s a d

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

iTunes

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

@lilhappylilsad

Art by: @neversince

Lyrics:

ye i love you, and i want u to smile
get the drugs boo, ye lets smoke and get high
drippin blood tho, i got death on my mind
got this urge hoe, wanna cut till die

and i dont want to, but i fuck it all up
i feel so damn low, cant control it at times
and it hurts you, i dont want u to cry
cause i love u, and i want u to smile

lil happy lil sad - smile (prod. nciku)

*lyrics*

Now im in my head ima let you down 
and you're the only one i care about
when im driving all alone back from your house
ima ghost on the wall but i dont make a sound
i feel it in my bones you're begging me 
to stay another night but this is killing me
leaving ash on the floor will you remember me
when you've moved on and I've moved to another city

all these fights set aside i still need you here
said youd be by my side im still waiting here
all this weed in my pipe burns into the air
it was lie after lie thought this was our year
smokey nights in july all my pants are seered
i still hear all your words whispered to my ears
all the love in my soul was replaced with fear
hands are wet from holding on i think my time is near

All these burns on my lips i cant help but show
always knew i had have these problems with letting go
my feet crunch on the ground as they touch the snow
always knew id have some problems with being alone

remember me ft. 9TAILS (prod. jewfy)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

SHYLER - Screaming Inside (prod. Greaf)

beat prod. by Vessels & TMK Beats
guccihighwaters: https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters

______________________________________

I can't feel my face, think I've gone insane
I can't see the light since it always rains
I've been falling down, falling down baby
Gotta save me from this ghost town baby
I know you hate that I'm not sober
Take a shot to the face, I'm a soldier
If she gets closer I might just have to ghost her
If anything happens got my gun in the holster

I'm still alive. I haven't died
I'll be alright. Yeah, I'll be fine
'Cause I'm a soldier
Gucci already told yuh
Yeah, I'ma ghost her
Leave her with no closure

She don't love me no more
That's why my heart's gone cold
I might send her, in the mail, suicidal notes (yeah)
Try to drown my sorrow
Take another pill and I'll faze out 'till tomorrow

New day, new mistakes to be made
New day, new people to betray
New day, new horrors to be tamed
New day, just send me to the grave

I don't want to try, but they tell me that I'll be fine
I'ma drink away my life. Staying up until the sunrise
Popping shit I don't know the name of
Makes me feel all bubbly 'cause I'm empty on the inside

I can't feel my face, think I've gone insane
I can't see the light since it always rains
I've been falling down, falling down baby
Gotta save me from this ghost town baby
I know you hate that I'm not sober
Take a shot to the face, I'm a soldier
If she gets closer I might just have to ghost her
If anything happens got my gun in the holster

Spotify <3

i'm not sober w/ guccihighwaters (prod. Vessels & TMK Beats)

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

prod. by @notmorgn

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide
please show me
you don’t have to

december in this town
coast breeze so i law low
she can have all of me
whenever she say so
make out more like heart attack
i’m a victim to my cardiac
the bass shake the speaker
like its under pressure
i don’t care if i peak
i just hate compressors
im a loverboy
i can never disguise
i can’t really go
i don’t know how to die

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

im a loverboy
im a loverboy

dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by your halo
panic alone im fearful of failure

rooftop just
lookin at the stars
hold my hand
we can drive in my car
2AM
and im playin guitar
on the real
don’t wanna see us apart
i love my friends
but some wanna die
im just tryna help
them stay alive

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

loverboy

МЕРТВЫЙ

ft. @scummusic
prod. @sorrow_bringer

all my money go to smokin
all these hoes is just provokin
i just wanna live my life
without feelin like im broken
always tryna do whats right
even if its wrong for me
im not tryna pick a fight
i just wanna smoke my weed

rest in peace
from the east
in my dreams
where the passion leaves
i pull up wit a heavy heart
you knew this from the start
let it out in my art
imma cry in the dark
baby girl you think im worth it
but i know im fuckin worthless

you think im worth it
i know im fuckin worthless, aye
yeah baby, work it
you always knew i loved to play
the problems surface
unless you really wanna stay
but whats the purpose
if youre leaving anyway?

yeah, and i'm feeling lost and broken 
and i'm hoping that you'll hold me when i'm lying the cold floor 
and i know you need me now but just leave me on the ground 
i don't wanna talk about the things i did
i know i fucked up
i  know i did 
but i don't wanna be who i was back then
i'm trying to be a better me 
i'm trying

broken (ft. scum) [prod. sorrow bringer]

prod. reaper https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
gucci https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters
iof https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

My Place (feat. guccihighwaters) [prod. reaper]

prod. @notmorgn

i hate the pressure i reside on my own
can’t find the feeling that i found when i was home
quiet wolf in the pack now
i don’t feel good bout fading to the background
i shoulda planned it from the start
now everything is fucked
and we all just tore apart

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

i love the pain when you
break my heart
i love to spend my days
in the dark
dusting
i’m like nothing now
all because they think
i’m “something” now
still the same
i can never change
and you know that
i’ve gone insane
i have dreams of a toe tag

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

run from me

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

filling up the space

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJ8S70OsKMQ
Produced by Hi-Fire(@dunnadidit x @okayconch)
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/73nye2Om0b1uTovcfKZ1N7?si=FS-qJcdbQf-sXgdeiQZjPA

Lyrics:
Been a minute since you hit my line
Been a minute since I saw your face
Been a minute since I faked this smile
Lost love shit don't feel the same
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Hit my phone I don't know if I should pick it up
You just wanna bring me down I just wanna live it up
X2

I can't sleep yeah
Ain't been counting sheep yeah
Rollin deep yeah
Riding down the street yeah
Dark nights got me staying up late
I can't help thinking bout my fate
I'm just hoping that somebody can relate yeah
Cause we all got some problems up on our plate yeah
Some days I ain't feeling great
Blue skies turning oh so grey
I shine bright even if its never nice out
Black fit u can't see me when the lights out
Dark shades I'm just living for the right now
I got too much drama in my life now
Lately I been on the road
Lately I been in a zone
Wrist froze had to get it on my own
Where I'm going I don't ever really know but it's

Been a minute since you hit my line
Been a minute since I saw your face
Been a minute since I faked this smile
Lost love shit don't feel the same
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Hit my phone I don't know if I should pick it up
You just wanna bring me down I just wanna live it up
X2

Young colt why you tripping over nothing?
You got future vision they gone see you stuntin'
Grew up too fast hit the gas do the dash
I remember when I told 'em that id be something
Took some time but I'm really getting mine now
Now they wishing for tickets or stand in line now
Got some secrets you won't ever wanna find out
All I really needs a little peace of mind now
I'm just hoping that somebody feel my pain yeah
I'm so sick of these lonely nights in the rain yeah
I'm so sick of these mornings that feel the same
I been mourning for some months flip the chapter flip the page yeah
Lately I been on the road
Lately I been in a zone
Wrist froze had to get it on my own
Where I'm going I don't ever really know but it's

Been a minute since you hit my line
Been a minute since I saw your face
Been a minute since I faked this smile
Lost love shit don't feel the same
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Leave me lone leave me lone leave me lone yeah
Hit my phone I don't know if I should pick it up
You just wanna bring me down I just wanna live it up
X2

Music Video

Minute (prod. Hi-Fire) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Spotify

SAFE STAR (prod. DELIVERTHECRUSH) out on spotify

watch it all fall down (prod. yunnygoldz)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

s a d

BAJJ