Produced by deflect
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I don’t need friends, I’ll say that shit again
‘Cause they don’t like me for who I am (They’re two-faced)
I don’t need 'em, rather suffocate (I said)
Man, I don’t need 'em, let’s get it straight

I wanna watch them fall like the Berlin Wall
I don’t need their guides, man, I don’t need them at all
I got a whole lotta messages I don’t answer at all
Why should I spend the time when I can spend it at the mall
I wanna watch them fall like the Berlin Wall
I don’t need their guides, man, I don’t need them at all
I got a whole lotta messages I don’t answer at all
Why should I spеnd the time when I can spеnd it at the mall

Everyday, I’m getting farther away from them
Treated me like shit, and I got tired of it
One step away, man, I’ll be closer to death
Walked out with a couple bullets into my chest
What was the last thing I said, and did it make them upset?
I don’t care, I hope I never-ever see them again
They treat me like I’m garbage, going straight to the bin
And now that I’m up there, they wanna piece of it
I can tell you “They ain’t worth my shit.”
Even if they tried, they couldn’t ever be like this
They belong in a darkened abyss
They had their chance and now they barely know that they missed

(Man, I don’t need them at all)

I wanna watch them fall like the Berlin Wall
I don’t need their guides, man, I don’t need them at all
I got a whole lotta messages I don’t answer at all
Why should I spend the time when I can spend it at the mall
I wanna watch them fall like the Berlin Wall
I don’t need their guides, man, I don’t need them at all
I got a whole lotta messages I don’t answer at all
Why should I spend the time when I can spend it at the mall

(I wanna watch them fall like the Berlin Wall)
(I don’t need their guides, man, I don’t need them at all)
(I got a whole lotta messages I don’t answer at all)
(Why should I spend the time when I can spend it at the mall)

berlin wall

berlin wall [p. deflect]

Produced by mndls 
Mixed & Mastered by me + @gloomed
Lyrics by me & gloom

[gloomed]
Uh, what is just wrong with you baby?
Feels like I’ve been losing myself in this hades
Stop lying, fucking try it
I got one thing to tell you before I start dying

You meant nothing else, all them heartbreaks and panics were hell
I’m tired of living like there is nobody who could give help
I’m a psychopathic killer, baby, the way I fucking kill myself
Theres string on my heart, and you know how to play that shit so damn well
Uh, pass it all the way

[union*]
And he gon' pass the mic like he passin' me a drank
I was out all night, I was fucking up my name
She said she “Obsessed” with me, she only want the fame
I’ve been

[gloomed]
Losing myself 'cause I cant restrain
The hive mind killing and they fucked up my brain
I’ve been illin' so how could I lose my brain?
Baby been talking but she don’t understand this hate

[union*]
And she don’t understand what I’ve been through 
Hell and back because of you
And I don’t feel like you get me
And all around, I think you wanna forget

Depressions high with a fear of being alone
Fight all night for a scent of a serotone
I was tryna forget you
Nah fuck that, I was tryna reset
'Cause you’ve been acting different lately 
The bars set high and your tryna degrade me
My throne sits higher than you, ain’t that a fuckin' day dream
I know you fucking hate me 

[gloomed]
Losing myself 'cause I cant restrain
The hive mind killing and they fucked up my brain
I’ve been illin' so how could I lose my brain?
Baby been talking but she don’t-

(Mockingbird)

mockingbird

mockingbird (w/ gloomed) [p. mndls]

Produced by rickvel
Featuring @midsxmmr
Mixed and mastered by me & midsxmmr
Lyrics by me & midsxmmr

(@unionha)
Did I say a little too much?
If I did, then I’m sorry my love
But you have gotta try
I’m fighting for my life 

I lost my track, I’m sinking 
I wonder, “Do you need him?”
'Cause your love was barely needed
My texts, you’re never receiving 
And your love is so deceiving
My body aches from bleeding out
Your love, I’d rather drown
There’s no more saving me

This wasn’t how I meant to be
But girl, I lost my brain
I know you don’t care
Girl, was I a vanity fair?
I miss our conversations
But I hate our confrontations
You act like a bitch to me
You’re selfish, you don’t even see a thing
Like oh my fucking god
You say it’s all my fault 
I’m going fucking manic
'Cause girl, I cannot stand it

Did I say a little too much?
If I did, then I’m sorry my love
But you have gotta try
I’m fighting for my life 

I lost my track, I’m sinking 
I wonder, “Do you need him?”
'Cause your love was barely needed
My texts, you’re never receiving 
And your love is so deceiving
My body aches from bleeding out
Your love, I’d rather drown
There’s no more saving me

(@midsxmmr)
And I’m sinking, I’m falling so far down 
'Cause all my plans just got so stretched out
And I’ve been screaming and yelling, so damn loud 
I guess that I’m just so damn done now 

And I’m so toxic, like are you trying to watch this? 
I’m really been fiending for a fight, but you can stop this 
Like, are you just trying to fuck over my plans girl? 
I hope you know that you could never have my hand girl 
I know you want it, but you will never have it
You had me looking so dumb when you grabbed it 
All you really did is prove to me that you’re batshit
Crazy and it’s tragic 

