Seems like everything I make has some darkness to it. However, you'll also find a bit of playfulness here. The title of the EP gives away a lot. I have associations with different people and/or groups of people that are not linked to each other - as far as I know. To add to that, my own life, thoughts, memories, and feelings sometimes seem like fragmented pieces from a whole that broke some time ago. 

Jazka: I had plans to extract audio from videos I still have on my instagram of of my ex-wife, Jazka, but I am not able to reach out to her and ask for her permission, which for all I know she would deny. I'm not entirely sure why I named the first track after her. Reflecting on our time together and present circumstances puts through me through different states of mind and emotion that maybe i felt that track captured pretty well in some sense.

harp memory: Harp Memory has some feedback and very bad recording quality and speaks of the inability to forget certain things. My voice at the end of it says, "ahh, so that they could never forget." And, I manipulate and repeat parts of that sample

basic memories: Basic Memories I suppose is kind of funny given the dialogue at the end. After naming the track I had thought about changing its name to Bae Sick Memories.

easy: Easy I think is very good because of all the "not so loud" textures throughout it. It turned out to be kind of hypnotic with some abrupt stops.
i will not: I don't know what's up with I Will Not, but i have the lyrics for it written in a file on my desktop.

a necessary goodbye: And lastly, A Necessary Goodbye is kind of a satirical title. To me it seems mathematical and playfully robotic, however as it approaches its end there is a sort of hesitation and a fear of saying goodbye expressed by the flute note and string swells.

if I'm not mistaken, I had intended this EP to be 6 tracks from the very beginning. 

It's ok if you listen to it and don't like it, I did not make it for you. I made it for myself, and it's an important extension of who I am. However I left it here in case anyone is curious. I'm quite fond of all the three EPs I have made so far.

Jazka

Well, again 6 tracks. As I've already told some, i feel like I decided to take a lot of liberty with the composition process of this EP. Having already made 5 diverse EPs and accomplished completing tracks I am very proud of, I figured with Tears From Gaius I could do whatever I wanted.

The idea came to mind when remembering how sometimes while driving, and perhaps other times too, I cry a little as I grieve for the death of the life I used to have. So considering that, I had decided that I needed to be honest with Tears From Gaius. Track 2, abstraction of consequences may upset some listeners, in fact all of the tracks may upset some listeners or even possibly the majority of listeners - matters not! Tears From Gaius was made for me; a sentiment that if you've been following me, then you know I've uttered it before.

Though, I must be honest, part of the composition process was just going into it blindly and seeing where the concept of this EP would take me in the composition process, as I composed with the theme of crying - as stated by the title - in my mind.

And lastly, I can hardly imagine this EP fitting very many states of  mind/mood.  Enjoying it not only requires peculiar states of mind, but also patience, faith, and a belief that I am an exceptional musician who creates honestly and from the heart, and who composes flawlessly, despite the difficulties associated with the composition process.

I've enjoyed Tear From Gaius tremendeously, and if you don't, lol, sorry about ya.

From the heart.
_ Luciano

PS: all these EPs have extra album art in their respective folders on my desktop. I wish there was a away to share the rest of the album art, instead of just being able to share the cover.

Sonnet To Science

Bends

Abstraction Of Consequences

Walls

Notes on Evol Waters:

Perhaps there was a feeling of my emotions becoming liquid - growing in volume and experiencing different types of movements - that bled into this EP. I think i did well. And am especially pleased with the second part of it attentively experienced after attentively experiencing the first half. The title is a play on evil and evolve, obviously.

Floods (Mirror 5) lyrics:

Funny
As if it wasn't bad enough
That with the utmost certainty - it seems -
The words that came from her mouth
Painted the picture of a town bike

I wonder if the story 
holds details I have imagined
Obscured in secrecy and deception

I can be assured that
I pose the problem 
As much as I am sure I'm writing
When neither of the previous two statements are true

Is their suicide too much to ask for?
I'm not pleased by sacrifices from the past
After such a turn of events

Water Accumulating lyrics:

I can think of all these names
And I can be framed in their spelling

And I'm kind of wondering
What the wait is for

Are you going to surprise me 
With a grandiose revelation

Well of course I expected better treatment
This bread isn't even good

Yet I never help anybody, right?
So why would I get to dine at the high table?

