https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/73Um4aALrNAGYqU3qzLuQz?si=742712cbd64c4f87
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XnqnhPrRlA

lyrics:
i know that u cheat and lie
don't know how i feel inside
i know that u cheat and lie
this feels like my last goodbye
i don't have any friends
pls just let me find my end
i'm about to fkn break
if u don't even want to stay

i can't stand this shit
i can't stand this shit
"one more hit"

i know that u cheat and lie
don't know how i feel inside
i know that u cheat and lie
this feels like my last goodbye
i don't have any friends
pls just let me find my end
i'm about to fkn break
if u don't even want to stay

i can't stand this shit (prod. nos3bleeed)

This one came from diving deep into the real history of places like Allegheny, Danvers State Hospital, and Willowbrook. These weren't just hospitals - they were human warehouses where society dumped anyone deemed "unfit," then subjected them to barbaric treatments in the name of medicine.

The song opens with that Gothic architecture imagery because these places were built to look imposing and fortress-like - designed to keep people in and the world out. "They called it treatment, called it care / While demons danced in every stair" captures how these institutions hid torture behind medical terminology.

What really gets me is how they turned healing into horror - electroshock without anesthesia, ice baths, lobotomies performed with ice picks. "Lobotomies with rusty tools / Turning humans into fools" - that's not metaphor, that actually happened to thousands of people who just needed help.

The "halls of madness" concept works because these buildings literally absorbed decades of suffering. When you read about people visiting these abandoned places, they all report the same thing - an overwhelming sense of dread, like the walls themselves remember the pain.

Musically, I'm hearing this as heavy, atmospheric metal - maybe around 120 BPM in a minor key, with that Gothic horror vibe. It needs to sound as haunting and oppressive as those buildings feel when you walk through them.
The bridge about walking the corridors at night gets into that paranormal element - how these places feel alive with the suffering that happened there. "They're still here, they're still in pain / In the asylum's cold refrain" - because when you warehouse human misery for decades, it leaves a mark that never goes away.

This song's about remembering the victims and making sure we never forget what happens when society decides some people are disposable.

The Final Countdown - Dave Rodgers

rainysigh

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