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mixed by @lontalius

mastered by @tender_spring

Monochrome

and u remind me of a glassy summer day and im going to miss you so much and i wish we had more time and i wish u well my beloved

youre leaving soon

[lyrics]
you know i've been lagging behind a little bit
getting overwhelmed by all the shots i missed
but i keep going through the motions like i'm over it 
just so you can't tell my resentment is laid on thick

cause i'm just the type 
to have too much time on my hands
and spend it all 
thinking that i'm someone else

i don't know what to say
i don't know what to think 
when you get ahead of me
i don't know what to do
i don't know where to shoot 
when you get ahead of me

how come every time you win the world seems to care
it's only when I lose that people stop and stare
like i wouldn't do a thing to get up out of here
escaping all the faces grinning ear to ear

cause i'm just the type 
to have too much time on my hands
and spend it all 
thinking that i'm someone else

i don't know what to say
i don't know what to think 
when you get ahead of me
i don't know what to do
i don't know where to shoot 
when you get ahead of me
x2

(in korean)
hello? 
hey, what's wrong, are you okay? 
yeah, why? did something happen again?
no. hey, by the way, you're doing good

[footnotes]
- made the demo during a songwriting class i took during the summer after leaving college
- hours before releasing, i finished the mix and I layered tons of fx in attempt to make it more immersive. shoutout youtube -> mp3.

ahead of me

left brian

slippery slope

Come Rain Come

SUPER8

CROOZE

beat 54

"can't get you out of my head
and i've been standing here all night long
replaying things that you said, in my head
until they all turn into a song
frantically writing down what you are
constellations form, write thru your stars
no such thing as perfection
but these lights tell me otherwise

headstruck by a comet, i think i'm losing my grip

why do you look so blue?
well i guess you can't control it in this point in time
staring down into the twilight reminds you that..
every star is gonna burn out
and every mirrors gonna blur out
what it's supposed to manifest
i guess it's all for the best"

released on: 7 August 2020

I might not live long enough to see you again

old title: Bluff/can't explain

"cover art by www.instagram.com/the_southern_sneak/
lyrics ripped off from poem by Scott X. Levine - I Had So Much To Say (revisited)
https://allpoetry.com/poem/15046167-I-Had-So-Much-To-Say--revisited--by-Scott-X.-Levine

what's done i can't explain
i only meant to hurt myself
i knew i wouldn't die
i'd live no matter what i did
you got attached too easily
i forgot you but you still remembered me
and only all the good things
the good things you did i took for granted
i need to think out my words thoroughly
didn't think you'd be so afraid for me
my depressive careless venting got you anxious in suspense
nail biting, all the down to the bone and i
dragged you by your feet
you're more than hurt
it was better incomplete
i need you to listen, care, love me, i need you there
what's done i can't explain
i only meant to hurt myself
i knew i wouldn't die
i'd live no matter what i did"

released on: 21 August 2020

left brian

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