devil in my brain

made a deal

wish there was more light in the day

i need a reason

falling down

kinda describes the feelings of BPD when your girl or whoever is tryna leave you. the gun and killing shit is just a metaphor for the extent of what you'd go through just to keep them there because that fear of abandonment is just too intense for the mind to handle

lyrics:

Kinda sick of bein like this, I don't know what to say I'm just too fucked up
Please just give me one last kiss, I know I don't deserve it I been too in my cup
Can I hold your hand one last time, this is my last chance to make you mine

I know I don't deserve you, I know I did some shit now you hate me too

I know I pulled out a gun
But you were gonna leave me
Now I'm makin you stay
Now you gon pay for the pain

Now you gon pay for the pain

Now you gon pay for the pain

Now you gon pay for the pain

I know you don't deserve this

I been driven to tears by all the pain and fears
Get the fuck outta here you don't wanna be near
I'ma blow the fuck up yeah you better run
Don't wanna be around when I pull out my gun

All the shit that I do no it ain't for fun
Livin day to day feelin so fuckin done
I don't want this shit I don't need this shit
You can fuckin tell when you look at my wrist

The other day when you said you was leavin, I held my head in my hands and I started to cry

Decided to make a plan, that you would stay with me or you would fuckin die

I know it isn't right, but I'm not alright

It's worth the sacrifice

You gon stay with me or you'll be cold like ice

You gon stay with me

Yeah you gon stay with me

You gon stay with me

I know you don't want to

I been driven to tears by all the pain and fears
Get the fuck outta here you don't wanna be near
I'ma blow the fuck up yeah you better run
Don't wanna be around when I pull out my gun

All the shit that I do no it ain't for fun
Livin day to day feelin so fuckin done
I don't want this shit I don't need this shit
You can fuckin tell when you look at my wrist

Please just keep away

Or I'm gon hurt you

I hurt everyone

In the end

BPD (prod. Kubsy Beats)

hate. (prod. Saint Mike)

the suicide lullaby

drug talk

my pain (prod. grimeacetrap)

i should rot (prod. VE Beats)

blade hungry (prod. luvtempt8tion)

get high (prod. hard light)

(LIL PEEP ONLY) The song they played when I crashed into the wall (cover)

bloody dreams (prod. antisxcial)

no apologies (prod. discent)

coke in my nose (ft. Lil44N) (prod. Rogue)

scars (prod. metlast)

it hurts (prod. Puhf)

bloodstains on the whip (prod. smokerose x 5head)

liquor (prod. Lxst Ghxul)

devil in a black dress (prod. MLay)

stressed out (prod.  metlast)

idk why i try (prod. discent)

blurry (prod. jeepy)

brand new bitch (prod. ablv)

heathen (prod. NOYY)

break me (prod. babieyummo x 5head)

screamin for help (I know this song sucks)

black whip (REMASTERED)

hope I pop one too many ft. littleT (prod. Discent)

fed up ft. littleT (prod. metlast)

my baby (remastered)

my life story ft. littleT

is this what you wanted (prod. a r t t m)

I suck at making music but fuck it I'ma do it anyway lmao

m0nzie

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