And I know now, that I’ll never know how
To deal with you after a night out
Nocturnal, yeah, your just a night owl 
And I guess you're always right on

(@unionha @midsxmmr)
I lost my track, I’m sinking 
I wonder, “Do you need him?”
'Cause your love was barely needed
My texts, you’re never receiving 
And your love is so deceiving
My body aches from bleeding out
Your love, I’d rather drown
There’s no more saving me

sinking

sinking (w/ midsxmmr) [p. rickvel]

Produced by johnnyfriend
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

And I won’t lie, I’ll say it
You look way better by my side
Do you wanna spend the night?
I promise I don’t even mind
I don’t like conversation 
But we can talk all through the night
Tell me what all up on your mind 
The story of you’re life

Baby, I would die for you
I’ll sacrifice a thing or two
Just to make sure that you’re alright 
Baby, I’d prefer this world if it was just you and I 
Baby, I would die for you
I’ll sacrifice a thing or two
Just to make sure that you’re alright 
Baby, I’d prefer this world if it was just you and I 

Girl, what is holding you back?
Can you tell me the issue?
I’ll solve all you’re problems 
That’s how much I miss you
I’m missing you daily
It still feels a-shaming
I render my response and you won’t even call

Should I give it up?
‘Cause every time I try baby, you say “It’s not enough”
But I don’t care
I wanna make it fair
Baby, it’s not very nice of me to leave you stranded here

Baby, I would die for you
I’ll sacrifice a thing or two
Just to make sure that you’re alright 
Baby, I’d prefer this world if it was just you and I
Baby, I would die for you
I’ll sacrifice a thing or two
Just to make sure that you’re alright 
Baby, I’d prefer this world if it was just you and I

render

die4u

die4u [p. johnnyfriend]

Produced by johnnyfriend
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

One on one, I need to know if you’re okay
I know it’s hard to open up
But you can tell me anything you know 
'Cause I know it’s hard to cope
But you can hide anything you told your friends
That’s fine I guess

I think I phase right past you
I swear I’ve tried to ask you 
A hundred times, I swear to god I’ve given up
I gave you everything 
Down to a diamond ring 
Down to my last dime, you meant everything to me
I think I phase right past you
I swear I’ve tried to ask you 
A hundred times, I swear to god I’ve given up
I gave you everything 
Down to a diamond ring 
Down to my last dime, you meant everything to me
 
Was this ever a mistake?
'Cause you have gone insane
You’re stressed, do you need space?
I don’t want you to walk away
From everything we had
Don’t throw it in the trash
I wanna make this possible
Don’t want to break up, to make up, that’s not alright
A new whip to dash, are you down to ride?
Baby, I will give you time
Missing piece inside my life
You’re leaving slowly
You act like you don’t know me
I guess I’ll give it up
Since you say I ain’t good enough 

I think I phase right past you
I swear I’ve tried to ask you 
A hundred times, I swear to god I’ve given up
I gave you everything 
Down to a diamond ring 
Down to my last dime, you meant everything to me
I think I phase right past you
I swear I’ve tried to ask you 
A hundred times, I swear to god I’ve given up
I gave you everything 
Down to a diamond ring 
Down to my last dime, you meant everything to me

phase right past u

phase right past u [p. johnnyfriend]

Produced by @siemspark & @yungspoiler
Mixed + mastered by @sheluvsdior, me & @midsxmmr
Lyrics by me & @midsxmmr

I’ll never understand your ways
On why you contemplate
Or why you wanted me
I guess I’ll never know
One, two, three, four
I don’t need you anymore 
Five, six, seven, eight 
I’ll put a bitch right in her place
Oh, right where she belong
Never needed me all along
I’m losing your trust
O-woah

As the lights illuminate 
Oh girl, I wonder why are still here with me
Been two whole years, and darling, you still haven’t changed
Not a bit, oh my mistress 
I need a wrist to slit

Instead of cutting myself
I think I might cut you out 
Because without a doubt 
I know you won't shut your mouth
Losing track of my head
I can't stand your demands
There's nothing more than I would want than your love
But if we keep on falling down we'll end up 
In a rut, dreaming of

Us, as the lights illuminate 
Oh girl, I wonder why are still here with me
Been two whole years, and darling, you still haven’t changed
Not a bit, oh my mistress 
I need a wrist to slit
(As the lights illuminate)
(Oh girl, I wonder why are still here with me)
(Been two whole years, and darling, you still haven’t changed)
(Not a bit, oh my mistress)
I need a wrist to slit

wrist2slit!

wrist2slit

wrist2slit! (w/ midsxmmr) [p. siem spark + yungspoiler]

Produced by @deflect888 + @prodbyliquor
Featuring @gloomed
Mixed & mastered by me + gloomed
Lyrics by me + gloomed

