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Produced by michael harrison 
Mixed and mastered by me
Lyrics by me

This shit to aching, girl I’m running out of options 
I can’t control what I did in the past, I know I hurt you bad
I know I did some shit that made you the way you act

I’ll never be what you want girl I know it
I’m so fucking scared and alone
And all the tears in my eyes, you ignore it
And I’m to fucking cowardly to say
You mean the world to me
Oh, you mean the world to me
To me, uh, to me
To me, hey, hey, hey!

Gun to my head, I wanna die
Girl, I don’t wanna be alive
This shit to much can’t even hide
Girl, I don’t wanna be a lost cause, 'cause I can’t explain it
And you led me here alone in anguish
And we’re not seeing eye to eye and I can’t ever deny
I’ll always love you till then

Even if we are apart 
There’s not a doubt in my mind
I’ll be by you till the end 
I’ll always be by your side
Till the end
Oh my god, no pretend
Even if you aren’t alive, I’ll be here right by your side
You are the love of my life, (But you don’t want me)

I’ll never be what you want girl I know it
I’m so fucking scared and alone
And all the tears in my eyes, you ignore it (You ignore it)
And I’m to fucking cowardly to say (I’m so cowardly to say)
You mean the world to me (You mean the world to me)
Oh, you mean the world to me
To me, uh, to me
To me, hey, hey, hey!

You mean the world to me
You mean the world to me
You mean the world to me
You mean the world to-

render

anguish

anguish [p. michael harrison]

dexter (bonus)

aviorts + vuitton - scam (prod. slidly)

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stand down [prod. tores + snorkatje]

prod. dollatega, junoes, shvlo, fltr
(Verse 1: FLTR)
Hard love and enemies they been filling up all my time
All of these discussions ain't got me in my best mind
But I been tryna find my way out
But I been in my mind, for way too long

(Pre-chorus: FLTR)
I been poppin' all these pills they been driving me crazy
Just tryna pay the bills maybe I don't need a lady
Think I'm off the deep end nobody can save me
Just save me
Just save-

(Chorus: FLTR)
Ah!
I don't even know where to start
I've been living in my mental pride
What's the point in even being kind?
Think I'm off the deep end nobody can save me
Ah, ah, ah!
I don't even know where to start, start, start, start
I've been living in my mental pride, pride, pride, pride
What's the point in even being kind, kind, kind
No-no-no-no-no-no-no-nobody can save me

(Verse 2: FLTR)
When I say, it's forreal
I'm on a mission, to act on all my feels
Until I get a crew, that give a fuck
I'm outta luck, until I get someone that gives a fuck
I've have enough with other folk
Hard pill to swallow, guess I'm boutta choke
ah, ah, ah
I'm on my own boat
ah, ah, ah
Livin' off own hope!

(Verse 3: Apoorv Sharan)
you should prolly take control
of this thing my hands are shaky
going 90 on a freeway often
thinkin bout a lady 
oh i could stay i could go
i could run I could walk away
its hard to say what kinda
difference would it make in the world
you're no friend you're nobody
just a shadow of my mind 
but what difference would it make
if you loved me

(Pre-chorus: FLTR)
Yeah, I been poppin' all these pills they been driving me crazy
Just tryna pay the bills maybe I don't need a lady
Think I'm off the deep end nobody can save me
Just save me
Just save-

(Chorus: FLTR)
Ah!
I don't even know where to start
I've been living in my mental pride
What's the point in even being kind?
Think I'm off the deep end nobody can save me
Ah, ah, ah!
I don't even know where to start, start, start, start
I've been living in my mental pride, pride, pride, pride
What's the point in even being kind, kind, kind
No-no-no-no-no-no-no-nobody can save me

(Outro: FLTR)
I been poppin' all these pills they been driving me crazy
Just tryna pay the bills maybe I don't need a lady
Think I'm off the deep end nobody can save me
Just save me
Just save-

DEEP END! (feat. Apoorv Sharan)

Produced by johnnyfriend
Mix & mastered by me
Lyrics by me

You’ve got the whole world inside your palm
I don’t understand why we don’t get along
Do you? (Do you?)
At night, do you ever think about our past?
All of those times I made you sad
'Cause I do ('Cause I do)
My thoughts retracing, my heart keeps racing for you
Do you? (Do you?)

Do you think about me baby?
‘Cause I’ve been thinking about you lately
You’re on my mind without a doubt
Lived west your whole life now you’re going south
￼Now you live in a different location
And nowadays girl, I just can’t take it
I need you now without a doubt
Lived west your whole life now you’re going south

It’s a little complicated oh, girl, I know
But I’m too scared to grow on my own
I’m terrified (terrified)
And the things you say to me, though I got you off your feet
I know I might make it a little worse
But know your place 'cause I know my worth
It’s hard for me to process
I’m out of options, my dear
I’ll be right here for you

My thoughts retracing, my heart keeps racing for you
Oh girl, do you? (Do you?)

Do you think about me baby?
‘Cause I’ve been thinking about you lately
You’re on my mind without a doubt
Lived west your whole life now you’re going south
Now you live in a different location
And nowadays girl, I just can’t take it
I need you now without a doubt
Lived west your whole life now you’re going south

anguish [p. michael harrison]

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