Casual

halsey - colors (speed)

ballad of a homeschooled girl
olivia rodrigo

olivia rodrigo - ballad of a homeschooled girl slowed + reverb

olivia rodrigo - pretty isn’t pretty slowed + reverb

Love Is Embarrassing - Olivia Rodrigo (slowed + Reverb)

Creep (Glee Cast Version)

subway - chappell roan

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒖𝒃𝒘𝒂𝒚 - 𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝑹𝒐𝒂𝒏 - 𝑺𝒑𝒆𝒅 𝑼𝒑

Chappell Roan - The Subway

when did you get hot? - sabrina carpenter (looped!)

I can still hear your voice in the kitchen,
Softly singing to the radio hum.
Now the house feels like a hollow prison,
Every clock hand heavy and numb.
Your chair sits empty,
But I still see you there,
Like a shadow of love
Filling the air.

I wasn’t ready,
I can’t let go,
But I know you’re where
The rivers of mercy flow.

The day you went home,
I felt the sky break.
Tears turned to rivers,
I drowned in the ache.
But heaven was calling,
And I had to stay
The day you went home
Still feels like today.

I still wear your sweater
When the nights are cold,
Like the threads might hold
The stories you told.
I see your smile
In the break of dawn,
And I whisper your name
When the world feels wrong.

I don’t know why
God called you then,
But I’ll see you again
Where life never ends.

The day you went home,
I felt the sky break.
Tears turned to rivers,
I drowned in the ache.
But heaven was calling,
And I had to stay
The day you went home
Still feels like today.

I’ll hold your memory
Like a fragile flame,
And when I see Jesus,
I’ll call your name.
You’re not gone,
You’re just gone ahead,
To a place where
The tears are shed.

The day you went home,
I felt the sky break.
But love is eternal,
It’s stronger than graves.
One day I’ll follow,
One day I’ll say
“The day you went home,
I’m coming your way.”

This song is the hardest one for me to sing because it carries me back to the day my mom died. I can still see her in that room, connected to machines, her breaths shallow and strained. The sound of her gasping for air is carved into me. It felt like watching life slip away in slow motion, but being powerless to stop it. Those last days felt unreal, as if time had bent in on itself, stretching and collapsing at once.

You think you will have one last conversation, one final chance to say all the words you carry in your heart. I thought I would be able to tell her everything, to hold her hand and hear her answer me back. But instead there was silence, her body too tired to respond, her eyes slipping away until she just stopped breathing. That moment will haunt me for the rest of my life.

It was as if the world shattered in an instant, and yet the world outside kept going like nothing had changed. Grief is cruel like that.

But there is also hope. The song points me toward heaven, toward the promise that death is not the end. I cling to the truth that my mom is with Jesus, that she went home before me. The thought of seeing her again keeps me steady when the grief threatens to drown me.

The Bible says in Revelation 21 that God will wipe away every tear from our eyes, and there will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain. I hold onto that with everything in me. One day the gasping and the machines will be forgotten, and all that will remain is joy in His presence.

Until then, I sing this song with both sorrow and hope. Sorrow because I miss her more than words can hold. Hope because I know love is stronger than the grave, and one day I will see her again when I too go home.

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒖𝒃𝒘𝒂𝒚 - 𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝑹𝒐𝒂𝒏 - 𝑺𝒑𝒆𝒅 𝑼𝒑

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