I'm on my own again
Was I not enough?
You said you'd be here until the end
I guess I'm outta luck
(But who gives a fuck)
('Cause we'll die young while we're both fucked up)
(High out our minds, we're just growin' up)
(Been more than four whole weeks)
(You haven't shown any love)
Growin' up

I got lots of shit that I need to get off my chest
I have lots of shit that have been left unsaid
I reminisce on the days that I had felt alive
I reminisce on the days when I was alright
I haven't been fine in a long damn time
I haven't been fine, have I lost my mind?
I remember times when I cried at night
It still continues today
(Oo-woah)

I'm on my own again
Was I not enough?
You said you'd be here until the end
I guess I'm outta luck
But who gives a fuck
'Cause we'll die young while we're both fucked up
High out our minds, we're just growin' up
Been more than four whole weeks
You haven't shown any love
Growin' up

When I'm with you, I feel in love
For four whole weeks, I haven't felt enough
I'm alone, I just wanna see my home
As I lay on the floor, I get them thoughts straight in my head
Baby, wanted some more
I'll tell you shit that is unsaid
The news got cables wrappin' round
And it's gon' flip inside my head
Baby, I don't wanna be dead

I'm on my own again
(Was I not enough?)
You said you'd be here until the end
Guess I'm outta luck
But who gives a fuck
'Cause we'll die young while we're both fucked up
High out our minds, we're just growin' up
Been more than four whole weeks
You haven't shown any love
Growin' up

(Growin' up)
(You haven't shown any)

growin' up

growin' up (w/ gloomed) [p. deflect + liquorrr]

Produced by michael harrison 
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

This shit to aching, girl I’m running out of options 
I can’t control what I did in the past, I know I hurt you bad
I know I did some shit that made you the way you act

I’ll never be what you want girl I know it
I’m so fucking scared and alone
And all the tears in my eyes, you ignore it
And I’m to fucking cowardly to say
You mean the world to me
Oh, you mean the world to me
To me, uh, to me
To me, hey, hey, hey!

Gun to my head, I wanna die
Girl, I don’t wanna be alive
This shit to much can’t even hide
Girl, I don’t wanna be a lost cause, 'cause I can’t explain it
And you led me here alone in anguish
And we’re not seeing eye to eye and I can’t ever deny
I’ll always love you till then

Even if we are apart 
There’s not a doubt in my mind
I’ll be by you till the end 
I’ll always be by your side
Till the end
Oh my god, no pretend
Even if you aren’t alive, I’ll be here right by your side
You are the love of my life, (But you don’t want me)

I’ll never be what you want girl I know it
I’m so fucking scared and alone
And all the tears in my eyes, you ignore it (You ignore it)
And I’m to fucking cowardly to say (I’m so cowardly to say)
You mean the world to me (You mean the world to me)
Oh, you mean the world to me
To me, uh, to me
To me, hey, hey, hey!

You mean the world to me
You mean the world to me
You mean the world to me
You mean the world to-

anguish

anguish [p. michael harrison]

Produced by yourstanger & 1jahvi
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I’m terrified, walking all alone 
I walked my path and you walked back home 
And then you wonder why I’m not 
Right by your side when you needed me 
For my whole life, you’ve hated me 
When did that ever change? 
Know you will be the death of me

My bones decay when you’re not around 
I’ve headed west you’re going south 
You asked if I’ll ever change? No
Baby, I’ma stay the same, yuh
You act like I’m the problem 
Girl I tried, but you never wanna 
You didn’t ever feel the same, so 
I’ma stay the fucking same, oh

I’m going deeper 
Until I finally reach her
Until I meet the reaper 
She don’t wanna see me either but damn I need her 
I tried to talk, but I’d get shut down 
I close my eyes, and I shut my mouth 
Did you ever want to be with me? 
Girl, did you ever really feel the same?
I know you didn’t for a while
The messages in your mail
Girl, will you ever get back to them? 
Girl, I could never tell
What you meant by that
Girl, you said grow up but I know I can’t
I rendered in my mind
That you were here to waste my time
I can’t take it anymore, girl
Watch my body hit the floor 

My bones decay when you’re not around 
I’ve headed west you’re going south 
You asked if I’ll ever change? No
Baby, I’ma stay the same, yuh
You act like I’m the problem 
Girl I tried, but you never wanna 
You didn’t ever feel the same, so 
I’ma stay the fucking same, oh

ima stay the same

ima stay the same [p. yourstranger + 1jahvi]

Produced by michael harrison
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

When did it get this fucking lonely?
I try to make it better, but I just made it worse 
I reckon that you used to know me 
Before I went MIA and pushed everyone away 

Girl, I can’t deny I’m stupid 
Hold my head 'cause I might lose it￼
Walked away, came back as a new man 
What’s the point of heaven knows that I’m losing 

I took time to find the good in me
I realized I’m better 6 feet deep
‘Cause all of my friends taking LSD 
For half of their whole life might be good for me
Like who would’ve guessed I’m really not surprised 
They’d probably be better unalive 

