Prod. melone 

Lyrics🔻

I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my grief
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams

I’m done holding back
What’s my whole life worth
Can’t live in the past
I’m done kicking dirt
Though my lungs are black
Have a lot to learn
Dreams will everlast
So I’m holding on

Holding on to life
Cause that’s all we have
But those evil eyes
That consume my fear
Is of no surprise 
That they’re always near
But I’m on the rise
There’s no going back

Still on a bender from five years ago
When my life fell apart demons creeping up close
God please take this addiction it’s eating my soul
You don’t know shit about me I’ve been through a low
That took all that I knew flipped it right upside down
So I’m searching for truth had to leave my old town
Now I’ve slowly been learning my shackles aren’t bound
All my thoughts have been easing I’ll stay on the ground know that

I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my greed
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams

My conscience ain’t cautious
To let me breathe no room
When I’m conscious to process
The way I feel consumed
By my darkness I’m left with
Just me my thoughts of doom
I feel boxed in act shameless
To cover up my wounds

Leave me lone
Read the news I dropped my phone
That your gone
Raw emotion filled my veins
All year long
Hide the feelings still unshown
No please don’t 
You can’t save me guilt remains

I wanna change and I know who to be
A man with his bearings but that shit ain’t me
Five years ago I lost all of my peace
Still fucking lost tell me what’s all this mean
Living unrighteous what happened too me
Saw so much violence when I was a teen 
It’s all my fault I fell fault too my greed
Finding myself’s hidden deep in my dreams (So I’m holding on)

Everlast

Prod. THERSX

Lyrics🔻

Fighting with dad
He says that I’m going crazy
But you misunderstand 
And you can always blame me
But this is not the man
That I’ll be when I turn eighty
No one understands 
It’s the drugs so please don’t hate me

Lonely nights got me fed up
With my life feel the venom
In the knife pushing deeper
Through my spine but it get better
As they say I wrote this letter
Just to say that I regret it everyday
And I’ll do better I’m just saying

There’s more to life than feeling numb
Or getting high or toting guns 
Or toxic fights or a tab on tongue
Or shooting dice or to always run
And no I’m not the man you wanted 
Me to be my dreams are haunted Memories of me in darkness 
I concede in fear I’m

Heartless I don’t want this don’t go
                                        (X2)

Dear dad I’m sorry I love you believe
That things are in order I hate when you grieve
But all things aside I’ve been turning the leaf
I’ve been using your lessons to listen preceive
And dear mom I’m sorry I’ll answer you calls
I know you get lonely and worry bout Ma
You worry bout me if I’m having withdrawals
But I swear that I’m clean and I’m making a change

Fighting with dad
He says that I’m going crazy
But you misunderstand 
And you can always blame me
But this is not the man
That I’ll be when I turn eighty
No one understands 
It’s the drugs so please don’t hate me

The Turning Leaf

Prod. THERSX

Lyrics🔻

(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories 

(I said) this ain’t it
No this can’t be it
I’m a go off grid
I’m a sell my soul 
Wait maybe not that
But you catch my drift 
Thought maybe I’ll rap
That’ll get me through this

I don’t care for speculation call me broken
My brokenness is an ocean
Emotionless never open
I’m motionless from this potion
No soulfulness in my motion
I’m motiveless in my notions
It’s bottomless with corrosion I’m

Young and broke with a big old heart
Ever since that day I just fall apart 
Act like I’m okay but inside I’m scarred
But I persevere cause I can’t restart

I know it’s hard let me be there for you
I know this year I could see skies bright blue

(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories 

(Yeah) I need substance I’m a nuisance 
Don’t got two sense got like two cents
I feel distant from my loved ones
Always roll one I’m insistent
On my own fun but it ain’t fun
Coexistent with my demons
I feel so numb God I’m so done
Reminiscent on the lost ones

Now I feel like a burden
And nothing really feels worth it
I know I’m lost that’s for certain
I feel like nobody sees me
I’m getting lost in this bourbon
I need somebody to hear me
I don’t want you to feel sorry
Oh God you know that I’m sorry

Oh God you know that I’m sorry
                                               (X4)

(We all) go through loss painful thoughts dwell on what you told me
You said this world is mine to make youngblood it’s time you show me
These midnight talks endless walks miss when you would scold me
Then doubt unfurled I always break cause I know these are memories

Youngblood

Prod. neverforever

Lyrics 🔻

I wanna rage
Deep up inside I’ve been holding shit in
That I know isn’t right
Stuck in this cage
Just wanna smoke while I’m thinking bout you but I don’t wanna fight
Nothing feels right
Can’t turn page cause I feel fucking worthless get lost in the night
Tossing and turning my heart has been burning for light but its dark damn my future ain’t bright aye

Longing for love while I think bout the past
I just wanna make up I don’t wanna look back
I’ve been thinking bout us and the future we have
Baby I’m on the cusp of a future that’s bleak

Call me a freak
Call me a nobody I’m on the brink
Of loosing my sanity it’s hard to think
Aye call me a creep or
Call me a cab 
I’ve had a drink
Taking a dab 
Out on the street
Taking a tab
Vision is weak
I’m always mad
Not you at me look

