Where were you when I needed you the most? (Produced by yours truly)

where were you when i needed you the most
i miss your words now i write my pain in my notes

standing right next to you but i dont feel the connection
i think that i feel your depression
remember the heart you created
yeah when did it go
i know its still there, but it hasnt been showing of recent
think about that beautiful girl that was sad in the summer season

wonder sometimes if she made it
told her i wasnt gon make it
remember the first time i told her i loved her i told her "i would never fake this"
she said "you love the idea"
she said "even tho i love you, ima push you away and thats how it is"
thats exactly what she did (thats exactly what you did)
thats exactly what she did (thats exactly what you did)
thats exactly what she did

where were you when i needed you the most (where were you x6)

(instrumental break)

where were you when i needed you the most (where were you x6)
i miss your words now i write my pain in my notes (where were you x6)

where were you when i needed you the most.

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Happy Halloween!

Where were you?

2013 (SeanPotter597)

osei - battle scars 2 (prod rezlaine)

I’m walking @ the woods and I looked at the sky, everyday bro it’s a good day to get fucking high; I don’t wanna get to know you I’ll get left behind. Bro I’m tired of getting hurt I’m tired of being kind, yea these cuts they all remind me of the fucking past; I knew that when I got into it bro it wouldn’t last.

Huh huh, I love too much bitch I’m knowing that, no she can’t talk bout her feelings like my fucking dad. You tried to take over my life, bitch what is wrong with you? Used to cut myself so much, I was bullied at school.

“How could a happy man be so suicidal?” Feel like a shadow bro I can’t do nothing right tho, huh huh uh huh. You wanna see me in pain now, ow. Just know you’ll never find me elsewhere, when I had you I was handling you with care; bought some ketamine I’m getting high I don’t care. I’m a burden I’m so hopeless I got scars here, these are battle.. scars. I just gotta stop loving so hard.

I gotta cope bro, I gotta cope now. Rip to my bros yeah I miss you all now. I got silver on me, nigga ima rock out, if u try to play me bitch jus fucking walk out. Bitch just fucking walk out, you just got me tired now. From the fucking start bitch I knew how it would turn out. Cut my fucking body, all I see is red now. I’m just barely happy, I’m always upset wow.

Gotta stop being kind to people, I just don’t like opening myself up to people. I don’t wanna bother you with all my problems, I’d rather cut myself n move on while I’m still hurt; I’d rather cut myself n move on while I’m on drugs. This is the real me, bro do you hear that? Got self reflections cuz bro I need that. I’m so emotional one day I’ll meet death.

battle scars 2

battle scars 2 (prod rezlaine)

zo : 
my body detached of my brain 
i just lost anyway
i got pain in my system 
idont wnna wake up 
she stab me in my heart 
i'd rather be dead
ye i got things in my head
i just want you to stay 
but she keep runaway 
get hit by the train 
i know we burning the page 
i just try to escape and i hope its not to late 
for...me

nicky : 
you said u couldn’t breathe
I said I want u right here but u don’t wanna listen to me 

no i dont understand what else do u want from me right here baby right now
just being with you
just by being with you it changed my world for the better and the worst
u see it don’t ya 
u see it don’t ya
U see it don’t ya
from my perspective

Penumbra : 
What’s on your mind ?
I know you’re not feeling fine
Are you okay ? I’ll hold you
The same way you hold me
The same way you told me
“I’m here for you”
Am i still the same ?
How’d we get here ?
Making mistakes
Don’t leave my side
I need you here
I love your eyes
But stop looking at me
When you asked if I’m okay
Girl, I told you I’m okay
But you saw the lies on my arm

a little sad story for her w/ nicky & penumbra

@hakeon @pyu

(h)
just take the time
girl its just you and i
dont wanna see u cry
said u wanted 2 die
that hasnt left my mind
i hope u dont see me like this
like riku, consumed by darkness

hole in my chest where my heart is
i didnt know how to stop it
you know im trying my hardest
so why are you so heartless?
and now im back where i started
it wasnt working, so we parted
i get pushed to the side, discarded
life is a game and you can't restart it

(t)
life is a game & u cant restart
might as well go outside & see the stars
cause the clock keeps ticking time is running out
& we cant get it back 
no matter how much u try
no matter how much u cry
pls save ur tears so your eyes dont get dry
dont get said ye just look at the sky

ye last night i talked to u
ye u told me what uve been through
one more night ill stay for u
cause thats just what lovers do
just lay back & watch the view
ye this car is just for 2
ye nobody else 
ye just 2 just u & i

life is a game w hakeon prod meta

My clothes they turned red, like my heart. Kay, I wish I was dead life is hard. Either way I’ll still just fucking die like bro what’s the point? Smoking on that big sativa nigga u called it a joint, my cuts nigga r so fresh; I’m hiding my cuts w my jewelry either way I’m still so fucking fresh. 

