i cant do this anymore 2

lyrics:

Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze my tired form emaciates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 
If the horse dies then the foal does too
I don’t wanna ever live my life without you
Independence begs me to overlook truth so I do
Myself is a word I use around u
I just gotta a lot of pain in my chest woah woah
I cannot be like him but ill do my best woah woah
Lately I think I lost the fear of death woah woah
Baby I can’t be saved just save ur breath oh no

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

Take my body and feed it to the typhoon
Better than having say that strange goodbye soon
Baby I would never treat u same as u treated urself
I admire ur soul cause it is see thru
 late at night I drink and i fill myself up
Poison pours into my open mouth and I
Mean it when I say I miss how we was
This the game we chose to play with our love and I know
But Where’s your honour
I can see pain flow fast into her mold
So She left me cornered
But suffering like this bring me home that’s all that I know
As Toronto gets warmer 
I can come alive in a way that I never knew
Pour it up into my soda 
I started rolling up purple every time im feeling blue
Our Safe guards Couldnt pull me in
The beams rot And I let them cave in
A fortnight Spent Behind these weathered gates
Worn hands slip the door and permeate the house
and In my world its easier to suffocate
My eyes glaze the sweat on me evaporates
The warm dark birthed me to these cold parts
The birth marks Cover me on both arms 

Don’t let them see u cry is what u said oh oh
I know that they’ll love me when im dead oh oh
Ion even wanna talk about the bad no oh
I like how it fuck me in my head oh oh
Blood drips from my nose
Stains bleed thru the snow
Its these nights they will never know

these nights are urs (splashgvng)

Break Me (Prod. Cody Hatt & Xo Cam)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead

lyrics
(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen
Why you gotta act like this
You fucking up my life n shit
Sparked a blunt n took a hit
I’ve been waiting for the end of it
Feel like Gucci I’m so sick of this
Grab the gun I’m gonna end this quick
Like the ocean my head will split
I’m talkin bout that Moses shit

(autumndropsdead)
let the ocean split, i could make a list
for every time i fucking lied
 it would've made you pissed
i'm sorry about that again
how long ago did it get to your head?
i know you aren't proud
yeah you hate me now
cause i turned out fine
let me lay it out
every night i'd cry
but would never shout
holding on for life
till the truth comes out
i'd take my spine, and tear it out
i can't bare it all
i got too much weight
and it really stings
so i contemplate 
i'll let my body hang
and they just say to let it roll over
they say i'm extraordinary..
and i'll admit it's kinda scary

(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen

heathen w/ autumndropsdead (ahnboi)

silence...

-----------------------------------------------
its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

wake, waking up late
u smoke a blunt and im feelin like shit
ur up in the clouds for an hour i guess
while i sit and cry, lay on top of my bed

is it the ocean, where i be
but the water be frozen, -20 degrees
drill me a hole, so i can drive in
BE PART OF DEATH, WITH THE REAPER AGAIN!

its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

 i dont do, too much, with my life
i sit right here, learn about this shit, but why
there's no point at all
yet i wright, these songs
spend my money and my time, just to hope it all, works out

its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

the sound of silence (prod. bowniebeats)

AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE!
https://linktr.ee/ASHXS

i remember (feat. chloe jobin) // prod. sproutz

written by Lxst Boy
produced by spencer hunt
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
(Verse)
take me back to the old days
don't get no wiser in my old age
fall down then melt like a snowflake
I'm never fine but that's ok
yeah lay me down when I'm at peace
I cant sleep, you haunt my dreams
I'm not that fun whenever I drink
but it helps write songs so I can sing
like what, taking it back
all of the lies, I'm taking them back
what was the price of hating me back?
the look in your eyes says you don't mean that
like how did you leave like that?
taking my heart making it relapse
yell at me but I'm not your dad
so I don't really care if you hate these tracks
you never cared to listen

(Break)

(Refrain)
take my soul, I
don't care baby
break my bones, I'm
never resting
x6

i stopped caring a really, really long time ago (spencer hunt)

hope yall enjoy
shoutout @seejayxo
prod. @splashgang

goner w/ seejayxo (splashgvng)

prod @otapxpato

ive been alone, ive been on my own
ive been by myself for way too long
wasting all my time with you on my phone
pop another pill, write another song

got me thinking bout my life, about the time that i made you cry
i still think about the time i would give you my fucking life

i dont wanna go, i dont wanna die
i dont wanna fight, i dont wanna cry
i fell in love with you, im waisting my time
help me because im drowning inside of my mind

