deep october 🖤🥀

@kaynives  @darkskyparadox 



PiHKAL
 June 17, 2017.
*LYRICS*

I lost a piece of myself
2012
I won't forget ya
Me see I never ned help 
Do this myself
Don't need assistance
Girl who depend on my wealth
Notchinmybelt
was fun but good riddance
Me and my baby do well
duet and duality
She's a pretty lil angel

I have no reason to cry
I got no reason to cry
I don't need u in my life
Ill have a wonderful time
Baby look me in my eyes
Pupils one helluva size
I can't attempt suicide
yet to have time of my life
I have no reason to cry 
I got no reason to cry aye

I found myself all alone
A year ago
I need a sunset
Ok, I get it, you know
life is a joke;
millennial fuckfest
I really thought I would blow
instead I do blow 
My only success
Suck it up, love me Im depressed
Up in her tummy das young $ex
idnc if you want me
want u to want me to undress

I have no reason to cry
Ill find a reason to cry
Tempt me and lead me to lie
I see a dream in her eyes 
Im gonna scheme on the prize 
U can just sleep in for life

Tell me, tell me, lie to me, lie to me
I get high of this irony
I decided that I should leave 
Not just you but society 
Do me one and just lie for me

You have no reason to cry
You'll find a reason to cry
Long.Live.MyDemons survive
Attached, I can't leave them behind
Even feel low when Im high
Oh what a wonderful life
I have no reason to cry
I have no reason to cry

Molly Melancholy  (prod. by KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Never Enemies (Prod. Combination Lock & Paradoxx)

Art by me.


Up 2 nights on amphetamines
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies
I felt fine but then fell asleep
questioning
everything
can deny who Im crediting for
taking me....
Things I didn't know
Thoughts we never thought of
Put darkness in my glow,
A chalk line made of stardust like
Softening the blow 
With salt all in my nostrils
8ball straight to my nose
put stones all on my tonsils like..
///
I AM THE COLDEST ONE
PHYSICALLY
MENTALLY
TOO MUCH TO SHOW U LOVE
I AM ALONE AGAIN
TOO CAUGHT UP AND ANGRY, TOO STUBBORN TO NOTICE IT
I CARE FOR NOTHING BUT
YOUR ENTERTAINMENT CAUSE FUCK MY UTOPIA
MY MAMA TOLD ME ONCE
JUST MAKE SURE YOURE OLD ENOUGH
///
Trapped in a city as black is my room
My captor left plenty,
'aye master, thank u'
Awful to be a new casualty
Offered to be a new (tragedy) soon
up two nights on amphetamines 
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies,
Their melodies are settling 


THIS INSTRUMENTAL PRODUCED AND CURRENTLY OWNED BY: @whatsworse

AND AGAIN THE MASTERING OF MY VOCALS DONE BY @darkskyparadox

FELL ASLEEP (prod. WORSE X DARKSKYPARADOX)

instagram- fatherfuneral
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IM ALWAYS NUMB
IM ALWAYS STUCK
LIKE HOW THE FUCK
U COME UNDONE?
A CONUNDRUM
NEED ADVICE
BITE MY TONGUE
WHILE IM YOUNG
IM AFRAID THE LONG RUN
WILL BE ROUGH
WE’LL BE TOUGH..

MAMA ILL BE DAMNED TO KNOW
YOURE HIGH OFF THE ANTIDOTE
NOW FOLLOWED BY A PHANTOM AS
HIS HAND CREEPS UP YOUR PANTY HOSE
THIS IS WHY IM SCARED OF GHOSTS
GREW UP SAW YOU DANCING FOR
A MAN WHO LOOKS SATANIC SO
IM FRANTICALLY
PANICKING
INSANITY ALL IN MY FAMILY
NEVER TAUGHT ME TO PREAPARE FOR THINGS
THEY SAID ITS ALL JUST HEREDITY
I THINK ITS NONSENSE
THEY ALL JUST WANT ME 
TO GIVE MY LIFE AWAY
IM THINKING POSITIVE
NEGATIVE FORCES
DRAINING MY ENERGY
NEED TIME AWAY IN DIFFERENT PLACES
GET ME AWAY FROM HERE
YA 
REGULAR BASIS
EVERY DAY SHIT
ANOTHER HEMISPHERE
YA 
AND I CAN TYPICALLY 
JUST IGNORE IT
BUT I WANT ANYTHING FIOR ME AND MY SHORTY
SHE HAS EMPATHY FOR WHATS IMPORTANT
AND IVE BEEN LISTENING TO HER LIL GORGEOUS 
THOUGHTS AND SYMPATHY
I DONT DESERVE IT 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbnrZ7Hd4x0

