deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

wired.

@xweepings

Produced by flower x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

I was so upset the day you left, ain't understand it
Dealing with a broken heart you left, I couldn't stand it
I would lay in bed all day, thinking about those days
When I ain't think that we would ever meet the end of it

Us apart? Can't deal with it, tryna find some new I'm finished with
I wake up just wishing it was all a dream this living shit
I can't do this no more, honestly my soul sore
Don't look in that closed door, why the fuck you think it's closed for?

I keep all my skeletons in there with this feeling that I'm in
I thought I was better than when I was in my past
I can't ever get over this wall, it'd be better to jump off and fall
Your life's better when I'm not involved, if you're not in mine I don't have one at all

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

| weepings |

You were so perfect so how could this be anything but my fault?
Claim that I'm fine but behind the curtains I wake up on asphalt
I need you now more than ever; I still got your lipstick stains on top my sweater

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

Time keeps moving and I keep on proving that I'm stuck inside the past
Girl you still run through my head at times, I'm 6 deep in these cans
In this pain I'm fluent, girl I miss you and I wanna feel your hand
But you took a fucking torch and scorched up all our fucking plans

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

weepings & unknxwn. - disaster.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Lyrics

Fool me, told me that you would be there but you never was
Choose me, baby, I wish that you would give me your love
Use me, anything you need to do to me to be enough
If she doesn't want me, I'm not enough
If I give her time, then she'll see that I'm enough
Move on, wish that I could but I can't cause baby I'm stuck
Don't wanna do none, I had my hope, love, and dreams crushed
I miss that girl but she don't give a fuck, feel like 2019, not enough
And I know that I'll never bе, and I know that I never was
And I know that you nevеr cared, and I know that you never could
When you told me that you would be there
Part of me knew that you never would

when you told me you'd be there part of me knew that you never would.

Produced by luffysome

Lyrics

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

Why in the fuck do y'all tell me y'all really miss my old shit?
Ain't even like that shit been deleted, you can go listen to old shit
Bitch you can get off my dick, I really don't give no shits
I make this shit for myself, make this shit for my health, I don't make this shit so it can sell

Bitch I do not make content, I make this shit to be content
All of these fake ass fucks that be blowing up ain't really on shit
Might be a dick but I'm honest, wish I was what she wanted
That girl is all I needed, I lost my way cause I made her my compass

I love that girl more than myself
She ripped my heart right out my chest
Sick of this life, I don't care what's next
I don't care cause I don't really got none left

I gave it all to her
She thought I was joking but I really wasn't
I knew that I shouldn't of gave her my heart
But I did and now that shit is broken and it won't be fixed

i don't make content, i make this to be content.

Produced by GAXILLIC

Lyrics

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

And I keep making these songs and I don't think that I'll stop
'Cause babe you're all that I need
I ain't say you could go, why the fuck did you leave?
Where the fuck are you now?
Sorry, I got pissed off
Can you tell me you love me? Don't care if it's false
Can you tell me you care? I don't care if you lie
Girl, I just need to hear it then I'll be just fine

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

okay, you can come back now...

Runnerboy.m4a

show some love!

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

Lyrics:
(cyzun)
I need you, you don’t want me 
I see you, you could haunt me x2

I feel so alone 
I don’t have a home
Give me something to believe in
Just a little hope 
I know I’m a joke 
I hate myself the most
I’m a fucking waste of space I need to fucking go

(I need to fucking go
I need to fucking go)


Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul x2

I can’t seem to escape it at all
Take my heart and rip it apart 
Leave my body to rest in the dark
Leave my body to rest in the dark

(unknxwn.)
You were all I ever needed and more
All I ever wanted was to be yours
But you stepped away and walked out the door
Will my heart ever heal up from the scourge?

Making me out as the bad guy
I can make sure that this lie is your last time
Fucked up so much in my last life
All of this pain gone this life my last try

Why in the fuck I exist
I never knew and I don't give a shit
I'll never know where the love and the hope and the courage to cope without sedatives went

Take me
Break me
I know everyone is just gonna fold
Lately
Hate be
Taking over most of my fucking soul

(cyzun)
Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul 
Do whatever you want with my soul x4

take my soul w/ unknxwn. (yapuzi)

lyrics:

Disappointing disappointment death I need an appointment
Life is pointless scream into to the mic until I go voiceless
Overthinking situations till I start to hear voices
My music is a medicine I make from the poison

That intoxicates every single part of me
They said it was a phase but it seems like its a part of me
Only way that I escape, is the drugs that take a part of me
Away from me, the sadness goes away but it takes away the heart of me

So its hard for me, to give back all the love that you would offer me
If it didn't hurt my mom, I would off me
Put myself into a coffin where I oughta be
Yeah thats where I rather be

I'm too weak, life is too much, all this fuck stuff
In two weeks, I'll be heldback, school is rough bruh
I'm amounting to the things that they said I'd be
If you asked them to describe me they'd say "dead to me"

I'm dead to me too, so they're right next to me
Fallin' through a void and there aint nobody catching me