pls dont listen

grateful - dandelion hands

dc snuff film / waste yrself

we found two dead swans and filled their bodies with flowers

haunt me (x 3)

Portamento

I Don't Know How To Love

Money

Holo Pleasures / California Dreamin'

Pepsi/Coke Suicide

Everybody Says

Deathconsciousness

I Don't Love

Giles Corey

I'm Going to Do It

Little Dark Age

When You Die

i’ll count to heaven in years without seasons

lilies

all sounds made by me
first time singing on a track so please dont bully me i tried uwu
also shouts out to https://soundcloud.com/landosmusic for letting me do the lando vocal style on this

just friends

look i just love and admire grouper and dont know how this cover got popular amongst xxx fans but i dont wanna be affiliated with him

grouper - poison tree (cover)

clara rockmore's ghost

rarities, b-sides, demos, outtakes, & secret songs... 2009 - 2019

Nothing

repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
time has proven that fooling yourself into believing
a lie is the most effective way to deal with
things you have no control over

keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
overanalyse every single word you hear
"was this a sign that things were going wrong"
no no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them

stay up every single night staring at your phone
either attempting to gather up the courage to
turn these demons, these constant reminders of
your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
or praying just for one second you could feel
the warmth of equally returned love

go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
always bring your notebook, never stop writing
leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
watch them smile as you get in your car

always talk down on yourself whenever possible
my life is shit because i deserve it, right?
you must have done something real bad
its nearly impossible for you to cry now

avoid your friends for weeks even though
they're the only sense of consistency you have
left in your life, if they really wanted
to see you they'd come, but they won't (who cares?)

allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
watch as you begin to take a backseat to the
world around you, don't fight it
become a secondary character in your own motion picture

but most importantly drown every single one of
your feelings in old stolen rum, learn to
love the taste of it dripping down your throat
find comfort in the warmth coming from your
stomach, you're drinking bottled love now

you don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
you just needed to find a way to talk to it

how to never stop being sad

reupload of "what the heck" from the album "i tried to run away when i was 6 but got too scared to cross the street" by i tried to run away when i was 6 (but got too scared to cross the street). that's a long name.

buy the album on bandcamp: https://blastreality.bandcamp.com/album/i-tried-to-run-away-when-i-was-6-but-got-too-scared-to-cross-the-street

listen to it on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/79zLBKlL1V4Agt0guR3nFx?si=9DdgcmDjSoi84o9u7IBuUQ

i tried to run away when i was 6 but got too scared to cross the street

i tried to run away when i was 6 (but got too scared to cross the street) - what the heck

pls dont listen

completelynothenry:]