for you Y

mindset e v e r y fckin time 

2 parts 2 mindsets

ambivalent

안녕/yo ! 
Perfume ep because I miss her perfume.
Hope u will travel a bit listening to this, dream, creatz landscapes in your head, I wanna make u dream !
thank uu @sorisu always carrying : p 
everything prod by me, no collabs except the one w sori ; )
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If u want to grab the kit : https://payhip.com/b/N5M4H
(I added my recipe to create the dili style :p)
Selling flp's on insta too ^3^ 
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Enjoy !! and I always say it but tysm @y4ndere @lilac @winter <3

perfume ep + sorisu (kit out now)

kmoe cover I dont want to finish

prod me
•••

same old same old i'm just walking the same
still hanging with the same people
u knew me then don't know me now
you think you do but you're the same evil
and i'm tired, still so tired
open my eyes then i see that you're still there
in the parking lot we sat in 
those memories we still have are saddened 
and only that was never enough, deep down you know you needed more
i know i know i know i know

and if u ever cross my mind
you'll know that i'm still waitin
and best believe that i wont 
be leaving any time soon


mmm do you still love me?
or am i just someone?
guess i blew it out the park 
in the loser game of love
ooooo let me take you out then
oooo i wanna feel your touch again
(i just wanted to tell you that)

and if u ever cross my mind
you'll know that i'm still waitin
and best believe that i wont 
be leaving any time soon

friends in a forest

TRANSGENDER REALNESS PAULO BANCHERO FREESTYLE prod. billy !

* a citizen expresses their concerns.

track 2/7

self produced, self-written, and self assured

lyrics:
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
setter of trends, setter of trends
put me on a pedestal
i love to be my own false idol
show me where believers go
ten bodies at the edge of a cliff

now you're picking up
what he's putting down
(x2)
it's been getting easier to act like
i'm the main character of my life
and i'm afraid of where this might be headed
promise me
you won't let me see
all the ways i might fall short

i'm planning my escape
keeping a poker face
this game that we play
is getting old
how much longer will it take for you to
call off the dogs you think you own
you think you own everything
(are you committed to the bit?)
(it's eating you up slowly but surely)

excellence syndrome

Excellence Syndrome, or when the Joke Becomes Your Personality

Hi, 
I am so sorry. I... I left so many friends apart without saying nothing like an egoist. So sorry for that... 
Let's say the fact 
I prolly never comeback. 
Life been changing a lot recently, music has kinda left my life, I dont really know why... 
Guys, 
To, everyone who listened to my music, who collaborated with me or just talked to me, just know that I will never forget you. nver. You all shaped a part of me through these 3 years. I just wanted to say it.
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Coexistence means here the co-living of 2 sides of me, like always. It's like I never know and never knew who I am, always fluctuating between 2 mindsets, 2 sides... 
I just want to feel things different now... I need someone, someone that I can give love to & protect, someone to hold on to & someone that understand me.
Feel kinda crushed ngl.
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Hope you'll enjoy that little music composition, was quite refreshing to make 
I am invitating you to transalte the titles (the ones in french) to make yout own interpretation of each track <3

Tracklist
0.00 Life's too short to be hopeless

1:46 @lainetowers

2:58 A flower petal floating in the fresh air of countryside during spring season

4:27 œil perçant

5:25 Bootleg of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMR3o19IlKw 

7:27 Is suffering necessary to happiness ? 

8:33 Falling in a deep blue ocean close to 9pm

10:20 Je veux juste juste partagés des moments avec toi, rire avec toi, te serrer dans mes bras et croiser mes yeux dans les tiens <3

12:17 Colombe virevoltante 

14:38 Suis-je déjà trop vieux ? Ai-je déjà tout waste de ma jeunesse ? 