My crush don’t like me at least that’s what I think 
I’ve never been the one to take a fucking chance
I guarantee the money that’s been in my hand
Will go to the friends that needed drugs instead 
All my life been supported by no one 
All my life fuck I hate knowing no one 
Been pushing myself away
Can’t even think straight 
Half my friends think that I’m gay 
Although they barely talk to me 
I reckon that you used to know me 
Before I went MIA and pushed everyone away 

Girl, I can’t deny I’m stupid 
Hold my head 'cause I might lose it
Walked away, came back as a new man 
What’s the point of heaven knows that I’m losing 

All my life been supported by no one
All my life fuck I hate knowing no one

acquaintance

Produced by michael harrison
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I’ve never been a quitter 
I’ve never been the one to say that I’m a fucking winner
I’m just a fucking sinner
There’s a girl in a dress, and she looks so nice 
Hoping one day maybe that she could be mine 

But that’ll never happen because she don’t wanna be involved
She said I’m so dramatic but I don’t really give a fuck
Oh girl, I think that I’m in love, oh, oh, love
Oh darling, you’re the one I trust, oh, oh, trust
I wonder why you haven’t said that you feel a certain way?
I don’t think I should drag it ‘cause you don’t feel the fucking same
I guess I’ll be here on my way, ay, ay, ay
I guess I’ll finally run away, ay, ay, ay

I guess I’ll finally run away
'Cause you really feel the same
Don’t wanna be the one to fucking shut you down
But I won’t lie you’re not really fun to be around
And there’s this girl that I like
She said that she wanna be friends
She started giving signs that started fucking with my head
I guess that’s how it goes 
And I got used to being alone 
But I’m just growing up, so I don’t know 
I could be wrong, but it don’t really show
I wrap my thoughts around my neck 
I’ll tie a noose, rather be dead 
But I can’t do that, leave my best friend Gwen
But it’ll never happen, no it’ll never happen 
I guess I’ll be alright, ight

But that’ll never happen because she don’t wanna be involved
She said I’m so dramatic but I don’t really give a fuck
Oh girl, I think that I’m in love, oh, oh, love
Oh darling, you’re the one I trust, oh, oh, trust
I wonder why you haven’t said that you feel a certain way?
I don’t think I should drag it ‘cause you don’t feel the fucking same
I guess I’ll be here on my way, ay, ay, ay
I guess I’ll finally run away, ay, ay, ay

I guess I’ll finally run away
'Cause you really feel the same

runaway

Produced by michael harrison
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

You dissect every part of me, I don’t wanna know 
Hiding, so embarrassing 
Where the fuck do I go? 

Where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know 

You’re breaking me down into pieces 
Oh, oh
I wonder what happened last year to me?
Why is no one talking to me? 
Maybe it’s 'cause my own self
But I don’t need no one’s help 
I’m super anxious, darling don’t mistake it
Maybe I could change my ways?
But I don’t really know 
To dissect every part of me, I don’t wanna know 
Hiding, so embarrassing 
Where the fuck do I go? 

Where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
Oh, where do I go? 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know 
I don’t wanna know

dissect

Produced by Michael Harrison
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Multiply the reasons why I don’t wanna be alive
I’m such a cunt, that’s what you said, but I don’t seem to mind
'Cause we are only human, something you don’t realize 
Girl, we can only try, it’s just apart of life, so

Realign the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
I don’t wanna try
Girl, do you even mind if I don’t feel all right? 
I just wanna cry
I’m so petrified, girl, I don’t wanna fight
So I guess I’ll leave
I’ll leave you, I’ll leave town
I’ll head west, you’ll go south 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life
Damn, I really wish that you were around 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life

Every day I wonder why you’re never by my side 
I realize that every time it’s always suicide 
And you said I would never change, never change 
But you know it goes either way, either way 
And you always said that I was a jerk 
And I won’t be offended 'cause I know you’re hurt 
I did the best I ever could, ever could
But I was never any good, any good
And my friends said they sober, but I don’t believe them
'Cause they were always older, and I was under them
And I bet when I’m 17, 17 
That it’ll be the end of me, so

I realign the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
I don’t wanna try
Girl, do you even mind if I don’t feel all right? 
I just wanna cry
I’m so petrified, girl, I don’t wanna fight
So I guess I’ll leave
I’ll leave you, I’ll leave town
I’ll head west, you’ll go south 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life
Damn, I really wish that you were around 
It’s apart of life, part of life, part of life

Girl, I don’t want any part of this 
But you’ve got my blood stained on your cardigan 
And I did all this, just to fall apart again 
And now I fall again, while you fall for other men 
I realigned the words I say 
You’re not in love with me 
You do not love me babe 
You want everything
I gave you every bit of me
Oh I tried, oh I tried 
Oh I tried

apart of life

apart of life [p. michael harrison]

*ALL PLATS* (https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/union6/history)

Produced by @deflect888, @unionha and Retz
Mixed and mastered by me and deflect
Lyrics by me

