only human a condition I was born in


I scream aloud Just to feel centered 
say what I want But I don’t feel much better
Everyday becomes more of an endeavor
I don’t like the future But by the past I’m fettered

reduced

reduced (avoid)

bleeding heart (icu132)

The clouds obstruct the sun, leave me in shadow
I try to keep the balance teetering on the tightrope 
I remember what Dostoevsky said about the gallows
But it’s certain we’ll all end up in the meadows

I hope that I slip silently into the shadows
I’m swallowed by that mouth of hallowed

Everyone’s tryna put me up I pull myself down
I’m so stuck with suffering that there’s no way out

slaughterhouse; the routes paved out by those who came before me
The choice we didn’t make played out, your consequences formed me

I can’t
Do anything on my own
(I can’t, I can’t)
Why did you leave me on my own?

The clouds obstruct the sun, leave me in shadow
I try to keep the balance teetering on the tightrope 
I remember what Dostoevsky said about the gallows
But it’s certain we’ll all end up in the meadows

shadow

shadow (g0bln)

remaining

remain (icu132)

My Father always called me a quitter.
My losses will stay with me,
to remind me I’m still in the race.
It will not be finished,
I cannot be free. 
I am unabsolved, 
so I must continue.
I met your tired eyes.
You never gave up,
you pressed on,
for so long,
and for what?
I saw you sink into your gray hairs,
in that resting place,
you cried out to keep going,
but you’d never been tired like this.
You left me to a waking dream,
my nails bleeding,
clinging to what parts of you remain.
I am so tired,
and suffering,
and I have not yet forgotten,
that I am not yet free.

unabsolved (icu132)

Why am I so worried about things that haven’t happened yet?
I can’t be certain but I’m far past my second guess
Wish I could die without knowing, I can’t process it
Everything is behind me and I’m still anxious

I wish I could die without knowing, like I child that can’t process it
Everything is behind me but there’s not a moment I’m not anxious

And I don’t even know what to tell you 
I don’t even know what to tell you

uuniform

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