15:55 seaside wind 

17:18 aimons nous
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Love you all, fr </33333

ib @y4ndere @lilac @winter @ev333 @kyoakyo @tekea @jugglyfe @chrxmey

Coexistence ep + *✧･ﾟ:* laine *✧･ﾟ:*

@kiryano
@jjaholics @pray4solo

[blx]
every time we talk she's just tearing my heart out
oh you love me well.. show me you love me then
i start every morning just puking my guts out
shouldn't have thought of you i shouldn't breathe again

oh you love me well,, tell me you love me then
oh you'd cry for me,, go ahead start crying then
why do you mess with me mess with my heart again
and my heart is saying i don't want love again

love again ft. kiryano (jj x solo)

made in 24 hours for @artbyform all nighter for the most part (I did some mixing afterwards)
everything by me
shoutout @echo_vvvv for teaching me how useful a multiband compressor is

fall in2 the atmosphere
suppress my thoughts n all my fear
its so clear that ive been coming undone

its been a year n im the same
stuck in place and nothings changed for me
I need relief
and im crawling
towards a place where im content

but its a long path thru the sand and snow
and the winters grown so cold now x2

but its a long path thru the sand and snow
and the winters grown so cold now
but im coming home x2

sand+snow

gasping for air | Track 6/6
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

made in one day on August 29, 2023
https://open.spotify.com/track/1Vk9KVO4JwH9aYozcd2AhG?si=bc8a3297868349e2

[Verse 1]
Chamomile tea, I don’t think it’s really helping
But I’ll still sip, if it means that I’ll be better
For tonight, when I sleep ten thousand years
And wake fatigued, like usual

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I wish, in times like these, that I had a temperature
For my temperamental body, but I don’t
I never do, it’s always 98.6
Maybe people would listen, if it was in Celsius, I guess

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Bridge]
Non-verbal at the function, there’s something in my bones
I doubt there’s a contagion, but I should still go home
Trying to make myself take these pills
But something’s stopping me, it’s otherworldly, these hands are not my own
They’re stained with blood from something sinister (For sure)
Couldn’t be me, couldn’t be me, it can’t be me, I’ve barely moved the past few days
I’ve prayed to God that I’ll administer (The cure)
It couldn’t be, it couldn’t be, is this what comes from never changing my ways

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Outro]
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, sick again (Even after my body’s gone)
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, I’m sick again (Even after my body’s gone)

sick again

produced by https://soundcloud.com/kuriyai443, codyne, and dami4k

lyrics:
shit, i've been a liar and a fake
i don't wanna talk to you, i'm just counting up these days
i don't feel like i belong with you, i feel like you hate me
and i'm boutta fail my classes
cause i'm spending all day daydreaming

cause you don't think of me as a person
sit alone in my room as my condition worsens
having bags under my eyebags is the only thing thats certain
so i'm talking to a mic while my life has no purpose

cause i don't see greatness coming my way
i'll slam my head into the mirror and have the shards ruin my face
to give me one more fucking reason to put the mask on today
cause i'm so sick of everything
i've got no air left in my wings so i'm gone

i don't think i'm coming home soon
i remember the days sitting on trains playing sudoku
and i don't think you have a clue what i go through
and i don't keep my head above the ground because you told me to

shit, i've been a liar and a fake
i don't wanna talk to you, i'm just counting up these days
i don't feel like i belong with you, i feel like you hate me
and i'm boutta fail my classes
cause i'm spending all day daydreaming

cause you don't think of me as a person
sit alone in my room as my condition worsens
having bags under my eyebags is the only thing thats certain
so i'm talking to a mic while my life has no purpose

(at all)
(at all)

daydreaming

https://www.instagram.com/arideyes/
@lilac @arideyes
art by me

i cant lie, falling asleep is the only option
paralyzed, stuck inside a dream it's too often
medicine, the hopes in the air and i lost it
i dont wanna stay awake, i feel nauseous

dont you feel the same, when u see me losing conscience
i dont have to change, i dont got this
is there more to see? thats what god is
i dont have to dream to feel rotten

everyday we stay the same, more than we wanted
looking through a broken glass, room feels haunted
i dont wanna stay awake, i feel exhausted
then i set the lines up then i crossed it

stars looking bright, but im still burnt out
i wanna leave soon, i just dont know how
can i keep my mind up, figure it out
pouring out my soul, i wouldnt keep an ounce

(could i ever lie to myself again
look into an empty palm of hand
i never went back, can we play pretend
that this'll never happen again)

spotify

paralyzed (lilac)

@tj12318

https://soundcloud.com/tj12318/fml

break my life !!!!

thank u drama trial

https://soundcloud.com/dramatrial/retirement?si=7f3d885b0443498ebed8a3dc6844f4ec&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

break my life !!!!

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