current

lyrics:

why do i keep coming back to this?
it's like a book I can't quite figure out
so I read it in pieces
sometimes it hurts
gotta set it down for a bit
but I always come back to this

why do I keep running into this?
every time I make a wrong turn
I end up on your doorstep
sometimes it hurts
gotta step away for a bit
but I always come back to this

I always come back to this

and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking the world might end
and maybe I'm stupid
for thinking you'd be with me when it did
and maybe you'd be better off
if you never saw me again
again

but god damn I keep coming back to this
I've tried to understand
but I can't make it make sense
maybe its time to just
kind of go with it

cause even if it's not now
I will end up here somehow
it's physics or it's fate and I can't stop it
I always come back to this
I always come back to this

physics or fate (voice memo)

lyrics:

it's not a competition
but maybe it is
and I think I'll win when you least expect it
slip off your socks and then
take her to bed
I will show up when you least expect it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

it's not a competition
but I moved on first
and you must have something to say about it
tell all your friends that I hurt you worse
cause you know I'll have something to say about it

I always do

but I think I found someone to buffer the pain
I think I found what you have in your veins
so I'll never lose
and it's never true
I lie every day
but I will always hate losing to you

I thought I found someone to buffer the pain
but it didn't last and it wasn't the same
still I'll never lose
but he's never you
I lie every day

I thought I found someone, or that's just what I say
to help keep the devil and his dogs away
it's an ego thing, true
but it's time you knew
I die every day
cause I will always wait for you

it's not a competition (voice memo)

sex - the 1975 (cover)

i’ve become obsessed again
i’m finding things i thought i’d forget
foolish me, i really thought i’d move on from these things

what did i do?
how did i get here?
i closed my eyes on the highway out of pure fear
then i crashed into you

tell them about when we met
our story sounds better when it comes from your lips
tell them it was all my fault
i fled the scene when you stole my heart

the first time you touched me
how did you mean it?
i went to bed that night thinking you were thinking about it too
then i crashed into you

the first time you told me you loved me,
i was off
a hit and run
you called the cops 
i sat and i cried
then i drive down the highway
i blacked out then ended up parked at your old place
air bags were blown and front end was smashed
i called my mom to tell her i crashed
into you

what did i do?
how did i get here?
i closed my eyes on the highway out of pure fear
then i crashed into you

CRASHED INTO YOU :(

a winter love song for friends, community, and family (chosen and otherwise). im so sorry for the crying, this voice memo is from right when I finished writing it and I was VERY emotional. ehheheheheheheheh.  I hope this winter makes u feel warm and loved.

Jimmy's Lullaby

wrote this song from the perspective of joel in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind :) new favorite movie

lyrics:

i'm watching everything go sideways
and i can't do a thing to make it stop
i won't remember this tomorrow
but i'll be sad when i wake up

i wish we were back in your apartment
i want you to sing me to sleep
i'll forget my wallet so i'll have to come back
and you won't forget me

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

i'm watching everything go sideways
feels like someone's messing with my head
i'm not prepared to never know you again
i'm sorry, can we stop this instead?

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

when this is over
i'll never know that
i ever missed you at all
i'll be a stranger and
you will be kissing somebody
that i don't know
i'll take the train to the beach
and i'll sit on the sand
and i'll never know
i had a life before this
i don't want this

thought it was only fair
but i swear i didn't think it through this far
you chose this first
so i didn't think it'd hit me quite this hard
i don't want to see this part

clementine (demo)

Bust

Talk

lyrics:

it's been 30 days since i last saw you
30 days since we had nothing to fear
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting how you feel
30 days is way too real

it's been 4 weeks since i last saw you
4 weeks since we made plans to go north
it's been too long now
i'm scared that i'm forgetting you
i feel all out of sorts
4 weeks and i'm not yours

i've been reading books
i've started puzzles
i've been listening to all the greats
i've been trying new foods
i've been buying new shoes
but i can't seem to forget that it's been 30 days

it's been a month since i last saw you
no matter how you say it, it still means the same
it's been too long now
i think that i've forgotten how long it takes
for me to fall, i'm afraid
this time it wasn't long at all
and why it wasn't, i can't say
in fact it just took
30 days

30 days (voice memo)

lyrics:

it's ok to cry
every day if you have to
it's ok to sleep
peace from the war

it's alright to sing
let it bring joy to the sorrow
it's alright to cry
some more

i don't know your pain but i will fight
i won't let this go even if doing what's right 
isn't easy
i'm tired, believe me, but
so are you

i don't know your pain but i will stand
i won't let this go so take my hand
it's not easy
i'm tired, believe me, but
so are you

so are you

it's ok to cry
or to laugh if you need to
it's ok to sleep
peace from the war

so are you (demo)

lyrics:

i've been falling in love with you from the moment we met
it's been consistent, a constant persistence and it hasn't stopped yet
it's cold but the window is open, and we sit on the ledge
breathing in smoke
breathing in all of this moment
so i don't forget

i've been falling in love with you since september 13th
i didn't know why you were on my mind so frequently
and when you kissed me for the first time i didn't want you to leave
holding you close
holding in those three words
that could change everything

on my couch, watching tv
then you paused it, turned to see me
and you told me that you loved me
nothing was ever the same
there has never been a moment
when i wish you hadn't paused it
on my couch as we watched the office
nothing was ever the same

i've been falling in love with you since the moment we met
and i haven't stopped yet

current

yayoot