Lyrics:

Hook:

I'm tryna grow, ya keep cutting me down; its getting' pretty fuckin' hard to smile now. 
Never validated what I did, its like you were killing me so you could live.

Verse:

Missing you circulates ma mind, when I cut you open, didn't find any diamonds inside;
Feel like I can breathe, I know you didn't want me to leave;
So now I'm watchin' ya bleed;

I had to go...

I'm sorry for making' ya choke, we used ta fuck with ma hand on ya throat, there was a time when I though you was dope.

Compulsion to drink overwhelms, til I can't cope...

Feel like I'm losing myself;
Trapped on the Ferris wheel, of shit thats bad for ya health.

Smokin' Cigarettes, 'levitating the stress, the photo's on ma phone are seeming perplexed;

You were there through the bullshit, the times I thought I was useless; 
show'd me I had a brain, just didn't know how to use it.
A real man doesn't cry, don't believe me? I'll fuckin' prove it.

Came to see I was wrong, pushing through the pain, while I'm writing this song.

Hook:

I'm tryna grow, ya keep cutting me down; its getting' pretty fuckin' hard to smile now. 
Never validated what I did, its like you were killing me so you could live.

X2

Verse:

Past the point of loathing, flashbacks of my use are often provoking;
Lack of belief in myself, so I write another track 'bout ma mental health.

I wanna stay with you...

This is getting' toxic;
fuckin' idiotic, still on anti-psychotics;
Wish it could fixed, with a dose of anti-biotics.

Don't ask me what her number is, I already forgot it...

Will we be together? Only time will know; articulate my life, like my name was Picasso.

Hook:

I'm tryna grow, ya keep cutting me down; its getting' pretty fuckin' hard to smile now. 
Never validated what I did, its like you were killing me so you could live.

X2

End

IDentaphy EP

Kill Me So You Can Live (Prod. By Run Wyld) (Milk Crate Recordings)(Beat by Yondo)

Lyrics 

Hook:

I ain't care for religion, nothin' against the Christians, I'm searching' for the wisdom, to free me from materialism.

X2

Verse: 

I think its pretty clear humanity's lost its faith, from I can hear they don't believe in the man, that died on a stake;

Tell me;
Why do why partake, at pointing fingers to the man in the sky?
You and I;

Are searching for the wisdom, chances of finding it;
Are one in a million, or maybe its a trillion.

Meanwhile, we got pedafiles hurting our children, also got the coppers gunning down us civilians.

Don't worry baby, societies crazy, have you watched the new lately?

It makes me;

Wanna give up on the plan, what happen to peace n' love man?

Hook:

I ain't care for religion, nothin' against the Christians, I'm searching' for the wisdom, to free me from materialism.

X2

Verse:

Completely agnostic, I'm open to most things, like when you shop at hot topic;
Pick up this pen from my pocket, treat it like a weapon, I cock it;

Highlighting these issues, with cynical views, better get the politicians some tissues;
I wanna bring it all down...

Say where independent, where a slave to the crown.

I'm the leader of the oppressed, low functioning, so they say where fuckin' depressed;
Sick o' the feelings that I have suppressed.

They say I'm just an addict, telling me I'm damaged, but at least I'm organic;
Staying original, in a society thats constantly manic.

Hook:

I ain't care for religion, nothin' against the Christians, I'm searching' for the wisdom, to free me from materialism.

X2

End

Prism (Prod. by Jools) (Beat by Riddle)

Lyrics:

Hook:

Childhoods n' complex reflections;
Death, suicide n constant neglection;
Got the OCD, got the depression;
Nearly took my life away, in a matter of seconds.

Verse:

I remember being ten when Wilma passed away, there were so many things I wish I had o' got to say;
Wish I coulda taken her place, when I reflect on the memories made, ma heart suddenly breaks;

Got another canvass that I wanna create;
I'll slice ma veins with another blade, n use my blood as the paint.

Grant me the Serenity, accept the shit I cannot change, movie' forward now, turning' over the page;

Searching for my identity, ma situation is strange.
Seek n' you will find, won't let you poison my mind, I'm motivated by rage;
Switch it off with success that I crave, sick n' tired of the meds that I take.


Hook:

Childhoods n' complex reflections;
Death, suicide n constant neglection;
Got the OCD, got the depression;
Nearly took my life away, in a matter of seconds.

Verse:

Some days I wanna die, suicide;
I know you can relate, thats why they call me IDentaphy.

Paranoid over re-occuring visions, terrified of ghosts n' apparitions, haunted by my bad decisions;

Hungry for recovery, got tunnel vision.

Ain't coincidental, when it comes to spitting' over instrumentals;

Ya seem ta relate, people aren't really ya mates;

If the enable you to use n' abuse the substance you choose;
The cunts are two faced.

Ain't here to preach, I'm here to inform;
Ain't tryna teach, uh! but either way ya gotta conform, I'm running outta  time, getting' of the tram at the crack dawn.

The rides with the ambos, lonely nights in abandos;

Waking up with my neck in a rope, I'm still alive from the second path that I choose;
Getting' by with my experience, my strength n' my hope;
I sit here reminiscing on the words that I wrote.


Hook:

Childhoods n' complex reflections;
Death, suicide n constant neglection;
Got the OCD, got the depression;
Nearly took my life away, in a matter of seconds.

Complex Reflections II

Freddy Wants A Suicide (Prod. By Jools)

Lyrics:

Verse:

Since October, hate being sober, waking up with cravings; I had ma pain over.
I can't take it, thought I knew myself, I guess I'm mistaken, sick o' how I'm behavin.'

