LYRICS:

Once you told me where you’d gone
I pictured what you’d been thinking of
I realized you never know what’s going on
Till you’ve seen them broken down on their bathroom floor

Tell me lies
Tell me everything you’ve ever known
Make me wish i’d forget what you already told 
Tales from your childhood house street 
where your brothers would play with you 
till they grew old

And I'm building stair by stair 
and i'm putting up my hair
I can't see you over there
cause you're talking to your parents
I'm staring at you Abby 
tell me do you even care
you're saying that It's music
I'm something you would wear
And i'm being your muse
but i'll always be the painter
I'm being your chef
tell me are you gonna wait here
I know it's taking time
but my ribs are getting sore
My heart is beating faster
do you need more?

do you need more?

I still have your hairtie on my wrist
I used to slap myself with it
wishing that you’d quit
and your brown locks are everywhere
even after i moved out
and i still see you in the dark
if i dare to close my eyes

And I'm building stair by stair 
and i'm putting up my hair
I can't see you over there
cause you're talking to your parents
I'm staring at you Abby 
tell me do you even care
you're saying that It's music
I'm something you would wear
And i'm being your muse 
but i'll always be the painter
I'm being your chef
tell me are you gonna wait here
I know it's taking time
but my ribs are getting sore
My heart is beating faster
do you need more?

i’ll leave you space 
even if i’m two sizes too big
kinda wish you’d one day realize it
does your mother still sing?
does the steps of you stair squeak when you walk in?

abby

LYRICS:

I was screaming for air 
but my lungs they were tired
And you showed me your world
just like i required
And the moment i lost all control it all faded
The sound of your voice left me empty and jaded
Beautiful boy can you tell me i’ll make it?

So leave a space for me in your heart 
cause you know i tried 
when you thought i gave up
and you held me through the nights
where i swore i was dying

Is it over now
Can’t be over now

I don’t know if i’ll be able to walk if you don’t
Hold my hand when i’m crossing the road
I can count on you like the air i breathe
Who blames a heart for wanting to feel?

So leave a space for me in your heart 
cause you know i tried 
when you thought i gave up
and you held me through the nights  
where i swore i was dying

Is it over now?
Can’t be over now
Can’t be… can’t be

so, leave a space for me in your heart 
cause you know i tried 
when you thought i gave up
and you held me through the nights
where i swore i was dying 

I can count on you like the air i breathe
Who blames a heart for wanting to feel?

for wanting to feel

LYRICS: 

Tell me nothing ever changes
or everything at once
i’ll be waiting for their rules
then i’ll go break them in my songs

When i question i get sick
Eternal love and hate and growth
It’s not an option to be homesick
I can feel it in my bones

Tell me nothing ever changes
or everything at once
i’ll be waiting for their rules
then i’ll go break them in my songs

Would i choose to get better
Or would i feed of the wrong 
Would i choose to get better
Or would i follow along

It’s engraved in my brain and i know it
At every chance that i get i’ll disown it
I’m getting bruised at the thought of me holding 
the weight of the world as i know it
at every step of the stair i’ll be falling
face first, head blank, cause i know that-
this isn’t  really what i wanted

would i choose to get better?
would i choose to get better?

Tell me nothing ever changes
or everything at once
i’ll be waiting for their rules
then i’ll go break them in my songs

a song for the homesick

LYRICS: 

i’d trace the walls with my fingertips
humming songs that my mother would sing 
getting fed of off metal and glass
being told that the time will pass

letting go of the disbelif
on paper but i’m out of ink
wishing that i was seven again

guess it’s stupid that i’m feeling blue
cause the moment is long overdue
but i fear that the cold’s never gone
i’m afraid i that wont move on

guess it’s stupid that i’m feeling blue
cause the moment is long overdue
but i fear that the cold’s never gone
i’m afraid i that wont move on

keeping my feet on the ground
nothing to pull me back down
nothing to keep me from falling
into the hole they dug out
letting you break up my words
but i wont forget to kiss you first
being the one for your needs
it’ll probably be over with some sleep

guess it’s stupid that i’m feeling blue
cause the moment is long overdue
but i fear that the cold’s never gone
i’m afraid i that wont move on

i wish i called out for love when i could
while painting my nails, nobody understood
i’m still tracing the walls like a child 
but my hands are hurting and my heart is tired

metal and glass

LYRICS: 

