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literally a lieu clone song
p. tornno + michael warren + dercept

all i wanna do is bleed
you aint part of my team
you never cared in the first place
cant understand what you mean
she like the suburbs 
no no i dont wanna b your luver
hide it under the covers
i cant understand what you what
move on, i cnt do dis no moreee
too long w/ your shoes on the floorrr
yea im still stuck in my habits :/
i cannot lose you i panic
no i cnt folddd
i want you to knooo
(i trieeddd)
yea you want me ded i kno it
n i luv you cannot show it
i dont have a choice
cant think when i hear ur voice
like why r u in my area
i got weight i cant carry em
if you waant it then i have it
no i dont have a choice
and i try my best
its no use you h8 me
waiting for someone to save me
and i cnt do it right
everytime i jus go hide, i fail to try
drugs inside my system
ima die tonite cuz i
lost ur wrds of wisdom
ion wanna
why can i not feel anymore???
angry bout sum things from b4

i dont have a choice

p. gchromes
the mix is so bad on this idc

wake up
no no no i cannot stay up
i got 2 much on my mindd
its not my fault they h8 us
and you smking all tht crack
till you pass out in tht basement 
n youve nvr seen this side of me
yea i fking hate it

jus wanna feel again
all this anger up inside of me
ive lost my friends
i cant call u back
yea i know u fkin mad
thinkin things we culdve had
(i can tryyyy)
man this turnin in my stomach
i cant sleep yea i cant focus
and you want me dead (i know it)
and you hate me i hate u
i luv u im fake 2
im hurtin im beat up
trust me (im) not the right man
sweep you up in dust pans
end my fkin lifespan

you tell me i aint shit
no i got used to it
beat down like a punching bag
fck this life man its a wrap
i cant even standddd
gotta bag man i blew it
man im fckin stupid
you make me feel useless
and now im "acting brand new"
like make ur mind up
you keep doin lines bruh
i cnt do this life stuff
too fst yea press on the break
yea i lose either way
youve made 2 many mistakes

ilosteverything

this is to you <3
@mental
@176s
art by oddy

[blxty]
i don't think that i've been alright
lately it's felt like i'm underwater
and when that ask say that i'm fine
really i am not okay
okay okay okay okay
forget how i feel
it doesn't even matter
it feels like lately i've been falling in these patterns
when i'm with you my brain is scattered 
feels like i'm moving backwards ugh
it's like i'll never meet your standards

i wanna figure you out
i wanna see why you frown
you know i wonder why it's you,
that my world spins around <3
there's something missing.. 
it's my heart,, and you have stole it
i'm falling into your arms
i swear it's all just a dream
pls pinch me
it's not real
it's so fake
i can't take this anymore
i swear that i'm just a bore
to you.

[mental]
i take a breath i cant feel
my lungs
im falling head over heels
for your love
i know that youre better than me
give it up
ill be whatever you want
this feels like more than a crush

ive never felt the way that i feel right now
ive never been so shy when somebodys around
ive never felt like i was bound by fate
but when i first saw ur face
it was already too late
for me

[blxty]
to me i'm screwed
i've seen the truth
see right thru you
i'd lie for you
i'd cry for you
i'd die for you
i swear i would lose it all for you
girl this is to you
da-da-da-da

[blxty & mental]
blxty: hey mental i have been horrible!!
mental: hey blxty why are you horrible?!
blxty: i put it all onto myself and it's WAY too hard!!
mental: i think you should rest a little more ):
blxty: i can't take this anymore X.X
mental: dont forget what you're fighting for
blxty: i can't.. i can't.. i just can't do it!!
mental: i think you can do it i believe in u<3
blxty: i think i can do it i believe in me (x4)
oddyssi:

to you ft. mental (sense)

i want to put this in minecraft @mojang hey

jaydes - bedroom

momma did me dirty
why would i upset you
tell me why would i try
tell me why would i lie
could you open your eyes
you fuck up my mind and i take it
i cannot find the words to say this
ive been alone for so damn long
and you never noticed
fuck it im goin

upset you

cover of upside down by kurtains
@kurtains

@1spoder - main

upside down

no one is listening i,
no one is listening i,
no one is listening i,
no one is listening 

and i try, to make the best out of the situation
where it lies
im in a rough patch oh
and you're not making it better
its coming up on september
im just a bug in a shed, you think im better off dead

cause i try so hard, but it never work
cause i try so hard, but it's all reverse
i can't do it, im way too foolish

sometimes i smash my head right on the floor
everything dies in what i adore
my vision blurry, i cant see the door
what am i doing it- what am i doing it for

fck that, im done
i dont get any amusement
off the drgs and i think ima lose it
you got me feeling real stupid..
and i wonder
why am i so close to goin in under?
mistakes n mistakes man im making these blunders
im jus gon do this shit all 4 my mother
dont feel like singing so ima jus slumber

image

@prodbyjoshwa

said ur coming back but i won't lie
u dont wna act try to fool me twice
heart trapped in the moment
i see it untapped looking in ur eyes

cuz u dont wna fall
on and off baby
slow
breaking my own heart lately
it's hard for me to breathe im
comparing endlessly

fucked up the memory
know what u said to me
wasting all my time
cant afford to let u see
take all thts mine </3

endlessly (joshwa)

produced by ry @rywrrd
cover of wait for me by lei
@lei

wait for me

i'm scared
i'm scared
i'm scared
oh i'm scared
you left me in the dark and now i'm lost
i thought you were the answer, i was wrong
cause everytime i see you my heart grows numb
it's not fair that i can't feel your fucking love
it's a shame cause you're gone in a couple months
wish i could say that the news really fucked me up
but i'm sat here with my hands in pockets
i don't know where i lost it
i don't like thinking cause my thinking makes me nauseous
so i'm sorry
i'm sorry

