24.09.2020 Neu und angesagt: Folk & Singer-Songwriter

sth I‘m working on at the moment

lyrics:

[Pre-Chorus]
My heart got so damn cold
All the trust that I sold
The aching of my soul
I wish that I have told
Of all these fucking feelings, all these dreams I had
I thought it must be fever when you heat up my head
I never thought I would see but "hi reality!"
I crashed so fucking hard I have to find a remedy

[Chorus]
Have to find a way to cure an ice cold heart
Cause that‘s the consequence if you love too hard
I wish I had the strength to go back to the start
But now I have to live with an ice cold heart

[Verse 1]
Sometimes I don‘t even know what I‘m thinking about
My head decides to turn up and start spinning around
And then of course I overthink and struggle with doubt
Oh how I wish I could lay down and turn down that sound
But to my disgrace I‘m failing miserably
I think of all the things that have been happening lately
Some things that I can steer but the most I cannot
So I‘m just sitting down watching memes to brainrot
I always have been honest but somehow I got lost
Along the way, along the lines of losing my trust
I know love can be the sweetest, I know it can be fun
But for me that‘s over, at least I‘m on the run

[Pre-Chorus]
My heart got so damn cold
All the trust that I sold
The aching of my soul
I wish that I have told
Of all these fucking feelings, all these dreams I had
I thought it must be fever when you heat up my head
I never thought I would see but "hi reality!"
I crashed so fucking hard I have to find a remedy

[Chorus]
Have to find a way to cure an ice cold heart
Cause that‘s the consequence if you love too hard
I wish I had the strength to go back to the start
But now I have to live with an ice cold heart

[Verse 2]
Have I ever wondered how life could have been?
If my head wasn‘t spinning and all right to begin?
See sometimes out of reason I think that I can win
And then out of a sudden it‘s a 180 spin
See when I meet somebody all these thoughts disappear
But I know that‘s too clingy so I get out of here
I know that sounds so modern, but it‘s not even fear
It‘s just experience, the pain, that brought me here
And so I try to feel and try to make it right
But sometimes I‘m so overwhelmed that I could cry
Don‘t wanna be emotional, not another time
Cause I don‘t wanna feel again like I wanna die

[Pre-Chorus]
My heart got so damn cold
All the trust that I sold
The aching of my soul
I wish that I have told
Of all these fucking feelings, all these dreams I had
I thought it must be fever when you heat up my head
I never thought I would see but "hi reality!"
I crashed so fucking hard I have to find a remedy

[Chorus]
Have to find a way to cure an ice cold heart
Cause that‘s the consequence if you love too hard
I wish I had the strength to go back to the start
But now I have to live with an ice cold heart

[Instrumental]

[Chorus]
Have to find a way to cure an ice cold heart
Cause that‘s the consequence if you love too hard
I wish I had the strength to go back to the start
But now I have to live with an ice cold heart

Cold Heart (Rough Mix)

Find Part I on The Rough Mixes & the Lonely Hours.

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I don‘t know how I have been feeling lately
I‘m gone and down, I‘m in a hole, I‘m going crazy
Pretend to have some fun and leave me on a maybe
Just say a thing, don‘t let me hang, is that too costly?
I know it‘s hard to speak your mind but in the end
You‘ll save us time, and me those nerves, just don‘t pretend
To show some interest just to let me down 
And in the end you ghost me what a goddamn show

[Chorus]
Nothing new, nothing new, nothing new
Oh if I knew before what life can do
I would have stopped the world just to rescue you
Another lesson learned I‘m gonna make it through 
Nothing new, nothing new, nothing new
Oh if I knew before what life can do
I would have stopped the world just to rescue you
Another lesson learned I‘m gonna make it through

[Verse 2]
Maybe it‘s experience that cleared my mind
Cause I won‘t reconcider, gonna leave behind
I had a great time but it happens to
That you don‘t act up to the things you‘d say you do
When I get the chance I won‘t talk to you
Cause everytime I try I just feel like a fool
You make me doubt myself cause you don‘t say a word
Although you made me feel higher than a bird


[Chorus]

Ghosting Part II (Rough Mix)

and another one…maybe I‘ll start dropping weekly?

lyrics:

[Verse 1]
It‘s just a Wednesday morning
Got up early, took a shower
I‘m glad I left these monsters in my bed