Tell me why I cannot feel my bones
Break into pieces as you walk out through my door
Oh girl, I cannot say I hate you
But I can clearly say I made you

So go away
I don’t want conversation 
I’m tired, I fucking hate it
Don’t wanna fake how I feel

I’ll tell you from the start
You tore me all apart 
It’s just our history
Hope it’s just you and me
Unlike the twenty other guys 
That you made love to every night 
I feel it in my guts
I think I’ve had enough 

They told me, “Go to therapy”
I told them, “Fuck you, I’ll just leave”
I’ve lost all of my inner peace 
And I’ve been making enemies 
They like to watch you fall
Just like the Berlin Wall
Make money and waste it all 
On their favorite alcohol
Oh, ain’t I fucking lucky
You never fucking loved me
And my ex, that bitch still haunt me 
When I’m dead I hope there’s something 
For you baby
You drive me crazy
I hope you hate me 
I guess that’s it

So I’ll just leave 
I don’t want conversation 
I’m tired, I fucking hate it
Don’t wanna fake how I feel

I’ll tell you from the start
You tore me all apart 
It’s just our history
Hope it’s just you and me
Unlike the twenty other guys 
That you made love to every night 
I feel it in my guts
I think I’ve had enough

history

history [p. deflect, me + prodretz]

Produced by ily2 & Chris Marek
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

(You’re fucking stupid)
My serotonin got my lower than my Pops
You say you love me but won’t show me what you’ve got
And tell me why I never seem to get the hint 
That you don’t love me at all
I’m tired of being lonely by default
And I’ve made deadly mistakes 
I’m watching as I slowly decay
I’m tired of being lonely and vague 
I’m tired of cutting into my veins

While you left me here all by myself 
Leave me be, or rot in hell
That’s what they said
But I can’t seem to get it through my head
Oh I can’t, she loves me more than herself 
Be with me, rather kill myself
I’m in your debt
And I’ve been living with all my regrets 
And I can’t take it anymore 

Tell me why, tell me why you left
It’s all alright, it’s all alright l guess
I live with my, I live with my regrets 
I said it in the chorus but I’ll say that shit again
You fucked me up my darling 
Oh, at least I’m being honest 
'Cause I don’t really like to lie
Stuck inside my brain, you’re like a parasite 
I have you in mind

While you left me here all by myself 
Leave me be, or rot in hell
That’s what they said
But I can’t seem to get it through my head
Oh I can’t, she loves me more than herself 
Be with me, rather kill myself
I’m in your debt
And I’ve been living with all my regrets 
And I can’t take it anymore

(And I can’t take it anymore, I can’t take it anymore)
(I can’t take it anymore)
(And I can’t take it anymore, I can’t take it anymore)
(I can’t take it anymore) 
More
I tried to run, I tried to run
I tried to run, I tried to run
I tried to run, I tried to run
I tried to run, I tried to run

While you left me here all by myself (self)
Leave me be, or rot in hell (in hell)
That’s what they said (said)
But I can’t seem to get it through my head (head)
Oh I can’t, she loves me more than herself 
Be with me, rather kill myself
I’m in your debt
And I’ve been living with all my regrets 
And I can’t take it anymore

ik ur eager for an apology

ik ur eager for an apology [p. ily2 + chris marek]

Produced by @reo4u
Featuring: causifye, VazClare, + wockkstvrs.nation
Mixed + mastered by me
Lyrics by us 

[lyrics soon]

Yeah, one shot heater, bitch, I’m smoking reefer
Tote a Glock inside my pocket, that shit got a Beamer
And you’re bitch, she gaggin' dick, that shit gon' make her knees hurt
That bitch fuckin' beggin, baby I don’t really need her
Yeah, one shot heater, bitch, I’m smoking reefer
Tote a Glock inside my pocket, that shit got a Beamer
And you’re bitch, she gaggin' dick, that shit gon' make her knees hurt
That bitch fuckin' beggin, baby I don’t really need her

Yeah, it’s pedal to the medal in that beamer 
No McDonald’s, but its triple double teamer 
I got two phones, not two foes, I got none
I got too many clones, yeah bitch I’m fuckin' done
One shot heater, bitch we pack-a-punch 
Gave that boy a knuckle sandwich, ate that shit for lunch
Listen to jerktape, it’ll change your fuckin' life 
Like this shit COD, I call the fuckin' strike

ONE SHOT HEATER

ONE SHOT HEATER (w/ causifye, VazClare + wockkstvrs.nation) [p. reo4u]

Produced by @deflect888 & jibaorockin
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Yeah, yeah
Oh, oh-oh, oh-woah
Ugh, yeah ooh-woah

My fucked up state of mind
Oh darling, I don’t wanna try
When you’ve got tear drops in your eyes 
Oh darling, I’m damn near terrified 
The process of hypnosis
Gets me nauseous, I guess
I wonder if you’re honest, do you promise?
Oh my darling, I’m dead

