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Her Last Words by Courtney Parker

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LYRICS
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VERSE 1

It feels like a dream, haunted in my memory
My Older sister made me feel like I was the enemy
Never knew why, I think I was too young to fathom it
If it was all a dream my dreamcatcher never captured it
But, My mom lookin a little stressed now
I look a lot like my pops, so my sisters hate my smile
But can I blame em? Even tho they hated me could I hate em?
Nah, the punches, I’ll just take em
I was 8, never knew my pain then would last forever
My Mom never knew why I’d say I’d leave for good 
but I hated myself for reasons that I never understood
but now I know it stemmed down from my shitty father
He did things unforgivable
And to my sisters I forgive it all, just know that I still struggle  
I was so young but I still have it memorized
Just know when mom kicked his ass out I never cried
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VERSE 2

We had to move to another city, shit was weird
Trying to collect my thoughts cuz mom never made it clear
I don’t blame her, I wouldn’t of said shit neither
We hit the shelter, shared a home with a bunch of strangers
The school was crazy, teachers used to hit my brother
They hated us, I know they hated our skin color
Used to get bullied, punches to my stomach in a dark hall
Used to eat my lunch hidin in bathroom stall
My cousin Nathan lived close, oh shit its on
We’d talk about things like being millionaires and
Howd we change the world and how things aint fair and
We just wanna chase girls, ha
But we moved away, and I guess things got crazy
My mom pulled me aside n said sit down maybe
she just got a call and she said Nathan's gone 
I said like where, whered he go?
She had that look in her eyes then my eyes started watering
Wish I could change it all, and just make it all calm again
Thinkin back on everything, man I’ll never forget it
You re my brother forever and I know you’ll see me when I get it 
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VERSE 3

That first day we met you wouldn’t even look my way
I was thinking you didn’t even like what you saw so I got a little brave
Hit you up after like what was all the fuss about?
You told me you were shy and that you weren’t used to being out
Little did I know you were dealing with your mom’s passing
I had my own issues it felt like some fucking bombs crashing
I just lost my friend and my grandpa in the span of a few months
Looking in the mirror thinking I was too drunk
Trying to piece together my life in a dusty attic
Trying to separate myself so I wouldn’t become an addict
I would drive to the perimeter to just sit and cry
Then you’d hit me up like ‘what sup? how come? Really? Why?’
Then we’d get closer than ever before
Tell me things that would comfort me that I could never ignore
I sobered up and got my life back on the road again
I told you things that I never even told a friend
You were like a piece that I was missing and you knew it
but again, addiction came up but it wasn’t me goin through it
I didn’t even know, there were things I had to discover 
You’d start getting mad we need to support each other
That’s when the lies started comin, then I couldn’t take it
I mean my sisters addicted themselves I mean I wanna shake it
I thought I told you this, look at my past I thought I showed you this
Looking in the mirror like I thought I was over this
Then you told me about how this guy hit you and raped you
Thoughts flying in my head like why would I hate you?
You kept it a secret but, I wanted to save you
I tried to hold on tight but the drugs came to take you
Now you lookin in the mirror and you getting so thin
Disappearing from the world I can see it within
I chain smoke now just to ease the pain 
cuz I know that you’re headed on a road that’s a one way

Just know, that I dont blame you.. for anything
You always said that.... even if you leave, not to worry cuz
Everything will be OK

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