Hebby moosic pt2_part2

The Fire Itself

Until I Wake

Sinking Under

BURIED IN SIGNALS

I grew up counting footsteps in the hall
Trying to match a rhythm that wasn’t mine
Every silence felt instructional
Every breath, another line to cross

You spoke in goals, not questions
Eyes fixed past where I stood
Love felt earned, not given
Measured by how well I could
I learned the rules before I learned myself
I learned to hide before I asked for help

Every time I slowed the pace
I felt the distance grow
Expectation cast a shadow
I couldn’t outrun or outgrow

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
HELD TO A STANDARD I COULDN’T STAND
WHEN I BROKE, YOU LET ME FALL
CALLED IT STRENGTH — CALLED IT ALL I AM

When the pressure turned to noise
I looked for quiet in the wrong places
Found relief in borrowed hours
Found escape where nothing stays
I was sinking — not defiant
Just tired of trying to breathe
But failure sounded like betrayal
So you turned away from me

I didn’t need correction
I needed connection
But absence was your answer
And silence was the lesson

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
PUSHED TO THE EDGE OF WHO I AM
WHEN I CRIED OUT, YOU CLOSED THE DOOR
LEFT ME TO FIGHT WHAT YOU IGNORED

I CARRIED A WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
PUSHED TO THE EDGE OF WHO I AM
WHEN I CRIED OUT, YOU CLOSED THE DOOR
LEFT ME TO FIGHT WHAT YOU IGNORED

NO GRACE
NO GROUND
JUST TARGETS
AND LETDOWN

YOU STEPPED BACK
WHEN I FELL APART

Maybe you thought distance would make me strong
Maybe you didn’t know how to stay
But I learned the cost of being unseen
And I paid it every day

ABANDONMENT DOESN’T SCREAM
IT JUST STOPS ANSWERING

I DROPPED THE WEIGHT WITHOUT HANDS
FOUND MY VOICE IN THE AFTERMATH
IF I SURVIVED WHAT YOU WALKED AWAY FROM
THEN I’M MORE THAN WHAT YOU DEMAND

I’m not asking you to save me now
I just needed you to stay somehow

Sinking Under

Until I Wake

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