The Other Side of Despair

Prod. CRCL
Track 1 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
They droppin' like some flies, look inside my eyes
I ain't tellin' lies, you got on a whole disguise
I'm really on the rise, I'ma lead the enterprise
I don't need to emphasize that I'll bring you to demise

Floatin' like a poltergeist, no more talkin' nice
I got plenty blades, bitch, I got hella knives
Go back where you came, bitch, you will recognize
That I'm not with the playin’ shit, you will not survive

Ridin' through the night, always hold my pistol tight
Got you in my sight, squeeze and let you see the light
Don't you try to fight out of spite, cause I'll smite
Judge asked me would I do it twice, I said I might, damn

The jeans I'm rockin' tight, and my polo shirt is white
Hoppin' on a flight, flyin' higher than a kite
Boy, I only love my wife, yo bitch dirty than my Sprite
Every single word I write brings me closer to lime light

I take control of this shit like a pilot
I take four xans, my eyes roll back to my eyelids
Front flip off the stage, the cover of Die Lit
Once I'm filled with rage, all I see is violet

Blunts, they filled with grade A, get me high quick
I don't, I don't, I don't smoke no motherfuckin' hybrid
Nah, bitch, I don't smoke no hybrid
Floatin' through your roof, even when I'm uninvited

Floatin' like a poltergeist, no more talkin' nice
I got plenty blades, bitch, I got hella knives
Go back where you came, bitch, you will recognize
That I'm not with the playin’ shit, you will not survive

Poltergeist

Prod. Sphynx
Track 2 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Doing what I can while I let my life play out on it’s own
I’m in my zone everyday let go of what I can’t control
It gets old coming home from a long day feeling like I lost my soul
We in hell already but this world is very cold
Sick of working for a company that doesn’t give a fuck bout me at all
I’m showing up to shifts reluctantly I’m thinking of the money
I know one day I’ll go out and spend it all
And no one keeping up with me I’m keeping my head up at least
Cause I know one day I’ll live comfortably and get these problems solved
My whole life is up to me as long as I just let it be 
Expressing through these MP3’s each time I do it I evolve

I’ve seen all the lonely nights I’ve been down the dark roads
Car it doesn’t got headlights, how am I to get home
Sometimes I needed advice, but no one to get it from
Floating like a satellite and I’m gaining wisdom (gaining wisdom)

Doing what I can while I let my life play out on it’s own
I’m in my zone everyday let go of what I can’t control
It gets old coming home from a long day feeling like I lost my soul
We in hell already but this world is very cold
Sick of working for a company that doesn’t give a fuck bout me at all
I’m showing up to shifts reluctantly I’m thinking of the money
I know one day I’ll go out and spend it all
And no one keeping up with me I’m keeping my head up at least
Cause I know one day I’ll live comfortably and get these problems solved
My whole life is up to me as long as I just let it be 
Expressing through these MP3’s each time I do it I evolve

Every time that I wake up (Yup)
I feel fucked up
Go outside, face a blunt (What the fuck?)
Why’s it so damn hard to hide
From all the shit inside my mind
I feel so far left behind
My soul so far from aligned
Cry for old times can’t rewind

Floating

Prod. Sphynx
Track 3 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
In a pit of fire, have pitiful liars burnt
Nothing up inside the urn but plenty missing fliers served
Never enough how much I earn, you can’t put prices on my worth
This my turf, fuck the earth, floating through the universe

Fuck the IRS, all they bring is stress
Telling me that you are the best?
Shit, you must be smoking meth
Should’ve showed up to your house at 3 and shot 3 in your chest
Nowadays they calling police about some terroristic threats (The fuck?)
I’m eyeing police inside the rearview mirror in the driver seat
I caught a tire leak, ran over 13 nails unironically
I tried to retreat on my feet they opened fire on me I got hit with heat
Now I’m laying on the street

In a pit of fire, have pitiful liars burnt
Nothing up inside the urn but plenty missing fliers served
Never enough how much I earn, you can’t put prices on my worth
This my turf, fuck the earth, floating through the universe

My brains on concrete like some fucking zombie meat
Every memory and what I ain’t complete is haunting me
Want my legacy to live on so no one’s forgotten me 
I hope to serve a purpose in the dirt with maggots crawling me
(With maggots crawling me)
In a century we’ll all be gone (All be gone)
Fuck the history, I’ve just begun (Just begun)
Wipe your prints clean if you touch the gun (Touch the gun)
Pass it to me and I’ll get it done (Get it done)