Instrumental created/produced/composed by @kaynives & @atbrehant

My vocals mastered by @darkskyparadox AGAIN

thanks to my girlfriend for the image <3

https://soundcloud.com/kaynives/rapideyemovement

SCARED OF GHOST [prod. KAY NIVE$ &  BREHANT x DARKSKYPARADOX]

instagram- fatherfuneral

Art by me
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Thank you for all of your love <3

GO HEAD BRING ME PRESSURE YUH
OH YEAH SO DEPRESSED BECAUSE
I JUST KEEP ON MESSING UP
HOPE U HEARD MY MESSAGE YUH
IM NOT FUCKING LETTING UP
I NEED ALL THE EXTRA LOVE
YES BECAUSE
FEEL LIKE I DONT GET ENOUGH
LET ME GET AHEAD FOR ONCE 
THAT WOULD BE MY PREFERENCE

IM OKAY
THEYRE NO NAMES
NUMB THE PAIN
NOVACAINE 

I THINK THAT IT'S JEALOUSY
THINK IM FINALLY PRESSURING
THEM TO COME AND GET ME
MY EXPRESSION'S DEAFENING
LOUD AS WHAT SHE SAID TO ME
I NEED YOU TO BLESS ME
FUCK ME, TOUCH ME SEXUALLY
IN LIFE I WANT THE BEST THINGS 
BUT IS TIME WORTH INVESTING
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE
YEAH I GUESS UNLESS WE DONT
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MIND THIS TIME OF DAY
I FIND MYSELF ALONE
PRODUCTS TO THE FACE
THE DOCTOR FOR MY SOUL YUH
MINDSET IS ERASED
BIRDWATCHING THE CROWS
TARGET FOR A GAZE
LOCKSMITH FOR THE DOJA
THE GRASS IN WHICH I LAY
IS RELATIVELY GROWN
AND PROPERLY MAINTAINED
FOR GOD AND ALL TO KNOW 
THAT IM FINE ON MY OWN

I KNOW ITS ANXIETY
AT LEAST WHEN IM IN PRIVATE THINGS 
ALWAYS FEEL SO EMPTY 
TRYNA DO IT QUIETLY
AND MY DEFIANCE SILENCING A VOID TRYNA INVENT THINGS YA
BUT I THINK ITS DONE PLENTY ENOUGH 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HObGHcM_OOQ

soundcloud.com/kaynives/heart

@kaynives   

@darkskyparadox

JEALOUSY </3 (prod. KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

instagram - fatherfuneral

art by me
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BROWN EYES, PALE FACE
I KNOW HELL WAITS
IN THE DARK
I SEE STARS

PRIZE OF THE SHOWCASE 
IM COMING HOME LATE
I'VE BEEN GONE
WAY TOO LONG

GOD TRIED TALKING TO ME
I'M HIGH NOT LISTENING
SHINE BRIGHT, IM GLISTENING 
FINE LINES DEFINE ANYTHING 
 </3

PROD.  @prblm

MM. @darkskyparadox
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vvju_2NXs8&t=103s

IN THE DARK (PROD. PRBLM x DARKSKYPARADOX)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcig2UlY7VA

Lyrics below 

produced: @prodnitrous

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/


I said fuck a litre 
I been chiefin foe
Percs make me anemic 
Barely bleedin in the cold 
We got lots of leaders
think that Jesus is a clone 
Tho I’m not a firm believer 
But them demons getting close 

Me and my father 
Finally got caught up 
He still has love for me. 
Went to my mom 
And I was surprised 
She didn’t smell drugs on me.
I feel okay 
And I’m in amazement 
Damn I love LSD.
I wanted to die 
So I can see why 
They say don’t do regularly
If mixed with amphetamines 
It’s something that’s heavenly sent. 
If psilocybin 
I feel alive when 
I feel the pressure and presence of god 
When I’m in a mindset 
End of perspective, don’t know what the time is 
Please bring a friend and come chill for the night 
And stall 
Let’s see how the night evolves.
I’m feeling sick 
I’m losing faith 
My ambition 
Like time, slips away.
5 in A.m. 
my minds in a place 
Where eyes to their lids 
Puts time in a maze. 


