Back Of My Mind

Verse 1 (Soft, Soothing, Folktronica Textures, Gentle Fingerpicking, Distant Electronic Hums):
Night’s falling low, and your shadow’s still long,
Your laughter’s a river, now silent and gone.
Ashes in my chest, the house whispers your name,
I press my hands to the window, the glass never feels the same.

Tiny glimmers swimming under eyelids closed,
Breath of moss and thunder, memory’s overdose,
Restless trembling—am I waking or asleep?
This world grows heavy; it’s secrets I can’t keep.

Chorus (Explosive, Upbeat, Distorted Percussion, Layered Folk/Electronic Vocals, Trippy Harmonies):
Psilocybin, ride another sky,
Color-flowers blooming, let the hard world die!
Falling up in lightning flash, I’m somewhere strange and bright—
Let the chaos spin me, let the universe ignite!
Oh, let this fever show me shapes behind my mind—
Psilocybin vibing, leaving pain behind!

Verse 2 (Return to Quiet, Skittery Beats Beneath Soft Picking and Warm Synthetic Drones):
I hear you on the wind, in the hushing of trees,
Starlight weaving patterns, a psychic tapestry,
Golden spores are floating, gentle on my tongue,
The ache of your goodbye in every song I’ve sung.

The room stretches sideways, clocks dissolve and twist,
I’m melting through the ceiling, tangled in the mist.
Your smile’s a constellation flickering in time,
Part of me departed; the rest will realign.

Chorus (Repeat, Even More Chaotic and Uplifting, Add Extra Harmonies and Warped Sounds):
Psilocybin, ride another sky,
Color-flowers blooming, let the hard world die!
Falling up in lightning flash, I’m somewhere strange and bright—
Let the chaos spin me, let the universe ignite!
Lost in ladders, bending light, my body left behind—
Psilocybin vibing, set my spirit free tonight!

Bridge (Unsettling, Fragmented Harmonies, Acoustic Guitar with Glitchy Processing):
Echoes in arithmetic,
Heartbeat thumping, frenetic—
I see your hands reach through the fractal night,
Your voice a vapor in rainbow light.

Spiraling upwards, tether undone,
I follow your laughter to the heart of the sun.

Final Chorus (Wild, Layered, Euphoric, All Musical Motifs Combined):
Psilocybin, ride another sky,
Color-flowers blooming, let the hard world die!
Eyes are rivers, dreams awry, dissolve into the spin—
In this melting music, I find you again!
Oh, let the cosmic moss entangle every line—
Psilocybin vibing, leaving loss behind!

Outro (Gentle, Sighing Electronics, Broken Harmonies, Fading Reflection):
Don’t wake me from this glowing world,
Where sorrow’s just a dream—
Moon-dusted footprints by your side,
My heart forever in-between.

Psilocybin Skie (feat. Ms. Shadow, Clarita, Zero, Future Perfect, and Mr. Z)

Don't Die Twice (feat. Mr. Z)

Panic In The Gynasium (feat. Mr. Z)

The Last Night On The Old Deck (feat. Mr. Z)

This song is about the traitors from m our own gay world turning against us, when my husband got sick, and not one gay person was there for him or for me.

Stand Against the Hate (feat. Future Perfect, Mr. Z)

When You Were Here (feat. Dale Barnhart. Mr. Z)

With Fury In Their Eyes (feat. Future Perfect, Liquid Blue, and Mr. Z)

No Fathers Son (feat. Mr. Z)

Graveyard Family Reunion (feat. Mr. Z)

Oh, Father, Mother, Hear My Silent Cry (feat. Mr. Z)

They Shout In The Street (feat. Mr.Z & Future Perfect)

He's Always There (feat. Mr. Z)

Take Me Back (feat. Mr. Z, and Future Perfect)

The Back Of My Mind (feat. Mr. Z and Future Perfect)

Mixed Signals (feat. Ms Shadow, Future Perfect, Mr. Z)

Age Ain’t Got Nothin’ On Us (feat. Mr. Z and Future Perfect)

Just Thoughts, Thinking Of You (feat. Mr Z)

The Path (feat. Mr. Z)

I Have Feared (feat. Mr. Z)

Booty Alan (feat. Alan in PA, TT)

Mr F Died July 2 6:50am. RIP. 

SYSTEM:

DAWs: Live, Logic Pro, Acid, Pro Logic, Cubase, etc
Controllers: Roli Blocks, Push3, Push2, Roli Seawave 2
Instruments: Violin, Viola, Cello, Banjo, Mandolin, Guitar, Most String Instruments, Bone, Sax, Flute.

Back Of My Mind

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