[Remastered✨]

No this isn't deja-vu lol This is in fact a re-upload. I released this song earlier this year trying to make up for my unfinished 'spooky szn ep project' I was working on last year. Even though I was happy with the song itself and the composition, the production did not do it justice. It definitely wasnt the worst, but with how special this piece was to me I couldn't leave it as it was. So I took some time and put some extra resources into making it a production I'm much more proud to share. Of course it's not the highest quality in the world, and it ain't perfect, I never claim to be. But I think it sounds wonderful, and showcases the image I had in my head when composing it. I hope you enjoy it and if you did listen to it earlier this year, please give it your time and some extra support. Truly one of my favorite songs I've ever written, and it's much more deserving of the love some of you guys showed it before. Thank you so much 💗
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Lyrics :

(Chorus)**
Open up your heart
Open up your mind
we'll experience things so devine
They call us crazy baby
it's none of their concern
Say we're playing with the flame but what if I like the burn?

Place your hand in mine, the energy is right
Have you ever felt what it's like to see the other side?
In love with this addiction, ritualistic ecstasy oh
Ouija

We see third eye to eye
Connection so strong you'd think it were covered in diamonds
Knew it all along, sending messages through the mind
Know just what you want, your echo's so loud through the silence

(Lights on off on off)
Whatever I don't mind
No smoke and mirrors
this crystal is clear and it's showing me all the signs
No telephone needed
This telekinesis will surely do us just fine
Speaking through spirits now
fuck a landline

They say it's a dangerous game but I'm not scared at all

**

Obsession
Possession
I call out your name
You guide my direction

I'll be your vessel
It's never question
Whenever you're in my space I feel protected

We communicate differently
More than just words
We converse spiritually
Flow through my veins and everywhere in between
You're the only one who really gets me
Practically begging you to hex me

You can't spell ouija without u and i
Come cast some spells with me, stay up all night
Not in a hurry love let's take our time
Don't stop til you see the whites of my eyes

**

You can't spell ouija without u and i
Come cast some spells with me, stay up all night
Not in a hurry love let's take our time
Don't stop til you see the whites of my eyes

Ouija (prod. Benny Alexander)

Producer : technology beats
Mixer : @nykcan
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Abt dumb boring (boys) !!!

AN: So proud of this. I love this song, it's different, but I'll probably do even more of this. I love it. So fun. Makes me feel like I'm unstoppable. Ever exploring genre and sound though. I love creating and this production motivates me to continue.

Thank you to nykcan for collaborating with me on this piece and making my vision a reality ! You're so awesome! Please follow them and send lots of support.

☆彡 Send this to the one who u wasted ur time on x 

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<Lyrics>

**chorus**
You were worried about labels
I was looking for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
Your new girl won't give you personality

You were worried about labels
I was looking for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
She won't give you personality

Used me to pass the time
But couldn't make up your mind
Constantly letting you slide
not even sure if you ever had my best interest in mind
Why did I put up with you for so long?
(Maybe I'm too nice)

Bending backwards just for you
Although I already knew like
halfway through I was too good for you
But I didn't think I deserved more
than this that I had settled for
(Ooh)

You were looking for some labels
I was looking for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
Your new girl won't give you personality
(She won't give you personality)

You were shopping for some labels
I was searching for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
She won't give you personality
(Don't want no LV)

So unlucky
Actually kinda funny
Act like that brain's so big why's it always seem so empty?
Maybe you could benefit from a little astrology
Cuz we know I'm a star but still you never bet on me

I honestly feel so sorry for you baby
(Ooh ooh)
Too incompetent to actualize that opportunity
You lacked the confidence to actualize that opportunity
✧*。And you lack a personality ✧*。

The way you handled things was less than ethical
But what did I expect from you, that shit is typical
Oh sorry I know you don't like to get political
But I can't help that your cynicism's residual

Always shrinking myself to be at your level
Diluting my flavor to be more palatable
Oh such a waste
How could you be so critical with no taste?
trying to impress the impressionable

You were worried about labels
I was looking for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
(I think creatively)
Your new girl won't give you personality
(she won't give you personality)

You were looking for some labels
I was looking for longevity
wanted simple but I think creatively
She won't give you personality, no

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#drumnbass #drumandbass #drum&bass #songwriter #smallartist #singersongwriter #poccreator

Personality

big thank yous to freddie on drums, shawn on bass, and josh on guitar. thank u to rah for the space and coordination. for reference this was our first full run through after notes and w/o a guide track. we unfortunately never got to perform this set as intended, but this is a glimpse of what would have been. thought it would be nice to share x hope u enjoy