I’m subbing Kratom for Percocet 
Mind has been made up, no early death. 
I wouldn’t miss you 
Or being misused 
I’d prolly miss all those dirty texts. 
I feel the walls and they’re closing in 
Think I forgot about what sober is 
Haven’t been home in like over six 
Months think I’m getting too old for this 
I swear them Gucci lil loafers hit 
Givenchy is soft like it’s gopher skin 
She said she likes to get choked and shit 
And I’m the first one not an older man
I was 18 when I owned da whip
You was 18 on your phone and shit. 
More If I miss you 
Never an issue 
I’m all alone on the road (and shit) 

Move. 
Yeah you gotta move. 
Watch how I move 
Pussy is bruised 
From 2 intervals 
Can’t talk to the news 
Questions are cool 
but no interviews.

IF I MISS YOU (prod. Nitrous x Darkskyparadox)

produced by @distancedecay and @deliverbonjovi

Mastered by @darkskyparadox

follow me on ig @FATHERFUNERAL.
https://www.instagram.com/fatherfuneral/

Is it true
I’m high all the time 
Cuz of u 
I died inside
Issa mood
Im fine to drive, I’m cool 
I’m high not seeing twos 
Bright lights, 
I shine like moon’s
White lines inside my room. 
Might die tonight, like soon. 
eyes blue like my mood 
My mood my mood my mood 
Might change might make my move 
I hate I can not choose. 

I hate here 
I’m afraid of what if I stay here
I’m scared of ‘I don’t wanna face fears’
I’m gon be gone by late year 
Can’t stay here 
Wait there
I might come around in like 8 years 
I hope you sleep sound and you take care 
Take care

I was all alone on a hard day 
She was on the phone talking heartbreak 
Had nowhere to go had nothing to show 
I laid in the road tryna stargaze

WHAT? (prod. Distance Decay & DeliverTheCrush x DarkSkyParadox)

Sorry for mp3 quality.

I was coming down on a dosage 
I just pop a round, now I’m open
She said she would stay long 
As I was sober
Numb to the pain 
Can’t obtain your disclosure
I needed a break, need a moment
I could never fake these emotions 
I could never claim or remain heart broken 
Numb to the pain 
I refrain getting closer
Ima numb the pain with them things... im rolling!
Never been the same, I’m reclaiming focus
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over...
Never love again that’s a pain I’m over
I been switching lanes in ‘89 rover 
I can never hang when the Daytimes over 
Day times over 
Should stay nights over
Keep me entertained cuz I hate life sober..

prod. @opal707

mastered and mixed. @darkskyparadox

ITRIEDLOVING (prod. Opal x Darkskyparadox)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExM4-D9dUqE
Beat produced by @paczki
Song Mixed and Mastered by @darkskyparadox

AND IM FALLING
IN A PIT,
I ADMIT THAT IM SORRY :(
I DONT GET THROWING FITS WHEN YOU CALL ME.. 
OFF THE SHITS, MAYBE ITS ME WITHDRAWING..?
ME WITHDRAWING..
THINK I LOVE YOU !
I FEAR GOD IN THE ROOM WHEN I FUCK YOU..
AND ITS ODD, I ASSUME YOU'RE ENOUGH TO
FILL THE FOG AND THE GLOOM WHEN ITS SUBTLE..
NEVER SUBTLE, I KNOW..

PARDON ME
I CAN SEE 
U & ME
IN HARMONY 
STARTING THINGS
OUT WEST.
OUT WEST, OUT WEST, OUT WEST.. yeah. (x2)
--
FUCK ME !
TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING 
SOMETIMES MY THOUGHTS GET UGLY.
SOMETIMES YOUR THOUGHTS ARE OF ME.
ARE OF ME
I KNOW SOMETHING
SOMETHING THAT LIES ABOVE ME
I TRIED TO DIE, IM SUFFERING
IM OUT MY MIND, IM UNCLEAN (DIRTY? IDK)
IM OUT MY MIND !

GOD IN THE ROOM (PROD. PACZKI x DARKSKYPARADOX)

produced by @proderis

mastering n mix @darkskyparadox

cover art by me

Not ur fault, get better..
Look exhausted, I can tell you've seen some awful weather
I can tell that you've been hurt by how you talk forever 
Christian Dior on ur Shirt
Louis Vuitton ur sweater
nevermind the weather

You'll freeze to death
Got her message, I accept 
but I dont read her text
I cant help it, I'm so selfish
I don't feind for sex
Make me better, Keep my head up
Got me deep in debt 

but I never knew
What putting all of those things inside ur head could do
I'd regret it but I forget what I said to you 
No I didn't have intentions to be sexual
No more friendship, be my bitch I'll give respect to you
Give respect to you.. 