In a Pit of Fire

Prod. Sphynx
Track 4 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Life feels different when ya mind so empty 
That you can’t finish a thought
(Finish a thought)
Running round circles in my head laying in my bed
Should I keep going or not?
(Keep going or not)
Everybody left smoke a cigarette
To dissipate the stress of what I am and what I’m not
(What I am and what I’m not)
Living in eternal debt to regret and every last thing I forgot
(That I forgot)
All I ever wanted was to make a difference
I no longer care about fame or riches
My friends would’ve pushed me off edges of cliffs
And so I distanced myself from all you bitches
Everyone walk around acting pretentious
All of y’all need to lay inside of some ditches
World full of swindlers, liars and snitches
Either way I need some gun fire to end this

I know I can’t kill myself 
Sometimes I feel like I’m already in hell
If I sold my soul would it even sell?
What am I doing here? I could never tell

Visons I been having late at night been scaring me
Christians having conversations talking about sparing me
Ain’t been feeling a thing, the pain stings but barely
Living in a dream, lucid thoughts are a rarity
Scars deep in my soul, no one knows the severity 
Far from having control, goals or some sense of clarity
Mania got ahold on me, laughing hysterically 
Demons with me deep inside the dirt that they bury me

I Feel Like My Body Is Decaying

Prod. Sphynx
Track 5 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Way outside my body bitch I’m astral projecting (I’m traveling)
Spirits won’t get off me they want me for possession (They’re after me) 
Never showing fear cause I done learned all my lessons
Everyday that I wake up, the universe get to testing
Don’t give a fuck what they think because I just keep manifesting
Best put your money on me, and don’t think to stop the investing
Slugs in the shotty, M16 got hollow points in the chamber
And on my body, Smith and Wesson I ain’t stressing bout danger
I’m out in Creston watching westerns, pressing all types of strangers
I made confessions for progressive bursts of aggressive anger
No more regressing it’s refreshing reassessing the answer
I kept repressing my depressing symptoms until I can’t
Can’t wait to look back at my tracks and all the work that I’ve given it
Reminisce on every notepad and note app that I’ve written with 
They don’t do shit but talking shit, few years ago I was sick of it
Now I got no fucks to give cause I know that I’m straight killing it

I’m killing it (huh)
I don’t give a fuck cause I’m killing it, huh
Turn you into dust, then I’m spilling it, huh
I don’t give a fuck cause I’m killing it, huh
Bury you at dusk near the hill and shit

Engraving your name on a tombstone
Throw you in acid and turn you into bone
Joking and laughing because I’m way too stoned
Bong and bowl packing, I’m rolling a new cone
No human contact like I got a new phone
Fuck how you talking you best use a new tone
Walk in your house got my mother fucking shoes on
Getting blue strips, money keep getting too long
Pussy boys talking that shit but they never gon run up and see how this shit really is
I might seem evil or something but promise you I’m really looking out for all the kids
My life on private cause I don’t like priers that staying inside of my personal biz
I’d rather have em not know shit about me like somebody who ain’t study for a quiz
Run up on a janky boy fucking off him
Fuck this world it’s The Nail in The Coffin
Big backwood stay having me coughing
Tripping and seeing another dimension I do that shit every so often
Life is exhausting
Open my mind up my brain I’m unlocking
Time for some change rearrange where we’re walking
I said what I said bitch and now I’m done talking

Astral Projecting in The Middle of Nowhere

Prod. Sphynx 
Track 6 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Bitch I do it for the days, aye
Screaming fuck all of the hate

I do it for the days I was tryna find myself
Mind was pulsating with rage, I felt like somebody else
I was tryna turn a page, put a new book on the shelf
I was tryna save myself break out a cage without no help
This life is hell
I just thought I was bout to fail
Lil bitch I ain’t been doing well
The time move slower than a snail
I’m smoking reefer you can tell by the smell
I’m only calm when I inhale 
(Fuck, spark up)
Said only calm when I inhale
But that becomes a problem when my highs become my lows
You know that it’s not helping when the cons outweigh the pros
And my body barely working, stuck in silence and I’m froze
Every thought I have is hurting, what’s my purpose, no one knows
Every time I light the blunt up I just suffer through my woes
Console full of marijuana, pocket full of Marlboro’s
Smoke keep clouding up my mind and ash keep dirtying my clothes
Laying in my bed at night it feel like I might decompose
I’ll know that it’s not real love when they start hitting my phone
Back since I was real young I done spent my life alone
I would rather be secluded than become another clone
I would rather keep an open mind than be another drone
These people walk around with fucked up morals, bad intentions
Every room I walked into I felt intense amounts of tension
Tried to talk about my life but it felt like no one would listen
But I found out I could rap and my songs felt like my inventions
I started dropping tracks in middle school, got no support, just ridicule
Cause if it wasn’t sports that you were doing then it isn’t cool
I couldn’t make a difference, my existence felt so minuscule
Laying in them ditches, mind was drowning in a swimming pool
I made it super far from where I started, gained some distance
I kept my head up, stacked my bread up got about my business
I do it for the days nobody else was there to listen
I do it for the days my mind was stuck inside a prison

