I'm fucking crying every time I listen to this

Lyrics: Why dont you fill up your fantasy
Track me down and murder me 
Father it’s so easy to see 
Your dreams consist of my lifeless body

So come here and consume my flesh
Put your little girl to rest 
She’s tired of weeping from all this stress
You fired, she’s screaming, the blood leaks from her head

A deer in headlights before he shot
There won’t be a single piece left to rot 
I’d rather be eaten half alive 
Than keep living, knowing this is how I’ll die

Soon father will light the fire
Keep cooking til it fits his desire 
Commit suicide by burning alive for what he’s done 
Evidence to ash, it’s all gone in a flash, I won’t see the sun
Again

(gasoline, match, fire)

Beg for death (daughter slaughterer demo)

Lyrics:

Tiptoe bare foot on the grass
We’ll make daisy chains after class
After school, sit in the pool
And watch the butterflies as they pass

As these years have went by
I’ve forgotten what being alive feels like
Watching the kites as they fly
Alongside the birds in the sky

Sweet summer nights
Sweet summer day
Sweet sound of children playing in the summer rain

Summer song of a British childhood (unfinished demo)

Daughter slaughterer 
Why did you slaughter me?
You won’t get away with murder
I’ll haunt you for eternity 
 
I could never find where I belonged
Not on earth nor beyond

Not on earth nor beyond 
The afterlife has now begun

I guess it’s not as bad here
Better than a life fuelled by fear

Why did you have a little girl,
If you planned to take me out of your world?
I guess I prefer the afterlife
Cause you made me never want to be alive

I hate you
I fucking hate you
You were never a good father
From above I’ll watch you murder my mother

The afterlife/daughter slaughterer II (demo)

Reach down my throat
Take my heart 
tear it apart
Dig your teeth into it, look me in the eyes as the blood runs from my mouth 

Kiss me
Show me the taste of my own poison

When you’re done with my heart 
Give it to the forest
I don’t know how to use it
My blood runs black, and I’ve infected you 

Take me back, take me back
I wasn’t ready to die
But it’s time to say goodbye

I see your morbid beauty in which I fear
“You’re mine now
I own you
You own me
And together we belong in a universe that does not exist”

The taste of my own poison

Lyrics:
I’m not real, I’m a living cartoon
A living play, hiding behind a mask
I’m not real, I’m a living cartoon
Told what to say, I don’t know who I am

Every week, I’ve got a new identity 
A new state of mind, I lose my memory 
Is there no remedy? I feel incomplete 
I’ve got no friends no, got no life no, got no motivation to be alive 
So everything I make and do is so depressing, disappointing 
So they want me to be I’m someone not
 
I’m not real, I’m a living cartoon
A living play, hiding behind a mask
I’m not real, I’m a living cartoon
Told what to say, I don’t know who I am

I feel oh so out of place 
In society like I don’t belong
So this is another sad song
About how miserable, unhappy and blue I am
Sometimes I wish I could see and understand 
The world like a so-called “normal” person does

Living cartoon (demo)

Lyrics:
So, just watch me waste away 
I’ll be gone someday 
Soon
Don’t say I didn’t warn you

Hurt me, please go ahead and hurt me, ah
I say I’ll kill myself as a cry for help
But you say I want attention when I’m just trying to prevent it 
I know you’ll blame yourself

Just keep breaking me down
Til I hit the ground 
I don’t have a reason to wake up
It’s the season of bad luck

Tie the rope, knock down the chair
Will you only ever care when I’m no longer there?

When I was at my worst
You just let me fall
Just let me end it all
I, I can’t take it anymore 

It’s too late, it doesn’t matter now
You’ve already let me down
Now you’re the one with the breakdown 
I told myself don’t cry, don’t cry
I told myself you’re fine, you’re fine
I tried my best you just let me die
If you had cared enough I could’ve been alive

It’s too late (demo)

Lyrics:
I’ve accepted that I’ll only find 
Peace when I die
That’s just the way it is
In the end nothing matters 
So why am I here?

I no longer fear death
But I fear life 
If nothing matters why should it matter
If I die? 
Commit suicide
I try my best to stay alive 

You tore me apart
You broke my heart
You used me
You abused me

Yet still, I do not matter at all
Nothing matters

Hopeless

Lyrics:
Never truly alone
I talk to the ghosts
(she doesn’t know that we talk back)
There’s not a single secret they don’t know

Supernatural 
Delusional  
Not rational 

It’s not a delusion 
Or an illusion 
Or is it my mind that I’m losing

Delusional 
Unusual 
Not rational 

I’m surrounded by pairs of eyes 
Watching me sleep at night 
Stare at me, paralysed 
Watch me til the day I die
I should be sleeping, not weeping 
I keep believing all the lies
Paranoia keep on torturing me all 
All the time

When I step into the shower
I feel their gaze and I cower 
My delusions overpower
My control 24 hours
This feeling I’m being watched
Why, why can’t it just stop? 
Why, why can’t it just stop?
Why, why can’t it just stop?
I haven’t showered in two years
I can’t get past this fear
Delusions (taking over my life)
Delusions (taking over my life)
Ah, ah

Delusional

Lyrics:
My dear, I try every way I can to light up your life
I’ll sing my songs to you, but I know you’re leaving tonight
I’ll wear that dress you bought me in 1959
Baby blue bows and lace, from our first date night

I wish you could see the beauty in this life
I’m more than sorry yours was ruled by pain and strife

Darling, I’m trying my best to get by on my own
I suppose it’s best I don’t learn what I don’t want to know

Your soul will always be with me
And it hurts, it burns, why did you have to leave?

Oh, what I would do see you smile one last time
And lay in your arms illuminated by the television light

Ah-ah, ah
Oh-oh, oh

Always with me

Lyrics:
Just go sleep, I’ll take care of all your problems
Put your mind at ease, I won’t forget a single one of them 

Stay strong, you won’t be broken in tears 
But if you are, I’m always here 
It won’t be long I know you can fight your fear 
Soon your problems will disappear 

I write the words I wish you’d say to me
I sing the same song on repeat 
I’m telling you what I need 
But what I want just can’t be 

I give you the love I used to have 
Hoping someday you’ll give it back 
Why won’t you give it back?

I wish I was kid again
I didn’t appreciate the love I had
Until it was ripped from arms 
And I was torn apart 
But I, I get used to it once I have it again
And I turn into you, an ungrateful little child

Ungrateful

I hate the drums I might put up a version without, it just sounded so empty without :(

Lyrics:
When we first met, our love blossomed 
But now the winters coming all the flowers are starting to decay 
You used to set my heart on fire 
But now the ice has come to freeze the spark away

I remember last Christmas, you got caught up in your business 
And I spent it alone
I forgave you but I craved you
I just wished that I could save you all to myself 

Snow keeps falling on my window sill 
Reminding me our summer months have come to an end 
You know the sun could’ve been shining still
But it’s gone and I can no longer pretend 

Wish I could stop the memories from flooding my brain 
Trying to use how we were at the start as an excuse to stay 
Please just go, get out get on the next train 
Cause if I ever see your face again I’ll never want you to go away 

And I know this is for the best but I can’t put my mind to rest
Please, just get this over with 
I did everything I should you did everything you could to make this work 
But it just hurts

Snow keeps falling on my window sill 
Reminding me our summer months have come to an end 
You know the sun could’ve been shining still
But it’s gone, I can no longer pretend

Of course I still love you to the moon and back
But my love used to stretch from the earth to the sun
Oh once we were one, those days are gone 
We’re done

Always with me

Bambi Baker

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