I’m a lost cause
With a lost soul
It’s been five years
Since that death note
That I wrote down
But I’m still here
Despite what that pen wrote
I can see clear

I wanna rage
Deep up inside I’ve been holding shit in
That I know isn’t right
Stuck in this cage
Just wanna smoke while I’m thinking bout you but I don’t wanna fight
Nothing feels right
Can’t turn page cause I feel fucking worthless get lost in the night
Tossing and turning my heart has been burning for light but its dark damn my future ain’t bright aye

Let it go don’t dwell upon the things you
Cannot change life will never let that slide I
Have to live cause I only get one chance I’m
I’m a fool cause I fucked it up again damn

Tell me you love me
Cause I’m feeling nothing
I lied there’s something 
In there but beware
Cause it’s dark treat with care
I feel like we compare
But that’s me over share
I feel like you weren’t there

I wanna rage
Deep up inside I’ve been holding shit in
That I know isn’t right
Stuck in this cage
Just wanna smoke while I’m thinking bout you but I don’t wanna fight
Nothing feels right
Can’t turn page cause I feel fucking worthless get lost in the night
Tossing and turning my heart has been burning for light but its dark damn my future ain’t bright

RAGE

prod. melone

Lyrics 🔻

Long nights cold thoughts 
Uptight I’ve lost
My mind it haunts
My life

It’s a cold world 
Living life with no regrets
I should go home
Endless drinks and cigarettes
Fuck what you heard
I’m just sad and filled with stress
When I’m all grown
It better be worth it

I’m a burden pouring bourbon 
Born suburban dream desertion
God I’m hurting no discernment
Through the curtain you may find me
In a reoccurring disarray 
I try to change and fix my ways
But nothing works so I’ll just say that I’ve been and try tomorrow

And act okay that ain’t okay
I’m so ashamed of who I am
Just stay away and let me ponder
I’m afraid of things back yonder

Aye I don’t give a damn I’m lit
I won’t go out like no bitch
Fuck addiction got that itch
I’ve been down the dark abyss
So don’t tell me that you know me
I don’t know myself 
When did life start to get lonely

I don’t know who I am
Damn I’m just half a man
Please just reach out your hand
And just tell me you love me
I don’t understand how this life got so ugly
Just say you’ll pray for me

I don’t trust no one
And that’s a problem
I feel so insecure
That’s a problem
Please don’t leave me alone
That’s a problem
Sometimes I don’t feel a thing
That’s a problem

I’m a thrasher in need of some answers 
Had some stature but none of that matters
Had some standards burnt up in disaster
I’m a kid broken down fuck your slander

Long nights cold thoughts 
Uptight I’ve lost
My mind it haunts
My life

Thrasher

Prod. sk8miles

Lyrics 🔻

I want solitude
Laying in my room
I don’t know what I should do
I’ve been hearing voices
They tell me things untrue
I’ve been making choices
That all effect my mood
My heart is torn to pieces
I’m feeling so confused

Take me to my hide away
Live to see another day
Tell myself that I’m okay
Turn myself to God and pray

I don’t really got much to say
I’m a sinner and I’ve lost my way
Now I see the truth it’s clear as day

Save me your light
Guides me through life
Your Christ I’m just a fool
Through the flames lead me home
All my shame I’m letting go

I want solitude
Laying in my room
I don’t know what I should do
I’ve been hearing voices
They tell me things untrue
I’ve been making choices
That all effect my mood
My heart is torn to pieces
I’m feeling so confused

               (🎵🎵)

Don’t let me go back 
Take me to my hide away
Take me to my hide away
Take me to the take me to the
Take me far from here
Take me to my hide away
Take me to my hide away
Take me to the hideaway

I want solitude
Laying in my room
I don’t know what I should do
I’ve been hearing voices
They tell me things untrue
I’ve been making choices
That all effect my mood
My heart is torn to pieces
I’m feeling so confused

Hide Away w/ Ryan

Prod. South Harbor Music

Feat. HKFiftyOne

Lyrics 🔻 

I’m always agitated 
Watch me lose myself
I exacerbated 
All my cries for help
Cause I’m always wasted
Got my drink on the shelf
It’s so complicated
I feel overwhelmed

My heads in the clouds
Im leaving this town
If I stick around 
I think I might lose it
I’ve been diluted
I get stupid
I’m a nuisance but

I think I might change tonight
Cause I don’t want to fall
And I’ve seen it all
My ego stands tall
I’ll answer your calls
Cause I wanna change for life

I’m tryna focus on the smaller things
Like moments I’m without a drink
It’s lonely when you start to think
About the things that could’ve been
It’s gone before there’s time to blink
I close my eyes and count to ten
And hope that I can catch some sleep

But I ain’t going nowhere 
And I know it’s all my fault
I’ve been gone for five years
I found home but I’m 

I’m always agitated 
Watch me lose myself
I exacerbated 
All my cries for help
Cause I’m always wasted
Got my drink on the shelf
It’s so complicated
I feel overwhelmed

ava

august dream

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