If you had my heart 
I’d want it back 
I swear my soul is where you’re at 
you stole my worth and let me drown 
No we can’t meet cause you won’t calm down 

you pushed me out on the driveway 
expecting me to know how to run 
I’ve suffered years in your silence 
will you admit we’re outdone

so now when I see a road sign 
I fear it leads to your town 
I spent my everything yearning 
all the things that went wrong 

if you had my heart 
I’d want it back 
I swear my soul is where you’re at 
you stole my worth and let me drown 
No we can’t meet cause you won’t calm down 

Believe me I tried to change 
but I’ve always been scared of change 
and you cut the rope I was hanging onto when you spoke 
so I fell from third floor 
and I broke something that’ll never grow

if you had my heart 
I’d want it back 
I swear my soul is where you’re at 
you stole my worth and let me drown 
No we can’t meet cause you won’t calm down

your silence

LYRICS:

you could come for guidence
then i would break the walls you bent
in my heart there will will be room

and i’d cherish all your smiles
cause i’d hear your cries at night
i just hope you won’t let go
of all that i used to know

wearing my own sweatshirt now
it still smells like you somehow

you promised me
we’d stay here till eternity 

i’m in my own sweatshirt now
it still smells like you somehow
never thought i’d say this loud
there are holes in my walls
broken cage hanging up the calls
isolate from the day
nobody’s heard from me for months

there’s smoke outside of the water
i’d be loosing me if i only tried
i’ll be waiting for you to call me
not that id even reply
i’ll be watching over you

i’m in my own sweatshirt now
it still smells like you somehow
never thought i’d say this loud
there are holes in my walls
broken cage hanging up the calls
isolate from the day
nobody’s heard from me for months

till eternity

LYRICS:

how can i not dig this hole up again
when i’m holding the shovel myself
i said baby it’s filling me up
yeah my lungs they are filled with dirt

it’s polluted
it’s polluted
i’m not cold
i’m not cold
i’m not cold
baby i am not cold
i’m not cold
am i cold?

how can i not did this hole up again
when i’m holding the shovel myself
it’s this air it is filling me up
without patience i’m so out of luck

i’m polluted
polluted, polluted

i’m not cold
i’m not cold
i’m not cold
baby tell me i’m not cold
i’m cold

hollow

LYRICS:

I feel your passion like a sprinkle of the sun
You’re doing wonderful, oh god I hope you know
Its makes no sense how you’re so bravely inconspicuous
When all you ever even wanted was a home

It doesn’t make any sense that you are here
When you have wonders and a whole world left to see
I’m walking paths that I’ve already written down
You’re making castles out of houses burnt to ground

Making easy out of hard
I’ve fought the battles id never thought 
Would be
Taking over my everything 
Being bathed in sunlight
Tho the
Birds don’t sing

Who would wait on the other side
Once I
Got to it and started fighting?
Is it hard to be bathed in sunlight
When you’re a bluejay far from hiding?

I’ve been holding my breath for years
Just to make sure it feels good to breathe again
I see your eyes but cannot hear what they say
I hoped your songs would have let you explain

Making easy out of hard
I’ve fought the battles id never thought 
Would be
Taking over my everything 
Being bathed in sunlight
Tho the
Birds don’t sing

Who would wait on the other side
Once I
Got to it and started fighting?
Is it hard to be bathed in sunlight
When you’re a bluejay far from hiding?

bluejay

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