its not that simple
hands to the poison
not else to do
so i just thought outloud
im truly avoidant
id rather avoid it
scream through the season but ill be alright
ive forgotten my horrors
i forgotten where ive been
stick to one thing but i cant get attached

oh, u never told that u get it
god what i been saying
stuck on pills im going crazy
2k10 its on the speaker
u will leave me speechless
i cant beat this feeling
i cant beat the fever
i cant be whatever you want
molded however you want
i cant be whatever, im done

i cant beat this feeling
i cant beat this fever
i cant beat this fever
i cant beat this feeling
i cant beat this feeling
i cant beat this fever
i cant beat this fever

Whatever I Want ft. Cartier'GOD (prod. 1visa)

(so high i could touch the sky)

so high i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
i could touch the sky
bitch trynna get by
feed me another lie
what else to do than try
if u dont love me then goodbye
if u done crossed me then goodnight
i dont need ur fucking time
im stuck, im done with crying
if i back down i deserve it
leave me unaffected
forever ill fake it
so damn barely but ill make it
im not trynna new u
got nothing to say to u

so high i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
so high i could touch the sky
wake up
day already gone
whyd i hide
way too fucking long
i been on the internet for way too long
i been doing many pills for way too long
i dont wanna die
do u wanna die?
final kiss goodnight, lullaby
i been getting gone in the night

I Die 10000 Times a Day (prod. 1visa)

im losing patience but u can bring me down to peace
hear me out this time
im begging im down on my knees
stuck up in a cell
i was steady trying to get out
wanna see me down
but im never willing to give up
u do this everyday
are u curious how its turning out?
im conceited in a way
i just hate how i been talked about
just popped a rp10
oh i do so when it gets too loud
tell me where u were
when all this shit was just going down
(2x)

going down..
going down...

im losing patience
u cant play me
c the look in ur face
im out of time
i get high and i feel out of place
feel like ill die going thru all of this body pain
say "nevermind" got me stranded standing out in the rain
why u let me down girl? its not my fault
and u never believed in me
torn up a piece of me
everything keep going down i gave it my all
imma hit the fkn mall and go on a shopping haul
they play my songs on repeat
make hits i do it ez
i step in my w/ my bb belt
c me on ur tv!
they just wanna talk on drama
every song im gonna pop off
do it just bc i wanna
if u dont like it stfu
counting my commas
and bitch im w nosgovvv
do all that talking but know u wont run up
bitch u wont do nunnn

Conceited ft. hateoryx (prod. bleachcraft)

sorry for the wait
prod 100crows x destrooyyyy
whatchu mean i wasnt there 
guess im just a fucking ghost
and my phone u keep on texting 
and that message left on  read
and youll never get an answer i think u forgot im dead
whatchu mean i wasnt there 
guess im just a fucking ghost 
u kno that u were clueless 
u were nothing from the start
now its my turn and im tearing u aprt 
now its my turn and im tearing u apart
its been minutes since i left u 
it seems i cant forget u 
im hoping that u get my message every time i text u 
and my phone u keep on texting 
and that message left on read 
youll never get an answer i think u forgot im dead
god im dead 
god im dead 
god im dead
god im dead 
god im dead 
its been minutes since i left u
its seems i cant forget u 
im hoping that u get my message every time i text 
time i text 
time i text 
time i text 
time i text u 
time i text u 
time i text

she never fukn answers

prod @sh1nky and @wh0d

dilaudid:

let me down softly girl i can take it
hydromorphone, fall asleep girl think i wasted it
when i feel alone i turn to drugs man im embraced in em
i got what i want cant go back i got a taste of it

i turn my back i take a breath
i hope this breath will be my last
forever lasting on this earth with nothing keeping me on track

my body is empty
my skin imperfect
i need u to tell me im worth it
im worth it
its working
im building
myself up
i crash down
i wake up
i repeat it
stuck in the past now

im fine now i look in the distance
i need u to be what im missing


poison:

i cant stand it
i feel inbalanced
i  stay so silent
girl u should try it aha
i pick my posion
like which pill u think i took?
i become frozen
why u gotta giv me that look?