Tell me my love...
Why did you stay?
Fuck eggshells, you were walking on razor blades.

I had you living in fear, believe when I say your the reason I'm here.

I stood on that bridge, one more time, if I could see her face, that'd be nice, so at least I'd be at peace when I take my life.

Interlude:

"To you o' lord I lift up my soul, in your hands I commend my spirit, assist me in my last agony, as I walk through the valley of death, I shall fear no evil, as you are with me..."

Verse:

I'm waking' up now and my head fuckin' aches, I don't know what to do, I use to drink to escape, so I jump on my board n' skate.

Been holding up the bridge, now my shoulders are tired, trine isolate from these liars, I know I've been absent minded.

But please;
Help me;

Become inspired, lift me up from this shame I hide.

Been living in hell, I try not dwell, be grateful, thats the advice they tell, I haven't picked up, but I might as well.

Had enough of the trouble, the pain of withdrawal, I stick to ma morals, avoiding the quarrels;
Every day is a page, I write my own novel.

Enough of the fakes, the posers, the models, no happiness in the bottom of a bottle.

Hook:

One more day when ya souls hurting, don't know if you'll make it, nothings for certain;
Not sure of the reason, I keep getting' up, why's ma heart still beating?

One Day At A Time

Everywhere I go, I'm seeing ya face;
Can't forget ya eyes, so brown they could hypnotise;

For you I'd never be late, still remember ya smile, from our first date, we need up at your place.

Ya had me at hello, and that was it, I wouldn't let go, I admit;

Your the only one I wanted ta live with...

Yeah...

Now ya gone, our house is lonely, left some of ya clothes, feel like I'm dying slowly, wish you were here to hold me, go ahead and roast me...

Always said a man doesn't cry, your the reason why, I, didn't commit suicide.
Cause ya picked up the phone, told ya what I was doing, n' begged for me to come home.

When I met you, you were quiet n' shy, told me you were pregnant, I nearly died;
I ain't gonna lie, 
I wanted to be there, I honestly tried, I'm still poppin' the pills, that the doctors prescribe.

I hope you don't hate me, feel my heart suddenly breakin' ya breathe takin,' ya beautiful;
I still wear the ring you gave me.

Saw me for who I was, never put me in a cubicle.
I got sober for you, cause I hated myself, so I thought you would do...

I'm crying while I'm spittin' in this booth, cause I wanna use, only way I know how to medicate the pain I go through... A drink'd be nice too...

Yo! I can't do it though...

Don't wanna black out again, doing the steps n' makin' amends, lost people I thought were my friends, you were always there listening, 
now this is the end, I'm tryna pretend...

That this guilt doesn't eat me alive, I wanna provide a crowd with a positive vibe, how can I, when I feel like I'm dying' inside...
It fucken hurts...

Minds in overide, scribbling ink, feel like I've been hit by a truck or a couple of bricks, hating the day, I'm watching the clock tick.

I hope that ya happy, I hope that ya well, I hope that ya looking' after yaself, I still got the feelings we felt, if ya ever in trouble, I'll be there to help...

Guilt Poem (Prod/Beat By Run Wyld)

Lyrics:

Verse:

Everywhere I go, I wanna punch walls, don't bother phoning me;
I won't answer ya calls.

If Only,
I could paint a pretty picture;
Get ma life sorted like a fixture.
Had the heart ache;
But now I'm planning ma moves like Bobby Fischer.

Society's so fuckin' generic;
Ya Brainwashed, the government cuts costs;
They put me down cause I'm not aspheric.

I'm lying under the sheets, tongue tied I can't breathe;
Whats worse?
My depression or the anxiety, whenever I walk through doors, I'm telling ya the truth, no room for metaphors.

Young man will ya take the floor?
Inspire these kids, tell 'em what happens when you go out and score?
Mike check... Hmm... Lemme pause;
Truth is, your a damaged drug addict n' ya girlfriends a whore.

Hook:

Maybe I'm brainwashed, wish everyone would fuck off; Maybe I've gone soft, Ma hands sweat, life ain't nothin' but a game o' Russian roulette;
Got me feeling' like, whats next?

(repeat)

Verse:

Protect ya neck;
Get in line, its time ta place bets.

Who wanna step ta the plate, who wanna fuck with the man that don't break;
I'm sick n' tired o' all the shit that I've had to take.

Mental afflictions, over coming addiction, I put ma life in a rhythm, don't care if you diss it;
But when I'm talking' sit the fuck down n' listen!

Slit ma wrist with this switchblade, see ya later fuck face;
Gotcha looking' left ta right like which way.
Now who the fuck said IDentaphy's bitch made?

Maybe I'm bitter, cause ma father was an alcoholic;
the reason for my depression defies logic'
Turns to aggression in a matter of seconds;
I'm reaching for a weapon!
Know I'm gonna cop it;
See ya legs n' chop 'em;
Welcome to ta rock bottom,

Round here theres no batman n' robin, theres only bad guys n' where living in Gotham.

Hook:

Maybe I'm brainwashed, wish everyone would fuck off; Maybe I've gone soft, Ma hands sweat, life ain't nothin' but a game o' Russian roulette;
Got me feeling' like, whats next?

(repeat)

Brainwashed (Demo Track)

You are not alone, it will get better. Take it one day at a time, reach out and express yourself, or seek the professional advice of a psychologist or psychiatrist. Click the links provided for information about support programs & recovery organisations. Always call 000 in an emergency.

Much Love,

IDentaphy.