You said “I wish you well”
I hope you rot in hell
I never gave a fuck about you, but you couldn’t tell 
I made it obvious, you brought an audience 
A public suicide, oh girl, I love your cockiness 
You said “I wish you well”
I hope you rot in hell
I never gave a fuck about you, but you couldn’t tell 
I made it obvious, you brought an audience 
A public suicide, oh girl, I love your cockiness 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
(Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
Yeah, yeah, oh-woah
Yeah, yeah, oh-woah

I don’t wanna fuck this up
Obvious, I’m still in love
And I really hate to say this, but I fucked things up
Shot in my chest, I don’t wanna get up 
I gave up now I don’t really miss you 
Personal issues, a therapist, you need one
I don’t wanna be one for you, darling 
Your fucking hypnosis, shit got me falling

You said “I wish you well”
I hope you rot in hell
I never gave a fuck about you, but you couldn’t tell 
I made it obvious, you brought an audience 
A public suicide, oh girl, I love your cockiness 
You said “I wish you well”
I hope you rot in hell
I never gave a fuck about you, but you couldn’t tell 
I made it obvious, you brought an audience 
A public suicide, oh girl, I love your cockiness 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
(Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh)
Yeah, yeah, oh-woah
Yeah, yeah, oh-woah

hypnosis

hypnosis [p. deflect + jibaorockin]

Produced by ily2 & Chris Marek
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Back then, wasn’t doing well, oh
Last year wanted to kill myself
But I chose to be a loner
It’s better than being sober
My friends on fentanyl now
Can’t seem to be seen alone now
Shitty weather and this shit is cold out
Cheap drugs and the shit is sold out
It’s hard to believe that you wanna be with me
Oh, but mother always said
That this shit ain’t pretend

And my mother told me, “It’s better to feel lonely
Than trust someone you don’t love”
And as I get older, I realize I know you
More than I thought I had before
And I don’t wanna know you anymore 

I’d shoot myself before I leave you behind
You’ve got the touch of serotonin in mind
You live your life without any repercussions 
I’m angrier than ever, take it out on percussions
I ain’t what you want, you ain’t the girl that I fucking loved
Yeah, something changed, there’s no other way
Either you leave before I run away
And I won’t lie, you’re better living life with someone else
But keep in mind, you’re someone that I love more than myself 

And my mother told me, “It’s better to feel lonely
Than trust someone you don’t love”
And as I get older, I realize I know you
More than I thought I had before
And I don’t wanna know you anymore 

I’m breaking free from my cell
Fuck you, I wish you’re in hell
I hope you rot in the dirt
I wish that this shit would work

And my mother told me, “It’s better to feel lonely
Than trust someone you don’t love”
(You don’t love)
And as I get older, I realize I know you
More than I thought I had before
And I don’t wanna know you anymore

facade

mother always said

mother always said [p. ily2 + chris marek]

Produced by michael harrison
Featuring @1gr4eme
Mixed and mastered by me and graeme
Lyrics by me and graeme

Change of direction
Don’t know where to go
A change of exception, I don’t want you here at all
You’re looking at me funny
Did I say something wrong?
There’s no more discussion 
Believed that I’m fucked

Oh, tell me why you left
Oh, tell me why you lie
Oh, tell me every story that you make inside your mind 
Oh, tell me if you’re bluffing, baby, I will make it right 
Oh, why should I try when I barley feel alive
Whatever it takes to say that I’m okay
You paved me in the gutter baby, pushed me out the way
You said you wanted love and now you’re picking out my brains
I promised then and now that I will make it out

Just tell me what you want, these things I can’t give you
I want the same things but I can’t upset you
And I’ve tried, I can’t see the light
Messed up my direction, just tell me what I’m missing
So we can move on and count what we've lost
We've lost our connection, what’s the point of me stressing?
And I’ve found what you said again
You left me out, all the lies
I know I’m still in your heart

Change of direction
Don’t know where to go
A change of exception, I don’t want you here at all
You’re looking at me funny
Did I say something wrong?
There’s no more discussion 
Believed that I’m fucked

Oh, tell me why you left
Oh, tell me why you lie
Oh, tell me every story that you make inside your mind 
Oh, tell me if you’re bluffing, baby, I will make it right 
Oh, why should I try when I barley feel alive
Whatever it takes to say that I’m okay
You paved me in the gutter baby, pushed me out the way
You said you wanted love and now you’re picking out my brains
I promised then and now that I will make it out

oh (w/ graeme) [p. michael harrison]

Produced by Michael Harrison
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

When will you text my line?
I’m horrified, down to my spine
Don’t wanna be alive
I’ve been inside, I haven’t seen this sight of day or night
I’m so confused, I don’t understand all my thoughts yet
It’s hard to process
How I feel, it’s so unreal
I don’t want you to go, I’m tired of being alone
You won’t understand, girl, take my hand
Don’t leave me tonight, all I sacrificed
(All I sacrificed)

Uh, it was a lot, so much that I lost
I can’t get it back, I loved you a lot
But you never cared, you were never there
Oh, this shit ain’t fair, I wasn’t aware
That you left back to Render
Back to Render
I wasn’t aware, you went back to Render
You went back to Render

