i feel like i’m endlessly wandering. i’m just so tired and i don’t see myself having a future. i don’t picture myself buying a house, or getting married, or buying a car. i have realized no one understands what i have been through and how it’s effected me. and how fragile life is. i just don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t even know if that makes sense. but what i mean is yeah life goes fast but it feel like i want to go fast i don’t to be alone but i don’t want to be hurt. that’s kinda how i feel not just about relationships but like life. i don’t want life to go fast but i also don’t to be making these decisions like school that can change my life forever.

SK8