“Ill break your bones with all the love I carry”

Holy yap, yall dont gotta read this<3

TW: MENTIONS OF $H, S3WERSL!DE.

Before I start, i’d like to specify how this is copy and pasted on each of my socials.

Heyaaa !! Most of yall mightve not known me, actually it might be your first impression of me when you see this account, but my nickname was ri and i was a 14 yr old girl!! I know you might think ‘uhm?! Why is this hoe literally writing these on social apps instead of seeking medical help or help from her family 😂’. Well medical help isnt helping and my close ones know. My family is well informed as I left notes for them on my desk, and same goes for my sister. I apologize heavily if i missed doing your request or if you wished to see more tracks from me. If youre one of those people, NO ITS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU SILLY🙏, i simply couldnt deal with so much stuff in my life. If you’d want to know what was the reason, well it was more than one. My family divorced early in my life and it had affected me greatly, as all they do is try to earn custody over me and dont actually care about my feelings, they just care about making the other lose in terms of reputation(theres more to this but i wont disclose personal information. Most i can say is that my father did illegal stuff.. gacha life story ahh/j.). My friends keep leaving one by one, and i couldnt help but develop this feeling in my gut, that stabs me at each moment, despite nothing happening. My current friends were horrid, as they left me out at each moment, and if they did include me, it was either to make fun of me or insult me. My mother isnt proud of my achievements anymore, and she treats me as some animal instead of some human (yes this sounds corny but hear me out.. you know the feeling when someone discovers your SH and suddenly they treat you with pity as if youre different from them? As if youre not NORMAL, as if youre not HUMAN anymore because ‘oh my gosh youre so quirky how could u do that heh!! 👽’). My online friends on each app.. i love my roblox friends(kind of. Even tho some of yall are rude, i loved your humour). I like my pinterest friends, yall are amazing tbh. My soundcloud friends kind of suck, not in a mean way, but i havent had good experiences with them, and i wish that they didnt happen or that i had never met them. Yes im looking at that person that added me in their bio and lied about me, sorry i feel petty and angry and sad and AHAH CRASHING OUT WRITING THIS. Other friends on other apps never existed, and some apps wont be having this bio due to the fact that i dont think i want strangers knowing this, this is mostly to inform my followers.  Anyway back on talk, yes i know its dumb to do this, and i know its selfish not to care about my sister or people that actually care about me(if they actually exist). But i cant do this anymore, seriously. I cant live like this, worrying about everything, being seen differently because of scars/ being seen as a bitch for my different behaviour (that started changing. I dont know why, i became more rude than before, more self-conscious, more silent, more disrespectful, more petty, more aggressive, more draining to be around AND more annoying/boring, as some people like to call me that <3). I honestly deserve this, and im grateful of the stuff i had to have, but maybe things wouldve been better if i had the base stuff, a functioning family, friends and maybe be loved. Im lowkey typing this out crying. I wont forget what everyone has done for me. Despite you guys growing tired of me, i will continue loving you. 
Now that i gave yall the sob story, im happily going to have to leave. If i do survive(incase my mom finds me in time, as i lowkey dont have my own room and im planning to do it as shes gone for 1-2 hours), i wont be back on any app.

thank you if you read this, i really appreciate it <3 tried to make this as entertaining as possible to read and also not to make it too sad. Ik im a cornball for this sorryy- anyway, bye.

And im sorry.

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