When will you text my line?
I’m horrified, down to my spine
Don’t wanna be alive
I’ve been inside, I haven’t seen this sight of day or night
I’m so confused, I don’t understand all my thoughts yet
It’s hard to process
How I feel, it’s so unreal
I don’t want you to go, I’m tired of being alone
You won’t understand, girl, take my hand
Don’t leave me tonight, all I sacrificed
(All I sacrificed)

sacrifices

sacrifices [p. michael harrison]

Produced by michael harrison 
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Prettiest girl in the world
Oh, can you just tell me something 
Tell me why should I ever try
When you don’t even care
Too much, I’m in your hair 

Oh, can’t you see
You’re better with me in your life
Oh, I cannot go, it’s too much to weigh
If you wanna know, girl, I’ll fucking wait
Yeah, I’ll wait for you

I said a part of me’s a part of you
And I can never seem to fucking choose
If I’ve been wrong my whole life
You tear me down and you act like it’s alright
I know you don’t want me, I honestly get that
But if you didn’t love me, oh, why didn’t you say that
Well so long, I’ll never see you again (No more)
Well goodbye, you’re just a friend of a friend I guess

Prettiest girl in the world (In the world)
Oh, can you just tell me something (Oh, tell me)
Oh, tell me why should I ever lie
When you don’t even mind, I’m tired of goodbyes

Oh, can’t you see
You’re better with me in your life
Oh, I cannot go, it’s too much to weigh
If you wanna know, girl, I’ll fucking wait
Yeah, I’ll wait for you
(Yeah, I’ll wait for you)
(I’ll wait for you my love)
(Yeah, I’ll wait for you)
(Yeah, I’ll wait for you)
Oh, I cannot go, it’s too much to weigh
If you wanna know, girl, I’ll fucking wait
Yeah, I’ll wait for you

wait4u

wait4u [p. michael harrison]

Produced by ily2 & Chris Marek
Featuring @aqua-kairi-561790693
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me + Aqua

(I’ve got nothing to lose)
Tell me what you want from me
(Tell me what you want)
'Cause I’d give you the world 
Oh, I would never want any other girl
On any other world
Just tell me what you need and I’ll sacrifice 
'Cause you’re the only girl that I want in my life
And girl without a doubt, you’re always in my mind
And give it time, you’re better in my life
Oh, I’d take a bullet for you
Would you ever take a bullet for me?
I don’t know, but I’ll never let you go
(I’ll never let you go)

You’re in my trust, you’re the only girl I’ll ever love
I don’t ever think I’ll be alright without you inside my life
(Without you inside my life)
We just discussed on why it’s better just to be in love
'Cause I just wanna be the only guy that you cry to every night 
(That you cry to every night)

Caught up in your vibe like it's a melody
With you it feels like a movie, can't you see?
You're my favorite
Character, the one I choose
In this story, you're the one I never want to lose

You’re in my trust, you’re the only girl I’ll ever love
I don’t ever think I’ll be alright without you inside my life
(Without you inside my life)
We just discussed on why it’s better just to be in love
'Cause I just wanna be the only guy that you cry to every night 
(That you cry to every night)

(I’d cry for you, I’ll die for you)
(I’ll lie for you my dear)
(Oh, I’d cry for you, I’ll lie for you)
(I’d die for you my dear)
I can’t describe all of my thoughts 
You’re someone that I wanna love
Even if you’re dead, I’ll give you all and more
You’ll find me in the morgue

You’re in my trust, you’re the only girl I’ll ever love
I don’t ever think I’ll be alright without you inside my life
(Oh, without you inside my life)
We just discussed on why it’s better just to be in love
'Cause I just wanna be the only guy that you cry to every night 
That you cry to every night
(What?)

i've been a manifester

i've been a manifester (w/ Aqua) [p. ily2 + chris marek]

Produced by @maeliveson
Mixed & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

And if I’m being honest I don’t need you fucking anyway
Say you’re terrified, but yet you’re too scared just to run away
It’s so much on the line, said it’s fiction, it’s a lie
Yet there’s so much truth inside of it, I can’t fucking decide
Said you needed me, but I don’t need you fucking anyway
Say you’re terrified, but yet you’re too scared just to run away
It’s so much on the line, said it’s fiction, it’s a lie
Yet there’s so much truth inside of it, I can’t fucking decide

It's too much of the everything babe 
And you’re love, swear it’s driving me insane 
It’s been forever, I don’t wanna feel vague 
(No, no, no, no)
I don’t really wanna die tonight 
But if I gotta, I’mma do it just to save your life
'Cause you mean everything to me, don’t wanna say a lie
But if I gotta, I’mma say it, you were never mine

And if I’m being honest I don’t need you fucking anyway
Say you’re terrified, but yet you’re too scared just to run away
It’s so much on the line, said it’s fiction, it’s a lie
Yet there’s so much truth inside of it, I can’t fucking decide
Said you needed me, but I don’t need you fucking anyway
Say you’re terrified, but yet you’re too scared just to run away
It’s so much on the line, said it’s fiction, it’s a lie
Yet there’s so much truth inside of it, I can’t fucking decide

fiction

fiction [p. maeri]