I know I been distant, I'm protecting you..
You thought I was different; an intellectual..
She said "your addiction was the death of you"

I-I-I-I fucking knew 
Time flies by there's nothing new
Sigh-i-i Become consumed tonight
I find light, insight to new device.

ASEXUAL (prod. Eris x Darksky)

beat composed by @prodbeef
 
mix/master @darkskyparadox

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY
BEG ME TO COME HOME 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

DONT KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW
DONT KNOW WHAT THEY SAY
SHELTER ME FROM GROWTH 
PRETEND I'M NOT FAR AWAY
I STILL FEEL YOUR GLOW
LIKE THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE
I'M NOT SCARED OF GHOST
CAUSE I KNOW WE FEEL THE SAME

RAIN 
FALL ON WINDOW PANE
PLACE
ME IN YOUR EMBRACE

UGH, AGAIN ?!
HOPE THAT I DONT FALL AGAIN..
(FUCK IT THEN),
OK I WAS WRONG AGAIN.

STAY CLOSE
IDK WHAT THEY KNOW
I ASSUME THAT IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHERE THEY WANT TO GO
I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR REVENGE ON ALL THE THINGS THAT THEY STOLE
I'M AFRAID TO FALL AGAIN AND PARTING WITH MY SOUL

STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE
STAY CLOSE!

STAY CLOSE (prod. Beef x Darkskyparadox)

prod. @prodnitrous

mix/master @darkskyparadox 

follow me on ig @fatherfuneral

BETTER HANG TIGHT
ITS GON BE A LATE NIGHT
I CANT SHAKE MY AMBITION TO STAY HIGH
ISSA GREY SKY, CAN YOU COME AND STAY BY?
JUST IN CASE I CANT MAKE IT TO DAYTIME
7 STRAIGHT NIGHTS
MAKE ME FUCKING HATE LIFE
HIT UR FACETIME 
EVERY OTHER LATE NIGHT
EXCEPT FOR THIS TIME
CAUSE I HATE TO SAY BYE
COULD OF SAVED LIVES
PROBABLY COULDN'T SAVE MINE

I USED ALL MY BEST FLOWS
ARE YOU DONE?
I GUESS SO!
I WOULD CURVE A PORNSTAR 
I'D STILL FUCK MY EX THOUGH
I JUST NEED TO LET GO 
SHE HITS MY PHONE LIKE "XO <3"
WHITE LINES ON THE TV
IS HEARTBREAK IN THE THRESHOLD
YES/NO
MINUTE MANIFESTO 
I'M NEVER IMPRESSED THOUGH
GOT TOO MUCH ON MY MENTAL

THESE DRUGS AREN'T SAFE
THE WALLS ARE TALKING
IN A DARK PLACE
SURROUNDED BY PALM TREES
OUT OF HARMS WAY, SHADOWS UPON ME
WHICH I'VE BEEN WANTING
MY MIND TO QUIT PONDERING

TRUST ME, JUST PEAKED THIS MORNING
THIS SHITS INTENSE ENDORPHINS 
10 PIECE 6 DEEP, YOU'RE GORGEOUS
GET CLEAN, MISS ME, IT'S FOR THE BEST

ENDORPHIN

ENDORPHIN (prod. NITROUS x DARKSKY)

prod. eris.. mix/master by darkskyparadox

it was a beautiful day
miss you 
I wish you could stay
Meet rock bottom
I just peaked off molly 
and I think I remember your face (x2)

and I'm sea sick
I been swimming to my limit in the deep end
Almost died 
this time I'm sinking
China Shop 
I can never stop thinking
and I mean it
When I say
"you were made for reason"
I don't hate that you came to me tweaking
Just as long as you pick up the pieces
Yeah the pieces..

it was a beautiful day
miss you 
I wish you could stay
Meet rock bottom
I just peaked off molly 
and I think I remember your face (x2)

We never took a vacation..
I wass too high 
and I never knew why I didn't make it
to the vacant little Days Inn
in a desert somewhere deep out of vegas.

