mixed by @cwrisp
verse 1 -
bombing hills with my guys
while we blistering high 
still gone get it first try 
lay in your bed start to cry
the things you cherish in life 
are to your left and right side 
now you're less than alive
is this my god givin gift? 
painting images 
for the ones that live like this 
can't remember my last kiss 
its not something I miss 
dig through my regrets 
get dirt on my list
of insecurities 
I mean sincerely 
I'm steering me 
the best that I can 
might forget to call my folks 
but s*** I'm just a man 
I'm prone to making jokes 
tryna brush off mistakes 
never hard for me to stand 
I do whatever it takes to make my way 
i lie i cheat i steal i beat still feel defeat
I chill and think 
what's real 
its bleak 
my peak must have been when I was born 
cuz every day I'm falling
and my skin is getting torn 
damn I could have sworn that my mind has been worn out
now it's too late 
face to face with my fate take my place 
you could try 
the biggest state is where I'll die 
if ion escape from this constant state of mind

sheeeeeeeeesh

Evening Bell (prod. jeiku)

boiling bap w cwrisp (prod. dj sacred)

this was recorded in a studio like 3 years ago lol. it don't really fit in with my usual shit but eh wtv enjoy

(snippet)

made on the last day of summer with the help of o7shawty👍🏻

i don’t get it
i don’t get it
i don’t wanna fucking kno
lost track of the times
that i been here befo 
i crack open my skull
and break sum of my bones
for a little bit of love
it’s a lot more that is owed
i get what i deserve 
cuz i cause so much pain
i knew i could change
buts it’s coming back 
strange how when i flip the page 
or to another frame
everything looks the same
i just give it time mane
if i spent all of mine
i ain’t stealin 
i’ll be fine
they all think i lost my mind
but actually 
it’s all coming back to me
i stole sum shit factually 
confessing to it casually 
and did nobody catch or see
how hard
being a man could be
quit acting please
i peep
what y’all think about me
see it all in how y’all treat somebody like me
it’s just fuckin jealousy
simultaneously so much hating
i thought i saw it fading
i was just getting further 
it follows in my shading
could’ve sworn i heard her
fuckin saying
i’m insane 
she ain’t lying 
so much cryin
passin time
optimism is dyin

lil buddah

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