Official single dropping very soon 🫶🏽

#indie #alt #indiepop #spookyszn #liveband #llanimay #smallartist #songwriter #indierock #bandrehearsal #rehearsaltrack #halloween #dnb #drumnbass #popartist #popsongs #share #singersongwriter

102023 final girl band rehearsal ꕤ˚₊⊹.°

Final Girl
Beat by : @wurlishmouk

Conceptualized : October 15th 2020
Officially revisited : July 10th 2023
Re-conceptualized : August 2nd 2023
Writing finalized : September 2023
Released : October 29th 2023

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First time mixing and mastered myself. There will most likely be a remastered version in the future but I really wanted to try my best, and get this out for Halloween. So if you’re here now ur a part of this special moment ! 🥺 you’re an mvp thank u so much for listening and supporting. Stay tuned for more very soonnnnn 🫶🏽

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Lyrics :

My hair's all done up
Wearing my brand new blouse
Just me, my lipstick and the tv
All alone in my house

The atmosphere's quiet
But I wish you'd come make a scene
You're probably out chasing some other girls
When you should be chasing me

I dream of falling for you
And letting you find me

I might risk dying
But I'll keep trying
Because it's worth it
Together we’re perfect
I wanna be your final girl

And just when I think it's all over
You're right behind me

Couldn’t tell you why
I keep trying
I might risk dying
Because you’re worth it
I wanna be your final girl

Hiding in the shadows
Do you even see me
One day I’ll be yours
As long as my bloods pumping
long as my heart's beating

Saying your name 
at my reflection
Yet you still don't come around
At the hands of your mercy
Your fate I’m bound to

Do whatever just to be around you
Let’s take this game to the next round
You could bury me 6 ft under ground
I promise I won’t make a sound

Not a peep
As long as you visit me
Bring me flowers and little treats
roses and daisies for your favorite girl

I dream of falling for you
And letting you find me

I might risk dying
But I'll keep trying
Because it's worth it
Together we’re perfect
I wanna be your final girl

And just when we think it's all over
You're right behind me

Couldn’t tell you why
I keep trying
I might risk dying
Because it’s worth it
I wanna be your final girl

I wanna be your final girl
Because you’re worth it
I wanna be your final girl
You know I’m worth it
I wanna be your final girl

Final Girl

mid song i wrote last year
posting to get it over with cuz i’ll probably never actually get it recorded and produced properly
but i rly enjoy the melody and singing along to it so hopefully someone else does too and it can become like one of ur fave soundcloud gems or something yk? alright thankssss
also gonna stop apologizing for poor or not-perfect audio mixing. i’m literally just a girl it’s not that deep this should be fun, just bump to it man

( lyrics ) :

**i just wanna know that you don't hate me
I'm not sure but i think that would elevate
the anxiety that's built up over time

yea im pretty sure you hate me
if you didn't you would say it
you're supposed to read my mind**

I've done all I could do
fell flat on my face tripping over my words
apologizing to you
Is anything you said to me true ?
I wanna believe it so badly
but it's easier said than done

I'm worried the demons won
No bullets left in my gun
Bottom of the barrel for protection
Still feels like we're missing a resolution
Please let's just put a pin in it

i just wanna make sure you don't hate me
I'm not sure but i think that would elevate
the anxiety that's built up over time
yea im pretty sure you hate me
if you didn't you would say it
you're supposed to read my mind

why do I have to say it?
you're supposed to read my mind

I can't let this go
god I wish i could but I've just gotta know
how you feel about me
what's on your mind, please tell me

Am I the worst? Was it worth it?
Peace of mind, which one of us deserves it?
Does curiosity make me a bad person?
Is it still my place?

it's become a hyper fixation
thank you for your patience
I'm wearing you out
I can see it on your face

**

don’t hate me (prod. Waves)

Something I whipped up in a day or two after writing a chorus I couldn't let go to waste 💜 this is a style I've always wanted to try, though it's different for me. I really love it, #bedroompop and simple harmonies type ish 🌈 sometimes those little moments of inspiration go a long way. Very proud of how this turned out cuz it's exactly what I wanted ! I hope you enjoy ~ I'll probably dip back into this style, it makes me feel calm and gives me good vibes, even if the lyrics are sometimes melancholy. It's light and airy and whimsical and practical. I just love it. Thanks for listening ! 🥰

IG: @llanimay
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Lyrics : 

Lavender

Okay
so I've got a lot of things to say
But my stupid brain
Can't seem to put them out in a pretty way