i look around i see u
they look at me im see through
i dont wna b me wanna b u
wna be 1 of the things that u do
 
i exist jus to b wat u want
ill lie here wait lke a dog
no need for u to fawn
im urs in case u forgot

dilaudid / poison

You can never make me talk
So fucked up I cannot walk
Just like Alice I am lost
Where am I?
Stick the needle in the eye 
See they would kill me if I lied
I can never show my thighs
Don't ask why

(Can I please have this dance
All I want is this dance)
Me and you 
We're hand in hand
I can feel you in my hand
I can do this yes I can

I will not fuck this up....

You can never make me talk
So fucked up I cannot walk
Just like Alice I am lost
Where am I?
Stick the needle in the eye 
See they would kill me if I lied
I can never show my thighs
Don't ask why

Corpse party, all the zombies move from us
One by one, hurrah hurrah
Idk what is in my cup
4 days and I haven't touched lunch
I don't know what else to say..
You're all that I want

Can I please have this dance
All I want is this dance)
Me and you 
We're hand in hand
I can feel you in my hand
I can do this yes I can

I will not fuck this up....


1Dance (Prod. Skysuzuya)

recorded during a stream in 20 minutes, recap video here: https://youtube.com/watch?v=hxRvJfVFZks

i cant let go
i cant treat you like that
will this shit ever pass
i been stuck in the past
i been low and depressed
im losing it from the stress
and ive been falling to parts
i never follow my heart
oh, its not that simple
i tried to trust you
pull up and they laughed too
i thought i knew you
i dont know the real you
im not sure i feel you
wheres the other ones you talk about
patching up your broken heart
i done broke a 100 hearts
i been tryna get right
im lost in the deep night
im not sure if i feel right

i cant let go
i cant treat you like that
will this shit ever pass
i been stuck in the past
i been low and depressed
im losing it from the stress
and ive been falling to parts
i never follow my heart (2X)

i cant let go
i cant treat you like that...
i cant let go
i cant treat you like that..
i cant treat you like that...
i cant treat you like that ..
i cant treat you like that....

Real You (prod. anhydonia, ambxr)

prod. me
feat. horrormovies on "plastic"
album art by dirtbound13




gonna burn my diary
im tired of giving up
its sweet like a cherry
ill never give it up
mother mary
i sinned last week
i didnt mean it
the night's so starry

im getting tired of life as a whole
i wanna get ouf of this shithole
im stuck in this depressive loophole

it never stops
never ends
it never stops
never ends

last night was a nightmare
i sang my prayer

im stuck in a body that i dont even like
the pain's immeasurable there's nothing alike
unrelatable mess
in a constant state of stress
i cant find the words to express
lord i need to confess

Im holding on my rosary
It feels so cold and so lonely
lost in these intricacies
The bathroom is so bloody
This skirt doesnt even fit me
1 look in the mirror and i see nothing
Dont you think its kinda funny
Dont you think im so pathetic
Its starting to get hard to breathe
Another day, story repeats
Itself it never really ends
Crawling on my body like some ants
Or like the spiders on my hands
I do not want to show my fangs
I burned my wings just for a dance,
With you i hope it never ends

starry night

summertimee sadness, brain mush🧠   :p    prod. me ⋆｡°✩

requiem C#m

music video: https://youtu.be/RmkBnJGPVXo
prod by me

(*＞ｖ＜)ゞ*゜+

im a quiet person
but im screaming in the dark
so many things i should avoid
its tearing me apart

im a neutral person
could you spare me this time
everytime i see you
wish youd get out of my sight

we dont have that much time to go
im not longer the same you know
cause were caught up in this vertigo
would it be easier for me to go

will you
disappear in my dream
wish i could relive it
wish it was that easy

should i hide this feeling
im not longer bleeding
punch the wall im screaming
theres more than reasons

requiem C#m

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