lyrics:
I saw you driving pretty close to my house today
a chill up my spine and not a word to say
cuz even if I tried, I can't articulate

I made a box of all the stuff I had that makes me think of you
and I'm not gonna lie, I've looked in a time or two
to remind me of the reasons that I blocked you

and I really don't hate you
I just hate the way you make me feel
like I was crazy for loving you
and the reason I left wasn't all your fault
I just knew I'd never heal if I kept running into you

I got a call from an old friend I made when I was still with you
we talked over all the crazy things that love makes us do
made me think of all the songs we fell in love to

now I'm feeling pretty ignorant to think that we could do this
the world has always been against the young and the stupid in love
but it wasn't stupid to us

and I really don't hate you
I just hate the way you make me feel
like I was crazy for loving you
and the reason I left wasn't all your fault
I just knew I'd never heal if I kept running in
and I really don't hate you
I just hate the way you make me feel
like I was crazy for loving you
and the reason I left wasn't all your fault
I just knew I'd never heal if I kept running into you

I Don't Hate You

lyrics:
What a happy Thanksgiving 
The family's all here
They're gonna call me a she
They're gonna deadname just like
Last year
What a happy Thanksgiving 
Another mass shooting I hear
No time to recover from yesterday's tragedy, it's unclear
How many more times the flags will fly at half mast this year
And we'll all just pretend it's all fine, nothings wrong, we're not scared

So what a happy Thanksgiving 
Everybody hates it here
They wanna talk about politics, religion or how much you weigh this year
What a happy Thanksgiving
When sadness falls on deaf ears
Because dad's disappointed and grampa don't understand why you're queer

What a happy Thanksgiving 
I think I just might disappear 
Cuz I don't wanna hear another racist remark or how guns don't kill

what a happy thanksgiving x5

What A Happy Thanksgiving

lyrics:
I saw you walkin down that dreamy staircase, what a vision in that dress I knew you hated still you gave me chills
I sat for months wondering what you were thinkin about, was it me? Or was it someone else? your eyes gave me clues and then suddenly your thoughts were so loud

It was a whirlwind every moment after our first kiss, I fell so deeply and so quickly, I lost all control
and I couldn't tell you if we made the right choice moving fast was so easy, what other choice did we have, it was all or nothing, be together or take it back

You will always be my first real love, I gave you everything i had, it nearly broke me in the end, but still, I have no regrets

I still think about the way we were, how every touch meant fireworks the blissful ignorance 
Now both of us have changed I don't know you, you don't know me anymore, I moved on, I grew up, and I closed that door, but I will always think of you the way you were before

You will always be my first real love, I gave you everything i had, it nearly broke me in the end, but still I'll never regret seeing you grow into yourself I was so proud to be the person you shared all your victories with
I have no regrets x4

No Regrets

inspired by heartstopper <3

lyrics:
I need you to catch my breath
it's falling, I’ve lost my head
they cannot embrace just yet
he's holding his hand instead
I’m overinvested in their longing looks
he says he's wanting to tell their friends
we're waiting to see just when

and my emptiness grows
but they're filling the holes in my chest
and I wish that was me
living a teenage dream
but I'm getting older
and I think I missed my shot
so I’ll watch tv, and give me the love i lost

they're walking together past 
the cafes and old book shops 
she's holding her lovers arm, 
she’s leans in to kiss her 
I'm unstable they're so in love 
they lean on each other hard
it's music to hear them laugh
the innocence pierced my heart

and the emptiness grows
but they're filling the holes in my chest
and I wish that was me
living a teenage dream
but I'm getting older
and I think I missed my shot
so I’ll watch tv, and give me the love I lost

Feet on The Ground

I'm just gonna post all my rough drafts here. if you have constructive feedback, please comment!!

jess