Dopamine

Said you’d never leave me
But you left before I healed
And you opened up the wound
And made it worse and made me heel 
Over like we’re over
Not the last we say goodbye
Soon will be though when I decide
To either die right now or cry

When I heel over and over again
Like a unwrote suicide note
Cant tell where the end began
While i’m sitting in my basement
Thinking current “this the end?”
I don’t like to talk to people
But I have a couple friends

I wouldn’t call them my friends
Cuz I don’t think that they like me
I ain’t capping when I’m saying
Don’t think nobody like me
Cuz ain’t nobody like me
I’ve been different vibing
With some drugs I’m dining
Talkin zaza and shroomies
Edi’s, J’s, I’m frightened

Cuz I still can’t get away
I can’t run from all my pain
My number one best friend
Goes by the name, my baby “Mary Jane” 
I’ve been sit in mental drain
Always feelin so damn strained
But I guess destroying lives is something
All “good” girls are trained

I’m not feeling super great
But I say I’m doing well
But Realistically 
I’ve been sittin inside of a hell
And it’s warm as fuck
Cuz my hearts so cold
Like I don’t give a fuck
I’ve been on my own

Since I was 9 years old
I’ve been lonely living
Living life like I was alone
Cuz I was alone
Deal with shit that God only knows
But God doesn’t know
Cuz he don’t exist
Keep tellin y’all’s that bro
While I’m staying stoned

Woah

I’m gettin high
I feel the comatose
Feelin so depressed
Where did all my happy feelings go

No left over sympathy
Enter different industries
Try to make it work
But nothing is ever meant for me
Nothings ever meant to be
I’m so sad 
I know that people aren’t into me

But I cannot seem to cry
Someday Imma die
It may be sooner or later
But eventually it’s goodbye
Goodbye

Comatose (prod.Moon x Pizzle)

(lyrics aren’t accurate, i was too lazy to change original to official, my bad)

I’ve been tryin my best
feeling hella low
and I been feelin so depressed 
i’ve been out of control
why am i so oppressed 
i need some sleep
but i cant get no rest
even though i’m counting sheep

i been feelin broken hearted
never felt less
i am in the darkness
14, broken nonetheless
i can’t tell when all this started
cuz that shit went unsaid
emotions so fuckin retarded 
yet i feel so stressed

i been out of my head
i can never keep a grip
i been out of my mind
thinkin i might need a cig
took control of my life
‘motions got ripped
all my feelings inside
why am i like this
i been feelin so sad
why is life so shit
so many questions unsaid
i just need to take a rip
off a bowl or a blunt
bong or a spliff
i been takin hella drugs
need to feel nothin, yeah

tell me can i live 
never feel alive
i been takin hella shit
and i won’t apologize
i didn’t do nun wrong
she be tellin all them lies
same thing happened my one friend
him and i, same lives
i can’t live like this
i’ll just stay alive
i just hit hella drugs
yet nothin gets me cloud 9
i been feelin so bad
cuz you took my life
“this a two-way street
but you forgot how to drive” (sorrow)

people look at me
i’m strange and odd
i been out of energy
no more puttin up facades
someone come drown me
throw in ocean with a rock
cuz i feel hella useless
like a key without a lock

i can’t open my heart
even less my soul
she just ripped me all apart
guess i’ll light up my bowl
i will rap forever
keep it steady on flow 
and if i can’t do that
i don’t know where to go

first pause went by like that
come school time
180 anxiety attacks
but i’ll keep this rhyme
no one knows i rap
or i hope not
cuz i’ll hear this and that
bout my shitty ass music
one jump then splat
i’ll be on the concrete
body barely intact 
wanna talk to my dad
but don’t got contact
cuz he don’t want me
hope you know that’s not cap

when i go back to school
i’ll be feelin so alone
only thing i really got
is this stupid ass phone 
that what i use to record music
vibe to Ekkstacy at home
if you try to call me
prolly left on the tone

if you wanna talk to me
better not provide me lies
i don’t got any girls
i don’t even got “the guys”
if you wanna call me
i wont answer no surprise 
but if i do i’ll say a word
and that word will be goodbye

I just wanna be worthy of love
I’ll never find her

trying (prod. boyfifty)

Rest

make me cry (prod. 4lexf)

its been 7 months but i dont feel like im enough

Dopamine II

𝓁𝒾𝒻ℯ 𝒾𝓈 𝒶𝓃 𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓃ℯ𝓈𝓈, 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝒾𝒸 𝒾𝓈 𝒶 𝓇ℯ𝓂ℯ𝒹𝓎 🥀

ℒ𝒾𝓁𝒶 🥀

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