By Hand

Long Walks

Red Bank Road

By_Hand_Distort.mp3

Wayward

Sunshine

I am an enemy of my self
don't ask no one for help, no
I put heart on a shelf
so high, no one can touch my sole soul
call me gold and numb
I call me gold and numb

Hannah Dan has become my friend
no words, just lovely notes
her eyes a window pane to her pain
no frame; let misery flow
butterflies have died inside she has become so cold
I wanna understand my friend
demand; she do not do what shes told
I call her gold and numb
caller her gold and numb
so please dont lean on me
I said, easy with the razor
cut me; bleed

Ive fallen down a couple times thinking I could take some more
fuck the players, fuck the game
go ahead and cut my throat
not one to lie, I find
don't cry for me, don't break my toes
afraid of whats inside
sublime; i'm fine
though i'm an after-note

call her gold and numb
so call me gold and numb

well, life is cruel if you're a dreamer
and I am
love
roll around, never settle down
I'm as happy as I can be
white lies, an underrated crime
try to piece me back together
go ahead and waste your time
the best part of me has died
broke a record; couldnt love another if I tried

call her gold and numb
call me gold and numb

because life is suffering, I see
so lets lie down
Ill keep you company

Seasons

Gold And Numb

I met God
he said that he lived inside my head
devour an hour talking to him
said I should repent
what do you mean, sir
I'm not really sure
toss out myself and let it go?
embrace what I never knew for good and
stand there for what where others stood, no.
I am my own man I am
I live for the others, damned
and every cent, what I'm worth
I'm meant to follow my heart
not innocent

mmm

I live by my own light in midnight
it feels right, it feels good
understood?
I need a little space so un-equip
I found my self a melody
If this is hell
what would heaven be? 
I hate to give up whats promised me
dont ask him for whats forgotten please; Love

They spoke lies
I broke ties
hope I find an outlier
on my end, a new friend
yeah, I'll wait a little time well spent

We like to speak an anecdotal antidote for what lies ahead
don't bend your words
keep them straight instead
your integrity
honesty defends

mmm

I met god 
he's alright
he's not dead
he's just sad
and left out
and in doubt
in the middle of a river dam

My God

3:30 am again
my bedside's burning and i'm glistening
thinking up a recipe for what they call a good-nights sleep

Restless fever
I'm in a restless fever

Fingers hot potato 
what I say don't even matter 
thinking about her post hoc
wont stop, you miss me?
wanna see her face of course 
my thoughts are bouncing back and fourth
well, take your time
I don't mind, I'm listening
said to stay away 
"please don't like me too much"
looking out for herself, my kind of luck
stuck behind bars, that's the path she will choose, though
I'll trade my patience for time, my lifeline

Restless fever
i'm in a restless fever

Said she feels low
hey well tell me more
her voice hits hard
hit me, hit me
don't fall down again
need some restitute?
heart beat's beating blue
I felt a tug at my rib-sides
4 or 5 pass by looking at her in her eyes
walking out now 
turned around and she kissed me
look ahead another storm 
you'll never die until you're born
a wrinkle in time flies by; you're distant

Restless fever
i'm in a restless fever

Hold me, i'm lonely
don't know if I should reach out for a cold breeze
hard-stuck I thought
guess not
make your divide; Ill let out my sigh

Chest feels cold
a momentt more, ill choke
getting sick of myself
got my heart in my throat
my face frowns more than a clown that's broke
so ill play and ill learn
because I burn; that's no crime

3:30 am again 
my bedsides burning and I'm glistening
thinking up a recipe for what they call a good-nights sleep

Restless Fever

The cold came in and you bet I felt it
river stops flowing around the river bend
and it feels like I might meet my maker
feeling around the floor with my frozen hands
and then I thought I found what I was looking for
I let it slip away; i'm made of memories
tuck my hands can I get them warmer
reaching out but i'm only fumbling
I heard my fathers laughter
lift my head 
"what am I supposed to be" 
I tremble in the middle like a ball trying to get small
thinking about the heat I got from yesterday

Yeah, well its cold out there i'd say
is it cold or is it me

If I try my best ill sweat with effort 
working on my problems like the death of me
and when I freeze, drop to my knees; it's over
bending my back to reality
well there's a price we pay for what i'm living for
is there a count down
maybe there's another way
no I don't need no flame, don't bother
look at me, Hell, i'm in my element
I believe in my deaths desire
the only one giving me some company 
I tremble in the middle like a ball trying to get small
thinking about the heat I got from yesterday

Yeah, well its cold out there i'd say
is it cold or is it me

COLD

Rip my skin
Break my bones
Reach on in
Touch my soul
Ask me what I'm thinking about
Turn my cheek, kiss your mouth
Was afraid of pain
Dangerous I'm told
As a matter of fact pain became my mold
Ask me am I okay 
Then I let out a laugh
Guess I'm all that I need
Substance comes after that
No I don't mind if I waste my time
Gave you what you need
That's my bottom line
When you're looking at me while you say goodbye
I'm looking back at you watching your love die, dying

I saw you in my nightmare
Tuck me in, please, I'm scared
Whisper to me lullabies in the darkness
Feel your breath upon my back like a promise
Hold me close and when you do I feel I'm never low
Hate the sight of tears when they fall 
So I let them roll
It ain't my fault, it ain't yours too
You hurt me 
Seasons change they do

Turn around; I'm amazed at what I felt
Say goobye
Then I turn to someone else
Think I'm changing
Things are changing now I'm on my own

Summer Breeze

Pick me your special flower
Drop it in sugar water 
In sunlight it stands; it stood tall
In vase it was beauty I saw
But beauty wont last for ever
At least you can land together
Picking some flowers with you is what i want

Breathe them in, smell again
The smell of soil, nectar's sin
Red and gold pedal load
Smooth to touch, soft to hold
Once from a  rolling meadow
Now they sit by my window
Picking some flowers with you is what I did

The color has gone to fading
The stem has bent and is breaking
When leaves start to crumble and fall
Feel guilt as they wilt through life's crawl
We picked them and now they're dying 
Look onto them; I feel like crying
At least I went on and picked them all with you

Flowers

Flowers vr.2

Wince

Feel that? Now we're friends
Ring on an undying end
Melody, Melody, you and me
You're high
I'm the low
Reach down, can you feel my soul?
On my knees, reverie, reverie
"sun-kissed with a glow" 
Don't miss what i know; sorrow
Take me onto your level raft
Let us sing
Maybe time wont pass
Like a foot sliding through the door way
Scream and shout out my pain
Abide by and reverberate 
Cannot die if you do the same
I think that you're worth keeping
In thought, remember; stay
Should i find myself leaking]
You're there for me to play

I need that
Come again
Come through, can I say amen?
Melody, Melody, you and me
You're in heaven
I'm below
In between fill a reservoir 
As you let it fall i will let float 
In the middle of everything 
Like we are guided in a motion
With emotion
I think that you're worth keeping

RyanOwesney

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