Produced by @brayamm
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

Take a bullet with no armor on
I don’t wanna be the one you love
And I can’t cry no tears
Didn’t I make it clear?
When I said that I need you gone
You always try to tear a hole in my heart
Say farewell to my peers
If they don’t make it through this year
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I cry my fucking eyes out when you’re not around 
Is it too much to say to you that I try to keep you out
We keep on falling
But I’m not falling for you
You keep on calling
Too bad, I’m far away for good
We keep on falling
But I’m not falling for you
You keep on calling
Uh, uh, yeah, yeah

Take a bullet with no armor on
I don’t wanna be the one you love
And I can’t cry no tears
Didn’t I make it clear?
When I said that I need you gone
You always try to tear a hole in my heart
Say farewell to my peers
If they don’t make it through this year
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

armor

armor [p. brayam]

happy thanksgiving yall! 💜
Produced by liminaldream
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I tried to wait, I swear 
But you were never there
So what do I do in this situation?
'Cause you’re not around to care
And everything you’re doing, it ain’t fair

Girl, I don’t know about this
Walking away, you’ll hear the silence of my friends
I’m so numb, can’t do this shit again
You’re moving away, don’t think I’m seeing you again 

I’m wasting my time, I’ve been waiting so long
It doesn’t seem right with the fact that you’re gone
The days just fly by and I’m waiting on you
To save me from myself and what I do
I don’t need no more discussion
'Cause you’re always up to something 
Even if I’m far away, he’ll find a way to show you loving
Girl, I think I’m suicidal and I never gave it thought 
I’ve been in solace, I’ve been idle
I’ve been to scared to walk it off, (Walk it off)

I tried to wait, I swear 
But you were never there
So what do I do in this situation?
'Cause you’re not around to care
And everything you’re doing, it ain’t fair

Girl, I don’t know about this
Walking away, you’ll hear the silence of my friends
I’m so numb, can’t do this shit again
You’re moving away, don’t think I’m seeing you again 

I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb, (Numb, numb)
I’m so numb

trials

numb

numb [p. liminaldream]

Produced by nathan p
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

I don’t really think I’m enough 
I’ve been spending weeks in isolation, babe
No patience yet
My minds been somewhere lately 
I’m never getting out of this house
I’ve been finding out different locations, babe
Can’t see my friends
Needing someone here to save me

I’m hoping that you stay for the night 
And even if the time don’t seem right 
You know I’ll be there
I’ll be there for you
And everything that I do
I’m making sure it’s for you 
'Cause I adore you
I’ll be there for you

There’s just no way that I can make it out 
You’re out all day, I haven’t seen you 'round
There’s no escape, I have to toughen up
I talk too much, I need to shut it up
And I don’t know where I have stumbled 
The corridors gonna leave a rumble
For when I rain on your parade 
I’m at a point of no escape 
So what am I doing here?
The silence inside my ear
Oh, girl I’m one flight away
It’s 2 AM, I’m wide awake
The melatonin won’t work
I’m wondering how do I hurt?
I’m crying out my eyes because you’re gone for good
I don’t know where, I don’t know when

I don’t really think I’m enough 
I’ve been spending weeks in isolation, babe
No patience yet
My minds been somewhere lately 
I’m never getting out of this house
I’ve been finding out different locations, babe
Can’t see my friends
Needing someone here to save me

I’m hoping that you stay for the night 
And even if the time don’t seem right 
You know I’ll be there, (Be there)
I’ll be there for you, (For you)
And everything that I do
I’m making sure it’s for you 
'Cause I adore you, (Adore you)
I’ll be there for you, (For you)

For you, you
(Oh, it’s for you)
For you, you
It’s all for you

isolation

isolation [p. nathan p]

Produced by xtasane
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

She been selling narcotics 
Just to make a living, more than what her mom did
If you’re ever falling down, you know I got it
If I ever say I’m fine, you know I’m fronting
She been selling narcotics 
Just to make a living, more than what her mom did
If you’re ever falling down, you know I got it
If I ever say I’m fine, you know I’m fronting

Impatient, been waiting 
I wish I could see you on a basis
But when I stay around, I know you hate it
Fuck that other guy and everything he saying
I want you more than I could ever wish
Every word I’m saying, she ain’t understanding it
If she ever got an issue, I can handle it
She’s so pretty, I wish I was just a better man
She just can’t seem to realize 
Like she’s everything I ever wanted
Every single problem gets her nauseous
Guess she’ll never find a way to fucking solve it

She been selling narcotics 
Just to make a living, more than what her mom did
If you’re ever falling down, you know I got it
If I ever say I’m fine, you know I’m fronting
She been selling narcotics 
Just to make a living, more than what her mom did
If you’re ever falling down, you know I got it
If I ever say I’m fine, you know I’m fronting

union* (@unionha)

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