For the Days

Prod. Sphynx
Track 7 from The Other Side of Despair 
Lyrics:
Take a look inside my mind
And look at how I spend my time
Rapping and getting high
I’m watching days pass me by
And I don’t know why
Everything they said was lies
To cloud our minds
And build dependency for dollar signs
The ones we idolize are fraudulent like some white collar crimes
I’m coming on the rise, I’m on some shit to leave em all surprised
Once I put the blueprint I designed and plan that I devised 
In action I’ll be analyzed and advertised and never satisfied

Wake up in the morning feeling depressed as ever (Fuck)
I’m doing all I can but I can’t feel any better
(Like what the fuck)
I can barely feel, that’s why I dance with the devil
But I still go in the studio no one’s on my level (My level)

I got this technique it’s just immortal (Immortal)
Tryna check me while I’m walking through a portal (A portal)
I’m neck deep in the bills, no I can’t be cordial (Can not be)
And next week I’m chasing thrills cause I’m still a mortal
Bitch

The Mourning

Prod. Sphynx
Track 9 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Back in business with a mission Ima make it happen 
Wonder what I would be doing if I wasn’t rapping
9-5’s with a false image man I can’t imagine
Saw some problems in my life I had to take some action

Gotta keep my peace, I can’t let this industry ruin me
They play 2 sides, telling lies it ain’t cool to me
Kick back with the team, scheming, rocking jewelry
I got my guard up, no one can make a fool of me
(Can’t make a fool of me)

I watch the sunset on the roof
Smoke a blunt while I sit and ponder the truth
Locked in in the booth cause I don’t wanna lose
I can do whatever the fuck that I wanna do
Distancing my self protecting my energy
Delivering hell to enemies
Glow shimmering it’s an entity
Flickering light for my killer weed 
Once I hit it I’ll be up in the stars tonight
6 planets in a row and they all align 
6 hours from my home I can’t fall behind
Bitch I don’t want none of you hoes I want dollar signs
Yeah

I can’t let this industry ruin me
They play 2 sides, telling lies it ain’t cool to me
Kick back with the team, scheming, rocking jewelry
I got my guard up, no one can make a fool of me

Possessing Peace

Prod. Sphynx 
Track 10 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
I’m taking over the game I’m making my name known
For those who thought I couldn’t do all of this shit on my own
I came from the lowest of lows 
I built myself up to the top and learned how to grow
And never show any signs of a hoe inside of my soul
Ain’t signing my soul you already know I do it independent 
Let my pendant show, chain froze
Dope clothes head to toe 
Dope grows by the bow
Aim poles at my foes
And you ain’t really making all these hits like me
Bitch I’m stepping out the crib in a fresh white tee
20 nights in the ward, 8 of them I go to sleep
They tried and realized they can’t institutionalize me 
They thought I was crazy, maybe well at least I ain’t lazy
Try avoiding what you need to pay me you’ll be pushing daisies 
DJ didn’t play me he’ll be spinning til he’s pushing 80
Fuck serving a QP daily music’s all I’m pushing lately
They can hate all that they want but it won’t stop me 
At the end of the day they still all watch me
Fuck the boys who ain’t tryna make a change
I’m making noise everyday on my Instagram page
Back in the day I was so afraid to show my face
Worried about the hate and what they would say
I did that shit anyway
And I got plenty of hate, and I still do to this day
You gotta understand it’s just another part of the game
Bitch I ain’t in it for fame
Shit I’m just glad that I came
You little fuck boys are lame
Can’t talk about shit but my name
Bitch I got plenty of the aim and the reach
That ARP got hella range I let it bang in the street 
I can’t record my shit for free, you gotta pay for the feat
The Other Side of Despair, it’s not the same as defeat bitch
The Other Side of Despair, it’s not the same as defeat
And at the end of the day it’s just me vs me

On The Other Side

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