My Pills

video
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(prod. @x10derrick)

[lyrics]

i keep it to myself i don’t talk 
if they ask what i know 
ima tell them i don’t know 
i’m down to do whatever you want 
pop a tab while we’re drunk 
and i don’t know what i’m on 

and i know it’s haunting you 
but it’s also haunting me 
and i know that that’s the truth 
but truth keeps cuttin deep 

i ended in her bed all alone 
i’ve been seeing this ghost 
and it follows were i go 
we make friends and we dance by the shore 
switching colors and worlds 
but i still felt safe at home 

while you’re out looking for me 
i’m out looking for you 
i’m out looking for you

looking for you

looking for you (prod. x10derrick)

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
sit down in the porch lights tend to wait for a call
I shouldn’t have made it through the night 
But I made it out alive fuck everybody saying I won’t

real soon I’ll be ready to go
real soon ima take another pill and some more
this noon ima show you what’s left
this noon ima give it my all
six pills i can’t take anymore
more pills and i would’ve put an end to it all
ima sad kid i cant let momma know
i cant stand seeing her cry anymore

save me but nobody ever gave a fuck
it’s me, can’t nobody see me through these walls
xan, lean I’ll experiment in this cup
all geeked in my bedroom all docked alone
four weeks and nobody has hit my phone
the only text that I get is when I hit my plug
the only voice is slowly getting numb
chemicals in my head got me going dumb

waking up with no sunlight felt it in my bones
my friends were crying all night cause they thought I was gone
lay down in the porch lights trynna bring me to earth
wipe those tears cause I’m making it home this time

suisside- pills (prod. x10derrick)

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

i would give you all my bands i don’t care what you say
i dont got that many fans but I love them to death
i don’t think you understand somethings wrong in my brain 
i don’t think I had the chance to make myself feel the pain
i was trynna get my wealth I had nothing to say
i was working on myself ain’t nobody the same
i was trynna treat you well you were not like the lames 
i aint need nobody’s help I’m by my own in my lane

(my lane) 
get the fuck out my lane
(get the fuck out my lane)
get thе fuck out my lane
(my lane)
i cut you off like a vein
(i cut you off like a vein)
i cut you off like my veins
(my veins)
i wanna go out and say
(i wanna go out and say)
i think im going insane
(insane)
im working hard everyday
(im working hard everyday)
and if I die I’ll be safe

i feel like im spending my last days on this earth
and if I die I won’t be alone
nothings going my way somethings wrong
im not afraid to see the unknown
something is going on somethings in my head
i dont fucking know I can’t help but shake
somethings fucking up somethings not okay
i would give you the world if I’m allowed to stay

suisside- my last days (original version)

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @x10derrick)

[lyrics]

and i never grew the guts to say how i feel,
take it all just take it all where did you learn to steal?
i come in peace, i have a gun, i caught a thrill, 
say my name 

oh hi again my only friend i’ve come to you 
instead of them, 
to ask you why i feel this way, why im so strange i feel no pain?
why am i gay? why am i straight? why am i forced to love this life?
am i awake? am i in bed? i might’ve played dead for some time!

i’m taking the long way home.

say my name

say my name (prod. x10derrick)

Fuck you, fuck that

Kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me

Girl I gotta go I got somewhere to be
You can come along if you’re fucking for free
Bust down on the floor lemme see what you mean
Let me get some more when you’re done with the scene

I smoke dope just to get away
I do drugs to relive the pain
It really don’t work but it fuck with my head
It fuck with my head, baby I’ll be okay 

Kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me, please kill me
I’d rather die right now than just cry out loud
So kill me, please kill me
Send me to the clouds and this hell I found 
So kill me

suisside- kill me (prod. x10derrick)

You stare at the sun with a face 
Saying “shits not right, ima die tonight”
I got different hoes on the way 
I got so much white got your bitch alright
I got all my own on my face 
I feel strange inside, take the pills I’m fine
Can’t see out my eyes, feel my face
Babygirl you fine ima hit one time

She acting all bad and saying she won’t text me back
She won’t say shit back
She playing them games with my head
Baby try this time it won’t work this time
Now you’re part of this page 
Runaway start a brand new life
Why your smile so bright?
You can die in my bed if you care
Baby I’m not fine ima take my life

I know I don’t mean much to you
I can be a fool to you
But you can’t deny you’re mine
You can talk behind my back
You can stab me in the back
It ain’t ever gonna change the facts, aye

You stare at the sun with a face 
Saying “shits not right, ima die tonight”
I got different hoes on the way 
I got so much white got your bitch alright
I got all my own on my face 
I feel strange inside, take the pills I’m fine
Can’t see out my eyes, feel my face
Babygirl you fine ima hit one time

I know I don’t mean much to you
I can be a fool to you
But you can’t deny you’re mine
You can talk behind my back
You can stab me in the back
It ain’t ever gonna change the facts, aye

suisside- mine (prod. x10derrick)

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @grave5y0)

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