sorry

prod me and @vvvincenttt
inspired by spies

friends

trustme/trustyou
@mental
@1yugenn
@maknae

[b]
like do u want me cus i think that i want you
is this what ur feeling girl is this what ur fond to
[m]
trust me like i trust u when i say i love you
ur who i hold onto if u got me then i got u
[b]
and when i hold on i feel better
you wear my sweater i write love letters
[m]
is this forever or not
i dont know
think about whats wrong
every night when i go home
[b]
and you tell me i should go
i never thought it'd be this way
standing in the snow
i never thought i'd see this day
[m]
remember when u told me that everything would be ok?
i never thought that u would lie to my face
[b]
Mihara Yasuhiro, my shoes got like 5 zeros
no girl im not ur hero i have to tell myself
[m]
i gotta tell my side
but its hopeless im stuck
always falling in love
pointless getting up 

[mio]
okay,, that should do it then ^_^
[azunya]
oh, great!

snow ft. mental (yugen, mental, 막내)

prod me and ello i played the guitar :D
huge shoutout to all my friends/fans who made this year the best

a new start

@1spoder
baby,
you've been tryna find a way to save me
but everytime that you look it drive me crazy
fucking with my mind on the daily
oh hate me
go oooh-woa
you keep me on my toes and baby
go oooh-woa
i don't get why you go and blame me

@jayya1k
it gets kinda lonely baby 
when i’m without your love 
and i keep fucking up 
but don’t pretend like you’re innocent 
you’re toxic i’m into it 
and i don’t like to stand out but i’m tired of fitting in
lie to me don’t tell the truth
say that i’m all you need and more 
i can promise you 
i won’t be anyone but yours 
so don’t you pick up when he calls
drive me crazy off the walls
but i want you 
i want you

hypocrite w/ spoder (prod. noden)

october floor with spies

production by me

you're treating me like a criminal
i, needed rest i need some signal
i've, been running but im done for
gotta target on my back and a lot more
i've, been trying so damn hard
but i lost my cell (myself)
i can't play the part no more
feels like im stuck in a hearse
i can't feel my worth
i was feeling numb for so long

hide how you're doing 
its all alright
gotta blank smile staring at me staring at you
it was never even there
gotta break off
it was never even fair
gotta shake off
so no matter the situation
i guess i'll be stuck on waiting
so no matter the situation
i guess i'll be stuck on waiting

criminal

wanted

put my jacket on
hiding in the rain
been a few hours man
remind me of the pain
these pills don’t work baby
look at the state i’m in
lights out eyes closed
i hate myself, it’s perfect timing

all my tears dry up
my mouth don’t make a sound
yuh
my mind goes round and round
the only way i’m going’s down
tears dry up (huh!)
my mouth don’t make a sound
nobody likes me in this town
in these bottles may i drown

@1spoder
uh yea one two (what?)
you've been on my back tryna ruin my mood
it's so confusing how you move
man i can't do this, beat and bruised
(evil laughter)
(fuck)
there's nothing left for me here
i can promise you, it was never fair
i'm so done with you fucking up my mental
i'm with sean best believe that we ain't gentle

@seannnfranco
and she said her name was (oooh ohh)
uhhh well i forget now
started with a tssss
made a s sound
she'll just follow me around until i get out
picture perfect i want it to be the best nowww
when im steppin out they say its calm still
if she like it then its cool but it was not real
mood calm cause im smoking out the bedroom
we were so young i just wish that i could get youuuu oh

my verse ew:
they tryna pull up on me
pretend like they care
all i hear is stories, anecdotes
so fucking self aware
and i’m boxed up locked up
these walls keep closing in
all i gotta do is say no
and they’re all the fucking same?

but this bridge tho!>!>!
and they’re all the fucking same!
yeah they so fucking lame
so over all their bullshit
anything they’d do for fame
keep my head down
i know i’m a selfish man (get it? get it? cos omg headphones reference)
keep my head down
(keep my head downnnn!!!)

put my jacket on
hiding in the rain
been a few hours
remind me of the pain
these pills don’t work baby
look at the state i’m in
lights out eyes closed
i hate myself, it’s perfect timing

all my tears dry up
my mouth don’t make a sound
yuh
my mind goes round and round
the only way i’m going's down
tears dry up (huh!)
my mouth don’t make a sound
nobody likes me in this town
in these bottles may i drown

circles

circles, +spoder, sean franco

@saiwai
@1spoder
@rywrrd
@redhxrse

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i cant drown
if you got me then i got you there's no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

@rywrrd:
we just walked in
yea pulled up to the party and we sparkin
i got no options
i told that bitch i'm pullin up but that is not it
bitch i'm posted up w roah and spoder
when i'm down feel like sosa cuz i hate bein sober
fucked it up when we talked like over and over 
bet u wanna talk now cause i skrt in tha rover
got me fucked up 
tried to hmu last week
but idgaf i'm not ur bestie
left me
in the dirt like last year
but idgaf cause this is my year!

@redhxrse:
ooh
yea i'm going thru the works
can’t believe it's getting worse
when i'm with u it's like a curse
ooh
problems that u need to fix
and u keep venting about shit
like i'm a fucking therapist
all them fucking parties where i'm standing in the corner
minding my own business but u couldn't be more forward
yuh this broken man is tryna give out all these hints
but u give no shits with u there ain't no subtlety
subtlety subtlety like look at all these bands on me
money ain't a problem when ur clinginess is all i see
put another k on the dash but ur still here
try n make it make sense cos i don't want u anywhere near

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i can't drown
if you got me then i got you theres no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

fight

love you all

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