CHINA SHOP (prod. Eris x Darksky)

Produced @thafireman

Mix/Master @darkskyparadox

HOUSEHOLD OF A SLEEPER
ALL NIGHT I BE GEEKED UP
FEELINGS GETTING DEEPER
MY LIL MONA LISA
THIS SHIT HOLDIN ME UP
OTHERWISE I'M EMPTY
TELL ME WHEN U NEED SOME
TRAVEL TO THE MG

THIS THE SITUATION, THINK I NEEDA RE-UP
STILL BEEN ON THE SAME SHIT, I DONT FEAR THE REAPER
LIKE THE RAIN N THE WIND
THE DECAY ON UR SKIN 
THAT U REEK OF
NO EUREKA!
WHEN THE DAYS AT AN END
WE CAN STAY AT UR FRIENDS 
FOR A THREESOME
THINK I NEED ONE

I SAT ON THE BLEACHER
NOW I KICK MY FEET UP
TRYNA WATCH THE SUNSET 
OVER ISLAND EASTER
ASK ME IF I'M DONE YET
THIS THAT SHIT I DREAM OF
I AINT EVEN WANT FRIENDS
2K FOR A FEATURE

SHE ROCKED THAT LIL SUNDRESS
LAST TIME THAT WE LINKED UP
HARD FOR ME TO CONFESS
SHE'S ALL THAT I THINK OF
MY LIL MONA LISA..


idc

SKIN (prod. ThaFireman)

I'm reaching
Inside an abyss 
I see things
Wonder how did I miss?
I'm feening
for another high/fix
for another time its
like the summer time

One time another place
the sunlight covered your face
Im surprised you can love again

(I CANT FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT
B/C MY)

Mind games
All alone in your drive way 
I suppose its a fine day..
All for Rain and Sun
S9 Pain Killer
Time Gets taken up
my way
Its ok if you
find space
far away from you
sideways
hard for face to move
bars for facing 2
stars that paint the roof...

I'm reaching
Inside an abyss 
I see things
Wonder how did I miss?
I'm feening
for another high/fix
for another time its
like the summer time

One time another place
the sunlight covered your face
Im surprised you can love again

(I CANT FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT B/C MY HEART IS IN OHIO)

OHIO FOR LOVER (prod. Darkskyparadox)

Off a pill I grin
I keep flexing when she text me
ain't gon' kill my binge
why do hoes still hit my phone up like we're real life friends?
I get lost in my persona for the fields I'm in
if its sealed, I send
I been swimming to my limit, I cant feel my fins
Swear this shit is way too vivid and it killed my friends
and I wish it's for a gimmick but 2 pill I blend

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once

Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar
wasted cigar, can you wait for tomorrow?
I'm a tweaker
This a 3 day molly binge come thru ur speaker
She said that we're hardly friends
Didn't believe her
She said you're retarded if you think it's deeper
It gets deeper
I was nodding, told my mom I had a fever
I would stop but if I try I have a seizure 
Undecided, make my mind up before I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
for I leave earth
When I jump in 
I go feet first 
and I run shit
until my knees hurt
I'm on something
Feels like ether
hella substance 
pink as easter
all this suffering
what is it for?
is it something
I can ignore

With the roof gone
Can you see the sky too
from this super high view?
Finna lose sun
at 11/High Noon
You can see the night's moon
in the blue once
Always tracing the stars 
like the fabric of time isnt breaking apart
Ache in a heart
and the static in mine 
is a wasted cigar

Is it over 
said its never gonna get better till ur sober
yeah whatever, its forever on my shoulders
as the weather's getting better it gets colder
Peak 11's triple 7 gimme closure
I said I want this forever what I told her
Even though I know forever is a bold word
is a bold word

Lose myself inside of the moment
prove that hell's inside of me growing
chose myself is how I am going
Life into motion, try to stay golden now

HIGH NOON (prod. Nitrous)

GLITTER (prod. Telo)

Slid into my DM
Not much of a reader 
I aint even see it 
responded this year
link up on the weekend
said I'd never see her
Again I'm Defeated 
I let this shit get deeper
I guess it could be worse
Nothing Left to fear
Left me on my own now
thats how we got here

Can I not see your face
Every Place
That I'm standing
I have a look on my face
wonder if they understand it
too much on my brain
moment of pain 
another panic I 
look for a place to fantasize 
more or less I've analyzed 
UH
What did you do to my grey matter
my veins
isnt it dangerous
whatever's inside of my brain
Having insane conversation
Told you that I would change
never the same
never impatient 
Stand inside of my way
just my ways that I'm changing. 

If I cant tell my bestfriend
I cant tell nobody
Nights w/ you and mescaline
My vision was foggy
I think that it messed with 
your perception of me
if you have any questions 
just lay that shit on me

just lay that shit on me
I can see your depth
intercept when I'm falling
I tried to suppress my obsession regardless
Could serve as a lesson
next in the story

BESTFRIEND (Prod. Nitrous)

I listen to and upload SoundCloud trash :)

deep october 🖤🥀

227Kosho