Again

Here & Now

The Signs

SAN DIEGO

Got me playin
Got me sayin
That I don’t wanna know
Don’t you doubt me 
Don’t you say it
Don’t go put on a show

Wipe my hands say my lines
Going to start anew
See myself for the first time
And there’s nothing I can do

Oh oh oh oh oh
I’m drifting away
Oh oh oh oh oh
And I wish I could stay

Sense of something
Feel like nothing
Lose my mind to find myself
Yeah you said it
Yeah you doubt me
Overthink my mental health

Been too long
Somehow gone
Now we’re all going back 
There it is 
See it now
In my head it’s all I lack 

Oh oh oh oh oh
I’m drifting away
Oh oh oh oh oh
And I wish I could stay

But I don’t wanna go home
I don’t wanna go home

San Diego

KIDZ THESE DAYS

Now take two of these bad boys and call me in the morning
If your problems don’t go away then man you got something forming
I just want to play by my own rules
Just a little scared they’ll call me old school
I think I know a thing or two about having bad days
All my friends all solve their problems by smoking to a haze
Blame it on some scripture or some ancient meditation
Thinking the path to your third eye just requires medication
But I don’t think the answer’s that simple in a world as big as this
It seems like every day we’re just adding to the list
Of things beyond my comprehension
All that requires my attention
And I’m falling short of every one 
Letting down everyone
I can’t get myself to sleep at night
Feel like nothing’s going right
Maybe it doesn’t have to make sense
Too tired to live in the present tense
Nothing matters unless you want it to
But I’ve come too far not to see this through

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Kidz These Days

LOSING TOUCH 

I, I’m losing touch 
I cannot see where this path will go 
And I, I don’t quite know 
What you’ll think of me
When we make it home 

So I, take a look at my world 
To see what I missed 
But I’m too blind
Oh darling, I’m losing sleep 
The old ways don’t work 
And now I stay awake 

But I, I know I can change 
I cannot see, and that’s okay 
And I, I don’t care 
What you’ll think of me
When we make it home 

No matter how many times
The colors fade into grey
I know in the back of my mind
Tomorrow is another day

I know it goes on and on
Truth turns in to cliche
But I know in the back of my mind
Tomorrow is another day

Tomorrow is another day

Losing Touch

CLEAR

Oh I need someone to help me see a little more clear
There’s not that many good people living here
As the world burns will you be by my side?
As the car crashes will you be along for the ride?
I can’t make it, on my own

Another voice
Another silent choice 
To be here with me
I know it’s not easy
So I’m sorry 
I’m sorry

Oh I need someone to help me see a little more clear
There are so many little things that I fear
So as the walls go up will you be on my side?
As the stars fall will you be along for the ride?
I can’t make it, on my own 

And I realize
It’s not a surprise
That I need you
But you need me too
So I’m not sorry
I’m not sorry 
Oh no

For James Bedicheck

Clear

STRANGERS

There’s not a single person who I haven’t hurt
Thinking it’s impossible to change
But as time moves on you fined yourself
And know it’s never too late
The hardest part is staying alive
When everything gets you down
Loveless sex and suicide 
Are never the right way out

And it feels a little bit like heaven
When you call my name
Makes me feel like everything’s alright
And maybe you feel the same
Maybe I don’t feel that great right now
But these things come and go
While I’d love to have all the answers
I don’t think we’re supposed to know

There’s a million different people that I never knew
So I try not to be so loud
But I keep my door open and I wait for you
Man, I hope you’re proud
In a world for of strangers I’ve found my home
And learn to set my body free
With a million new beginnings there’s a thousand false starts
That lead you back to me
It’s time for me to stop being so selfish 
And look at the world outside
See all the strangers that through love and care
Have learned to survive

So I think I found my heaven
Just sitting here with you
Right now the future’s certain
I know just what to do
Maybe I don’t feel that great right now
But these things come and go
While I’d love to have all the answers
I don’t think we’re supposed to know

Strangers

KINKY

Is this what you expected
Or did I let you down again?
It seems like these days
Apathy is my only friend
But it’s not gonna get much better
With your eyes tied to the floor
So pick up all your things 
And walk right out that door 

I want you to get out, get out of my mind
I want you to get out, get out of my mind

The chemicals inside me 
Don’t make me who I am
You can call me a sadist 
But I killed the sacred lamb
The strangest things bring us together
Don’t forget where you came from before
And I know you can handle the weather
Even though we can’t censor the gore

I want you to get out, get out of my mind
I want you to get out, get out of my mind

I don’t want to lead you on
I don’t want you to throw a fit
You can see me all you want
But please don’t read too much into it

“Sexy was about the last thing I was feeling. I felt much more depressed than sexy.” -Holden Caufield

Kinky

MELANCHOLIA

(Cowritten by Ellie and Saturn)

Open up my mouth and free my mind
I’ve been hurt so long it’s made me blind

Oh lady liberty, they never let her be 
Oh no
Change the process and believe in me
And I’ll break the shackles that made me bleed 
Oh no

Look now from above and scan the anxious crowd
They’ve been through so much, though different they are proud
We were given voices for a reason
Hope shines brightest in the darkest season

THE FRINGES