Maybe I'm anxious
I'm sure that explains it
And if that's not the reason then I'll just blame you

Give me signs and smile and fill my day with light
Then before I know it's 12 below, fahrenheit
Your shoulders cold as ice
Frustrated, please change it
All you do is

Pull my hair out indirectly
Answer questions incorrectly
Call me bro but say I'm hot
Say you're so down but I know you're not

Pixie sticks and rhinestones
My pink tinted glass bones
hurt my heart til it's black and blue
And lavender too
And lavender too

I'm fragile
Don't know if you noticed
But this tough girl attitude
Is just because I'm a Taurus

You need to be gentle with me, I'm not exactly made for this
Though all I really wanna do is shake you til you turn orange

I know you know there are feelings
So why aren't we dealing with them?
Communication's not expensive

Spill your heart and ask for me to do the same
Then suddenly you're playing cards like its some kind of game
But I refuse to play
Don't know how long I can take this
All you do is

Pull my hair out indirectly
Answer questions incorrectly
Call me bro but say I'm hot
Say you're so down but I know you're not

Pixie sticks and rhinestones
My pink tinted glass bones
hurt my heart til it's black and blue
And lavender

Oh
Just be honest when you speak to me
I won't judge you, no, I'm listening
It's hurts being stuck in between

I don't wanna hold you up
Just let me know exactly what you want
I'll try
To make you feel right

I'll sell you my pink polka dot heart for your mind in return
Happiness is something I think we both deserve

(Instrumental)

We both deserve it
We both deserve it

We both deserve it
deserve it

deserve it
deserve it

deserve it
deserve it ooh

deserve it ooh

Lavender (prod. AstoriaBLVD)

just a lil something I whipped up this evening ❤️ been wanting to write something in light of current events, and I guess #juneteenth inspired me to get it done. Spread love, stay resilient, be proud. #blacklivematter #blm #thisisamerica #songwriter
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LYRICS:


How many times will we ask for this to end?
Burning my vigil candlestick at both ends
Make you aware but somehow you still pretend
You don't see, hear the screams, refuse to comprehend

Oh the evidence is overwhelming
How can you sit in my face and still try to tell me
My pain is delusion
Building fake safe spaces, creating illusions for your own amusement

Forced into delicacy instead of anger
To avoid more tragedy
And I've been flying so gently, quietly
Making sure your flags flown don't collide with me
Putting others feelings before me
But what about mine
Staying behind
As to not disturb the birds
as we share the sky

So long I've been flying
Constantly trying
Keeping my head above the water,
the fire
Fueled by desire
I can't give much more
Exhausted, I'm tired
My wings are so sore

I'm supposedly free
So why do you try to silence me
You try to clip my wings
But I've been rising despite my injuries
You must be mad you can't get rid of me

A rich history of all my ancestry glows through my skin and sings
Nothing we have not seen
They asked for the same things

Try to calm me down
Try to pull me down
Try to shoot me down
While I'm on the ground
While my hands are up
If I try to run
Then my time is up
If I stay, I'm done

I don't know what you want from me
Don't know what else I'm supposed to do
But I think I'm tired
Of trying to please you

So long I've been flying
Constantly trying
Keeping my head above the water,
the fire
Fueled by desire
I can't give much more
Exhausted I'm tired
My wings are so sore
My wings are so sore

My wings
My wings
Resilience
Brown brilliance

My wings are sore
But I've done this before
And I'll do it once more

With these wings I soar
This is what I'm built for
And I'll do it once more
X2

My Wings (prod. wavytrbl)

** vent track I recorded while going through some writers block. really simple, almost didn't post it, but I really enjoy listening to it so maybe someone else will too. Idk who needs to hear it, but keep trying.

Lyrics :

You can't do anything right
Stomach same size as your eyes
I don't think you should even try
Got too much shit on your mind

You say the limits the sky but
Maybe this failure's a sign
I don't think you should even try
Cuz I'm so fucking sick of crying

Try again
Try again again
Stuck with this; dissapointment
Really at this point it seems hopeless

Silly dreams
"Don't you give up on it!"
Voices killing me
And I'm my own worst critic

That wasn't right either
I need a breather

You can't do anything right
Stomach same size as your eyes
I don't think you should even try
Got too much shit on your mind

You say the limits the sky but
Maybe this failure's a sign
I don't think you should even try
Cuz I'm so fucking sick of crying

It's hard

It's hard

I just wanna prove to myself that I can be somebody else

But it's hard

Breather (prod. Milanezie)

trying my best 🦋
hopefully it's enough for someone ☾

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ig , tiktok : @llanimay

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