I hope that you listen to this after I’m dead, don’t look at my face bro let me rest… I’m always walking w a smile while I’m unhappy inside, when I open my eyes in the morning I just start w a big sigh. That hoe’s a red flag nigga she was showing signs, was chasing on that bitch til I came across a stop sign. 

Wait, osei? It’s time to look at yourself. I’m tired of the games that she plays, that shits not good for my health. I cut myself and it’s insane, I’m tryna die nigga oh well; went vertical this time, there’s blood on the floor oh well. 

Dunno if I’m going to heaven, dunno if I’m going to hell. I have to get my emotions out nigga when I record I fucking yell, I went to therapy bro a few times that shit did not mfing help. Sniffed on that ketamine bro by myself, I hate being sober like hell. When will this stop? Mixed opioids w ketamine I wanna die. 

I often ask myself, what am I doing here? Don’t like seeing the man that I see in the mirror. I’m tired of proving myself that I’m good enough, maybe they’re right; maybe I’m not good enough. Got my heart on my sleeve I always gotta smile, even in my worst days bro I just gotta smile. 

Need a girl that looks at me like Michonne does to Rick, remember all the times I was looking at the pics. Oh too bad all that shit was a lie, when I’m at school my wrist is something I hide.

one day, i'll be gone forever.

one day, i'll be gone forever. (prod yungdni)

1, 6 : @jannahsent
7: @dimpleb, @richestofearth


ig: @glimpseofdespair

april #trashmusic#HHEARTSIKK

I'm still waiting for you in murder house if you care...
Track 2: I could've eased your pain if you'd let me @kingtheta
Lyrics:
 I cant tell you how I am 

I cant tell what's the cost

cause you'll hate me for what it was

cause you'll hate me for what its done

In my shadows of my regret 

I know this guilt it weighs a ton

I know I'll never feel the sun

but your the lighting of my day 

In these shadows where I run 

jus know your presence lights the way

and I tripped up on my past

I slowly realized that 

I'm falling 

I'm falling

and you keep on calling

cuz your eyeliner will smudge

and jet black tears keep on falling

Because I cant be the monster 

In your dreams that only haunts you

I'm lost in the shadows 

Is where my fear only taunt you

she likes to drugs 

baby know I need you 

baby know I want you

baby know I bleed to

know you see these cuts too

you didn't ask how I was

your absence hurts like a drug

I swear I cant get enough

I'm in the void you left behind 

I miss your lingering touch

And girl I miss you so much

and bitch I miss you so much

you were my crutch 

you were my crutch 

we weathered storms

an anchor my clutch 

Instead reroute It 

we don't gotta talk about it

I'll face this wood I'm clouded

now my emotions shrouded

Because I cant be the monster 

In your dreams that only haunts you

I'm lost in the shadows 

Is where my fear only taunt you

she likes to drugs 

baby know I need you 

baby know I want you

baby know I bleed to

know you see these cuts too

my diary I cry to :{

p.s me and nicky still have mommy issues know a good therapist ?

please don't go I cant spend an eternity without you (Dimple)

In Another Life

secrets w/ slidetomycrib (yungdni)

favs from may and june <3 sry to those i couldnt fit in title @prodbillion , @prod_promise , @shyne2400 , @zzdox , @yuikase

[0:00] @dollfacexxx
[0:43] @votek
[1:28] @rexiroh
[2:30] solo
[3:11] solo
[3:33] @richestofearth
[4:02] solo
[4:31] @prodjayysoul @etoxv
[5:01] @prodbillion
[5:30] @bazington @1rokit
[6:15] @8clockwork
[6:45] @sennaidesu @1mint
[7:12] @1mint
[7:38] @yashio20k
[8:08] @zzdox
[8:33] @prod_promise
[8:52] @shyne2400
[9:34] @yuikase

a little sad story for her w/ nicky & penumbra

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