Arrow Root - (Prod. by MF DOOM)

Shit Thats Not Safe 1

Hello. I won't use this as a plug for my social media, name and what not. I would like to use this to explain the song and to just write about my life at this very moment. I feel I don't have a sense of purpose and I don't really know what I'm doing in life. I want to direct all of that in here. I don't care how corny this is.

In the past months, i met this wonderful friend who I have had the pleasure to get to know. I honestly believe she is one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen, and I see her as a sister near and dear to my heart. She has given me honest advice that I have not received from anybody else in my life, and I find it really refreshing to be receiving her valid criticism. Even though she would rip on me and poke jabs that were at times pretty low, I knew her real intentions. They were pure, and so was mine. I wrote this about her. I know near the end, sexual references were made, however, it was not to say that was how I looked at her. There's always a thought lingering in everybody's head, about anything. You could be sitting in the park and see an old lady and think of situations that can occur(What if: she just starts to fly; she gets hit by a truck; you decide to mug her at that moment). I find that really interesting, the probability of ANYTHING happening. I know the probability is extremely slim between me and her, and my intentions are pure, but the thoughts will always surface.

As for my life. I find myself in a loop. I hate this feeling of doing all this work, whether its school, my job, and other things and not loving it. I use to have such high hopes for the future, but I feel as if all the hope slipped in between my fingers and fell through the cracks. I want to refresh that and begin a new journey of hope. I want to challenge myself to have consistency with work that I will love to do. I want to be a radiant of joy for my family and friends, and not be an outcast to them all. This is getting long and meandering. I know for the future I will have a topic and be more focused on it. I'll say this to myself and anybody who stumbles upon this, have a marvelous day, stay focused, and dont give up.

"Peep Dis" 3/18/18 by nobody Prod. Mt. Fujitive

Once again, I borrowed this beat from a far more talented musician. the link is right here:

spotify:track:44LCx7ZNEMB7acF9YQoi66
https://soundcloud.com/gnavis

This beat just made me want to just write about what I disliked about relationships, in particular, "friendships". I will admit first and foremost, that I am a selfish person, and that I have to work on that. I must work on being a better friend, brother, son, and overall human. Nobody will make you happy except yourself. Anyway, I wrote this song in a time when I was getting to know an acquaintance, and we were starting to become good friends. The only problem was that he seemed a bit attached. There was always plans to go out "BBW's?", "The Mall?", "Come to the Cafeteria!". I realized that because I spent so much time with him, and the gang (it was a big lot of people is a group, who unironically called themselves the gang) my grades began to negatively slope downward, and but I was able to catch it in time. That is a typical situation where people might say "Nobody, you are a fucking idiot", well, in that case, the critic is absolutely correct. But what really bugged me was the constant message from the friend. Every morning, day, and night. Always a good morning text. Now, I know good morning texts are cute and all, but not from a guy friend. I'm a guy, and when a man sends me a "Gd Morning *sun emoji*" I start to question this friendly relationship, as stupid as that sounds. Now, what may be so terrible about talking with a friend all day? When you finally see them face to face, you have nothing to talk about. It's always in reference to the messages, videos on Instagram, shit like that. It's annoying because there is no substance. It's all fluff. What is there to talk? Once I stopped talking to the man, I realized how much time I was wasting. Like a fucking relationship, wow oh wow, I'm such a fucking fool. 

TLDR; I'm a selfish ass nigga that wrote a song about how I hate talking to people

As for my life, if anybody cares, I can't say I'm hating, but I got exams coming up in two weeks, which is more than enough time to prepare. I live in my damn books, it's sad, but at the same time damn interesting. even though it is basic shit, I'm excited to keep going. I just want to say that even though certain goals seem so far away, I feel like the best way to make time progress is to set other goals in between, that way instead of trudging along that one long goal, you have many accomplishments that will make you happy, because, in the end, your happiness is all about you, as selfish as that sounds. 

Have a Great Week.

Not Safe

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