The high table
Definitely another thing I really really cared about
Not?
Except that I did
But who took my seat from me?

I do hope you've already learned the lesson on exclusion
I do hope
That maybe
Just maybe
You tasted the belly aches I've had

Because someone has never known a day without food
Because someone so sweet has never looked so rude
Because I complain so much for so little
Because, well, because you just felt like it
Because to me, apparently nothing is due

Hey, thanks so much for the gift
I tore my hand open trying to open it
I do wonder if you designed it to do so
Must have been you
Gift makers don't make these types of gifts

And my favorite thing inside the threatening, hazardous box
Cloaked in the stench of your imperfections
And my words like little needles poking your skin
Being turned and used against me

I guess I was so out line
I had to bow my head
Like a dog
Just to dine

I do wonder if my patience will pay off
I do wonder if you will never feel the breaking apart
I do wonder
If you've ever felt the breaking apart

It doesn't sound like it to me
To me your problems 
That you hide and take so seriously
Are quite soft and insignificant
I guess it really hurts when you
Are out of orange juice
It must be awful
When your family calls you
To the thanksgiving table
And sweeps all of your concerns under that same
Thanksgiving table

Albert Hofman lyrics:

He didn't know

Albert Hofmann

Chinese Instrument

Reflecting Ice

Water Accumulating

Floods (Mirror 5)

Notes on Evol Waters:

Perhaps there was a feeling of my emotions becoming liquid - growing in volume and experiencing different types of movements - that bled into this EP. I think i did well. And am especially pleased with the second part of it attentively experienced after attentively experiencing the first half. The title is a play on evil and evolve, obviously.

Floods (Mirror 5) lyrics:

Funny
As if it wasn't bad enough
That with the utmost certainty - it seems -
The words that came from her mouth
Painted the picture of a town bike

I wonder if the story 
holds details I have imagined
Obscured in secrecy and deception

I can be assured that
I pose the problem 
As much as I am sure I'm writing
When neither of the previous two statements are true

Is their suicide too much to ask for?
I'm not pleased by sacrifices from the past
After such a turn of events

Water Accumulating lyrics:

I can think of all these names
And I can be framed in their spelling

And I'm kind of wondering
What the wait is for

Are you going to surprise me 
With a grandiose revelation

Well of course I expected better treatment
This bread isn't even good

Yet I never help anybody, right?
So why would I get to dine at the high table?

The high table
Definitely another thing I really really cared about
Not?
Except that I did
But who took my seat from me?

I do hope you've already learned the lesson on exclusion
I do hope
That maybe
Just maybe
You tasted the belly aches I've had

Because someone has never known a day without food
Because someone so sweet has never looked so rude
Because I complain so much for so little
Because, well, because you just felt like it
Because to me, apparently nothing is due

Hey, thanks so much for the gift
I tore my hand open trying to open it
I do wonder if you designed it to do so
Must have been you
Gift makers don't make these types of gifts

And my favorite thing inside the threatening, hazardous box
Cloaked in the stench of your imperfections
And my words like little needles poking your skin
Being turned and used against me

I guess I was so out of line
I had to bow my head
Like a dog
Just to dine

I do wonder if my patience will pay off
I do wonder if you will never feel the breaking apart
I do wonder
If you've ever felt the breaking apart

It doesn't sound like it to me
To me your problems 
That you hide and take so seriously
Are quite soft and insignificant
I guess it really hurts you
When you are out of orange juice
It must be awful
When your family calls you
To the thanksgiving table
And sweeps all of your concerns under that same
Thanksgiving table

Albert Hofman lyrics:

He didn't know

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