SPOTIFY

Drowning (prod. OTAP)

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/sakuradoves 
-
Cover Art By https://soundcloud.com/vendilmz
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
-
[Lyrics]

(akiradoves)
you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

so tell me why you stabbed me in my back 
you're acting like a little bitch don't know why
you ripped my heart i think i'm just a waste
i think it's about time that you let me go

(sakuradoves)
darling let me go im falling in the snow
i wonder if you know
how much i need you sleeping with me 
baby im so empty maybe they gon envy
when im going up with you now

yeah yeah yeah up with you now
come bring me out 
stuck in this crowd of the memories
from the past living 
fast have fun killing me

(akiradoves) 
i should of known that you'd leave me for him
oh i apologies for the things i did
i fumbled my words way too much 
i wanna be together forever

you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

mistake w/ sakuradoves (nevrfall)

prod. @sorrow_bringer

lyrics
--------
waking up's easy, falling asleep isn't even a fucking option
i'm laying out on the roof
tell god to come get me, i'll pack my bags real quickly
i'll catch that flight, when it's leavin', i'm leavin' too
dreamin' of moments where i ain't have no opponents
all my components assembled outside the booth
you were a phone call away, i guess your number has changed
and you weren't home on that day or something

i've been tryna gain control of my life
open up these blinds so you can dissipate the limelight
only time will tell if i'm unwell inside of my mind
tripped fell into hell and now this television sounds like
we got more to conquer
so get up outta your bed and get your shit outta your locker
we ridin' back to the seventh floor, realigning your chakras
put soul inside your body, we leavin' the past behind us

this is all i wanted from the jump
just a friend that i could talk to bout anything off the cuff
been plottin', no hesitation, the future ain't lookin' rough
i wanted it so i did it, made symphonies outta cuts

we were back at home and it was gettin' hella cold
used to pass out when the sun come up but now we gettin' old
'member summers back in 2015, we was actin' grown
built a bridge to terabithia made outta sticks and stones
had that fire pit though i'll admit, you built that on your own
brought that bedsheet out my room, we made a flag & called it home
hit that bottle with some gasoline to pass between our souls
if we make it all that glitter's fucking gold

rain, rain, go away, you fucked up another day
i was feelin' fine but then you took me to another place
we go back and forth for fourteen minutes in my hideaway
now i'm headin' north just tryna answer who am i today?

i've been tryna stay in line, gotta figure out the truth
i don't like the way i hide, i much rather be with you
full eclipse, skippin' pebbles in the water off the roof
i don't mind, rain or shine cause my skin is waterproof
go inside, hit the wine, coraline on the tube
what do i do when i feel like my life's set on loop?

follow sorrow bringer

waterproof (prod. sorrow bringer)

hope u all enjoy this,, TRACK 2 from my debut album "home away from home" releasing 10th of FEB.

written, mixed, mastered and recorded by me
produced by: @prodgrayskies

LYRICS:
You said "don't you go"
"No, not alone"
But baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So I'm going back home
I'm going down that road
'Cause baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So please just let me go

There's cracks all on the walls and this fire keeps burning our home
The ceiling starts to fall yeah, this home is no longer a home
The things you say to me are lies I could tell just by your tone
You don't have the guts to face me so you just tell me on the phone
You told me this shit would last forever
(Guess you don't know what forever means)
I don't eat til I'm as light as a feather
I do whatever to fucking please
You cut me up til I can't breathe
I love all the agony
I needa find something that I believe in
'Cause lately I been making friends with my demons
And now she tells me that she's mad at me
Like what the fuck makes you happy?
I'm sorry baby but it's time for me to leave

You said "don't you go"
"No, not ALONE"
But baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
(FROM YOU)
So I'm going back home
I'm going down that road
'Cause baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So please just let me go

have a good day/night,, love each n every1 of u <333+

moving on

lyrics:

Memories I thought would last me forever
I hit back around not returned by the tether
I miss how we thought of vows in September
I hold only me thru these lonely Decembers
I thought u told me its us through whatever
But I guess its left me inside stormy weather 
I see ur face every time I feel better
Years from now ill still be sending letters
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it
~~
:Eric: -I love u brother ..""
~ Though Rust deformed me
she still sees me as her own
While Flames surround me
I see this could not be a home
These stage lights blind me
And they place me back in our throws
But still im fighting
To save this us we had known 
Like hi wait I know
That were not as close
As we once had been
But I guess it happens
This falling snow
Reminds me of home
Its quite the fight
But id die for it

tThe last page of tThe worst book you'v e ever read. (eric godlow)

prod. moneo

lyrics: 

(You know it just sucks like I’m so lost with what to do with my days now. I feel like I’m wasting time and I’m trying to get out of that feeling but it’s hard but eventually I’ll get there. But as of now I feel like I’m like mentally and physically melting, like melting away.)

I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I’ve been trying my best
I’ve been trying to change 
Think about why you left 
Don’t think that I’d be the same
I miss the tone of your voice 
I miss the memories made 
I wish that I could forget 
Make it all fadeaway 
Fadeaway x1000 lol
sorry I’m a fuck up and a mistake
You probably wished never talked to me in the first place 
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you

wtf am i suppose to do (moneo)

she don't wanna know where i been
i smoke two blunts in the back of my benz
i think about all the things that she said
i think about her every time when the sniff blows
thinking about her step in my castle
seeing u smile that's all that I'm after
was doing some ecstasy nothing was meant to be
i was a memory that's all that I'll ever be

i got angel wings so could we fly tonight
u seem upset with me when ur by my side
we're doing coke tonight theirs nothing left to hide
methamphetamine only in the night
ya she's leaving me cause she think it's right
and when i die put some money and some ice
u say i won't baby i will fucking try
come in my life baby let me be ur guy 

she don't wanna know where i been
i smoke two blunts in the back of my benz
i think about all the things that she said
i think about her every time when the sniff blows
thinking about her step in my castle
seeing u smile that's all that I'm after
was doing some ecstasy nothing was meant to be
i was a memory that's all that I'll ever be

step inside my castle (moses)

ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｕｓｋ　ｅｒｏｄｅｓ，　ｏｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｇｅｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ

produced by @cartermetro & @gualabeatz

hey, 
workng on a lot; it's been difficult to come by many things lately, 
but i'm really trying to get there
thank you so much for all your support
thank you so much for listening
thank you for being here
take care of yourselves
i love you
drink water 

i don't wanna lose the emotion
i don't wanna sweep it under the floor
'kay girl fuel that substance
like, somehow it knows you need something more
i don't wanna feel real love yet
'cauese love ain't love, it's knowing your core
and i know you know that you're running
better shape up 'fore you keep that

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird

when my neck goes stiff i try to stretch it
get some leverage into heaven
seen a lot of angry faces, disappointed my decisions
cold bed, lost friends, time spent just forgetting
sharp pains, dull fate; stimulate the seven senses

oh my, don't cry, feel fine that you're falling (2x)

fuck time killed over cheap thrills
like wine spills for some dopamine
i still that i'm unreal, so i choose to be who i wanna be
not swept up like room dust, when it turns dusk and i can't see
how i once felt, if i did well, for the person who had wanted me

never really know if it's a drill
am i really dying? wish i'd know that
write it all on the will
this windowsill really goes back
when all i had was to heal
now all i have is to collapse
coffee cans over pills
hands quake from the cold blast

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

40 minutes pass uh
hot water still rolls off of back yo
never can relax, i
step out the moment the feeling retracts
now i feel in mass
got nowhere to go, so i'm making a track
easy as that
you know that you feel it so fade in the grass

neither fight or flight 'cause i'm aware of my abilities
i'll chalk it up until the dusk erodes or finally gets to me
i guess we tend to trust in what we fight for
but don't let a road become an eyesore
open up your mental, persevere and take a dip
just because you weren't there, it doesn't mean they ain't exist
i create to stimulate when no one's there to fill me in
'cause when your home's a hollow body, i could a little pinch, so

we can probably make it work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect your worth
(worth) 2x
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i am just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

cans [prod. cxrter x gualabeatz]

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

i cant do this anymore 2

Aa