Maple/Toastywav

another apathesia xi wip

thank you to @c313573 he helped w/ sample

support. (w/ miso)

The Skeleton Inside Me Is Trying To Escape

lots of new music coming soon

(like actually tho like a new song next week soon)

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if fear is the heart of love 
then why have i only bones to work with 
better days 
i would exchange for a do-over

maybe time wiped away
all sense of self in my foolish brain
but i'm compressing years in a weekend
would you stare back at me
back at me, back at me

moonlight over our old school 
both of us dressed up in blue
picking petals meant for you
artificial deja vu 

watching you way up here 
with him down there
while you play your part
to be honest
this isn't good for my heart 

tell me everything that's on your mind
or don't
i don't mind if you leave things unsaid
i'm sure you don't mean to
it's what you're used to
you don't need an excuse

but we're late for our train
it departed years ago
four years in a weekend
i still pretend that i dont know

moonlight over our old school 
both of us dressed up in blue
picking petals meant for you
artificial deja vu 

all that i set out to do
in pieces all because of you 
yet you still don't have a clue 
what i have to lose

city noises
sea of voices 
what could be so 
wonderful, wonderful 

flowers drowned in alcohol 
and left in total darkness

moonlight over our old school 
both of us dressed up in blue
picking petals meant for you
artificial deja vu 

maybe if these stupid thoughts 
would go away and let me just 
not ever fall in love again 

sepia windows
through dark circles
hell if i know 
what to do

darling please don't say you love me
if you don't mean it

moonlight

WATCH THE VIDEO OMGOSH
https://youtu.be/LvAQceM3VAQ

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since i met you
i been tripping over thoughts 
in my head
replaying memories in my bed
aggressive or pacifist 
im getting the hang of it
trading an arm for a leg 

you're my
angel heaven sent
dressed in robes of violet
wait i got the wrong message
guess i misinterpreted 
still i need your helping hand
to navigate the foreign land
and the cognitive dissonance
at least ill die here with my friends 

cause winter semester
has got me hopin for better
cause i say shit without thinkin
it's got me stayin up drinkin
if i could undo bad timing 
then maybe you'd still be trying 
we'd never say hello again 
because i'd never leave your side

since i met you
i been seeing green in crimson places
i been waxing poetic in silence
(i know) you don't listen to my songs
just dial tones
leave my efforts on read

'cause every part of me believes if i keep the feats
for attention, then you'll mention adoration
maybe in a future conversation 
and maybe ill see you on vacation 

but not in real life, on your story
i was about to reach out 
but im fucking boring
never made it out of this stupid city
never took a chance cuz it seemed too risky

and i don’t give a fuck if you think im clingy 
if you never want to tell me when you're feeling shitty
i accidentally strike a nerve
you assume the worst, you ignore my words 
i say sorry first

you know i ain't tryna be irritating 
it's just i haven't seen you since graduation 
our summer in the blink of an eye
an ebb in the tide 
and we're back living our separate lives

and only for a moment will we ever see
a glimpse of each other's eternity 
you gave me a story to keep in my pocket
tucked under your sleeve, my heart in a locket

and two in the morning it aches to be free 
of the best and the worst of our memories 
sublimate the pain in a melody 
and i sincerely hope you’re happy 

cause you were lonely, a lost soul too relatable 
by now i keep you safe unconditional 
but would it kill you to call? not even once in the fall
guess that's what i get for wanting anything at all

i know you're busy with all your shit in college 
new friends, no time for old connections 
and all the dozen other reasons that you tell yourself 
catch you never i guess i'll see you in hell

romantic rejection
just gives me visceral reactions
whenever i see it happen
to too many of my friends 
cuz it reminds me of us and
everything that we weren't 
we'll never say hello again 
cause you're no longer by my side, yeah 

i had a dream 
forgot who you were 
couldn't pick out your face 
in a sea of strangers 
and when i woke up 
i wish it was true
but i still know your name 
even if i dont know you

oh, just look at this mess
if it's not your fault then why am i in pieces
oh, your voice overhead 
don't even got courtesy, you leave me for dead

winter semester
has got me hopin for better
cause i say shit without thinkin
it's got me stayin up drinkin
if i could undo bad timing 
then maybe you'd still be trying 
we'd never say hello again 
because we'd never say goodbye 

romantic rejection
just gives me visceral reactions
whenever i see it happen
you catch me cryin like a bitch 
cuz it reminds me of us and
of the fact that we couldn't 
put aside our differences 
now you're no longer by my side, no

take me far away from the sovereignty of your throne
i'm better off when i don't put your love on a pedestal
and though it never feels like i'll get it right 
i don't need your voice to tell the stories i'll write

winter semester

winter semester (+music vid below)

🔥🔥CANDY CRUSH (DUBSTEP REMIX   Prod Polarial FT. TS PAPYRUS)

cracker ##lit ##offthedome

I tried drinking my own ...

I'm keeping my old songs I'm not fond of private on here for the time being because I would like to keep my new work far detached from it. You can still download them on Bandcamp in lossless quality - a lot of them are bonus tracks under "maple & friends". :~)

east LA

edit: if this gets a 100 likes i put out the next track early 😈

this could be heaven - this could be the dream that i've had countless times 
where we had a home 
had a rooftop with a better view of the skyline

but i wake up, still aching for the quiet after storms 
when we're secure - when we're free from the dice 
and set into stone until the day i'm out of time

we've got forever
to find our peace together 
when the clouds part, our journey will start 
into the sunset, into the amber

and though the odds aren't in our favor 
and they say feelings tend to waver 
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into the resin, into the amber

when these younger days become the yesteryears 
hung in golden frames along the corridors
as our ash escapes into the stratosphere
this is what i want; nothing less and nothing more

i'm sure we've got forever
to find our peace together 
when the clouds part, our journey will start 
into the sunset, into the amber

and though the odds aren't in our favor 
and they say feelings tend to waver 
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into the resin, into the amber

through the coming years of waking up 
to the replica of you - smiling through the other side of my obsolete device

the light that keeps me sleep deprived 
the sound of clicks on glass 
i will never let go of you again

and as the last tree goes up in flames
as the last lake evaporates
as the last star fades into the night
i'll leave it at that - the promise is implied

the time we have together
i know it's not forever
but we'll meet again when we're beyond the horizon 
over the sunset, and into what's after

and now your voice a different timbre
and my bones a little weaker
ready when you are, cause we've made it this far
into forever, into the amber

darling, you don’t have to be afraid
i’ve waited my whole life for you, after all

us against the universe

amber

By https://soundcloud.com/toastywav
From "the history of ROBLOX, i guess" Music Collection

(i did not ask for permission to upload this because i am scared to talk to popular people!!! maple if u want me to take this down dm MarbledRuby#3005 on discord)

OTT

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