And all out of a sudden 
There‘s a light ahead in the tunnel
My mind is silent, nothing in my head

It feels kinda releaving
Although it‘s kinda sad
I love myself more than my feelings’ death

A body full of stress
Is nothing but distress
I felt alive but I was kinda dead

[Chorus]
Alive but kinda dead
These feelings went up to my head
Made me feel so numb
But I‘m still here and I feel dumb
Alive but kinda dead
All of this inner doubt I spread
I‘d rather feel too dumb
Than dead inside cause in the end I‘m
Alive but not yet dead
Cause even though I fell so hard
I‘ll pick my body parts 
I‘m going right back to the start

[Verse 2]
I‘ll tell you about my mornings
In these past few weeks
I went to bed and woke up straight ahead

No dreams there was just silence
And in the aftermath
I felt so drained and all my mind so stained

And when I put my clothes on
These thoughts I had inside
Came all up and I could‘t help but cry 

But all out of a sudden
I woke up from a dream
I got up and I felt kind of releaved

[Chorus]
Alive but kinda dead
These feelings went up to my head
Made me feel so numb
But I‘m still here and I feel dumb
Alive but kinda dead
All of this inner doubt I spread
I‘d rather feel too dumb
Than dead inside cause in the end I‘m
Alive but not yet dead
Cause even though I fell so hard
I‘ll pick my body parts 
I‘m going right back to the start

[Post-Chorus]
Have you ever fallen apart?
Drifted away, like there‘s nothing to stay?
Felt isolated with a thousand words to say?
Got lost cause you tripped somewhere on your way?
Cause I‘ve been there a couple of times
And still returned for the better life

Drift & Return (Rough Mix)

Easter Drop!


Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Lately life just didn‘t feel the same
I was drowning in my feels and pain
I cried so much I nearly went insane
I got up and felt so damn misplaced
Another night I haven‘t slept at all
But I‘m so tired it‘s getting critical
Just let me sleep and let me close my eyes
Just shut me off let me see paradise

[Chorus 1]
Paradise, close my eyes
Paradise, just no surprises
Paradise, close my eyes
Paradise, close might I be 

[Verse 2]
It‘s three am, I‘m sitting outside, oh my
Headphones on and no one by my side
Music‘s blasting while I shed a tear
So many things on my mind that I have to clear
But these demons I’m fighting all these days
Cause in the end I‘m walking on my way
And of course I wanted you to stay
But life had other plans, see us parting ways

[Chorus 2]
Paradise, close my eyes
Paradise, just no surprises
Paradise, close my eyes
Paradise, close might I be
Paradise, oh paradise
Paradise, just let me close my eyes
Paradise, oh paradise
Paradise, there are just no surprises there

Paradise (Rough Mix)

Let the song speak for itself…

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Shut my heart off, let me go
Never be like that before
I don‘t know what life has in store
Shake me up, don’t feel alive
The night is dark I see a light
Just take my hand, I‘ll be alright
It’s freezing cold, take me inside

[Verse 1]
I never felt like I ever belonged
I‘m crying while I‘m writing on this song
All on my own, yet so comfortable
Another day, the same, I‘m getting on

[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Shut my heart off, let me go
Never be like that before
I don‘t know what life has in store
Shake me up, don’t feel alive
The night is dark I see a light
Just take my hand, I‘ll be alright
It’s freezing cold, take me inside

[Verse 2]
It is crazy just to comprehend
That some many people out there just pretend
What is life for, is there an end?
I‘m still guessing, trying to understand

[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Shut my heart off, let me go
Never be like that before
I don‘t know what life has in store
Shake me up, don’t feel alive
The night is dark I see a light
Just take my hand, I‘ll be alright
It’s freezing cold, take me inside

[Verse 3]
Just so many thoughts that are on my mind 
Gotta find a way to balance me inside
Even though I feel like running out of time
There must be a way to challenge all these tides
Will I ever sense my heart and mind aligned?
Will I ever get the chance to make it right?
All these pressing questions that are on my mind
All these pressing questions no answers online

[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Shut my heart off, let me go
Never be like that before
I don‘t know what life has in store
Shake me up, don’t feel alive
The night is dark I see a light
Just take my hand, I‘ll be alright
It’s freezing cold, take me inside

Unanswered Calls

your weekly drop😊

lyrics:

[Intro]
Enough
I‘m out
Without a doubt
Say a word, oh just say a word
Say a word, I know you won‘t say a word

[Chorus]
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 

[Verse 1]
I know there are days when you don‘t feel quite enough
And after some good times they seem to get kinda tough
Just take your time, focus yourself and search for some fun
And keep in mind that you are a fly little one

[Chorus]
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 

[Verse 2]
Have you ever noticed we are nothing at all
Like ashes from the ground floating towards the sun
Yet you are alive and you live on the run
But keep in mind that you are a fly little one

[Chorus]
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 

[Instrumental break]
I mean you get the message, I hope so at least
Should I sing the chorus one more time? 
I guess so… but I think I‘ll do a solo first
Yeah, that sounds right
 
[Chorus]
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly 
Fly little bird - high in the sky
Fly little bird - leave that behind
Fly little bird - you know what is right
Repair your broken wings it‘s getting time to fly

Fly, Little Bird! (Rough Mix)

make it 2/1 for weekly songs!

lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I‘m feeling tired, my eyes so heavy
I lost the fight but I keep it steady
I may seem out but my heart‘s still beating
There‘s way to go although I feel defeated

[Verse 2]
I felt so lost, when I ran too far
Acted like a ghost, shooting for the stars
Yet I noticed too late that I somehow chose my fate
I’m walking back on my own trying to find a way to escape

[Chorus 1]
A way to escape, yeah that would be great
A way to escape, I won‘t outrun my fate
A way to escape and end up at your gate
A way to escape, I am running with my fate

[Verse 3]
I won‘t find the words, but that is alright
Cause my mind is blurred by all my doubt inside
Yet I keep going, trying to make a change
Not to prove you wrong but to break this phase

[Verse 4]
And it is hard, not merely difficult
There are ups and downs, often not visual
Yes, I noticed too late, that I already chose my fate
Found a way to be brave, I don‘t need a way to escape

[Chorus 2]
A way to escape, yeah that would be great
A way to escape, I won‘t outrun my fate
A way to escape and end up at your gate
A way to escape, but I’m running with my fate

A Way To Escape (Rough Mix)

your weekly drop!

lyrics:
[Chorus]
Yeah I feel alright, I feel something when I have to smile
Yeah I feel alright
It only cost me day and night
Yeah I feel alright, I feel something when I have to smile
Yeah I feel alright
It only cost me day and night

[Verse]
Finally, it has been some time 
When I quit it all for good and went inside to cry
And when I had the chance to say my last goodbye
I took a deep breath and spread my wings to fly
I‘ll fly, until the break of dawn
Cause I‘ve got no one else, no else around
I had to learn the hard way that I‘m on my own
But now I‘ve learned some things of which I‘m kinda proud
Yeah, I struggle all the time
But that is no excuse although I break inside
I‘ve got to change perspectives, get the full insight
I hope you feel me too, cause I am feeling you

[Chorus]
Yeah I feel alright, I feel something when I have to smile
Yeah I feel alright
It only cost me day and night
Yeah I feel alright, I feel something when I have to smile
Yeah I feel alright
It only cost me day and night
Yeah I feel alright, I feel something when I have to smile
Yeah I feel alright
It only cost me day and night

Alright (Rough Mix)

your weekly drop!

lyrics:

[Verse 1]
No sleep, gotta hit the field and then try for another time
For real, life is bittersweet, but I‘m in charge gonna make it right
I‘ll see what the time will bring although it makes me anxious
Repeat all these little things until I feel just righteous

[Verse 2]
Hi there I am just like you, a human breathing thinning air
Somewhere I must be on your mind, but it seems like you don‘t care
I wish you would show some signs, but that‘s just utopical
Oh life is so bittersweet because I spend it without you

[Chorus]
Without you, oh without you, I‘ve gotta make it make through (Without you)
Without you, oh without you, I‘m gonna make it gonna through (I‘ve got to)
Without you, without you
Without you (Without you)
Without you, without you
Without you (Gotta make it through)

[Verse 3]
Another day, gotta keep it tight, got no chain and no more ties
Another way, gonna keep it quiet, no need for cheats or alibis
Break through my walls inside just need myself to be alright
I‘ll do, what I‘ve got to do, cause it makes me satisfied

[Verse 4]
Someday we will cross our ways and you‘ll see how I‘ll have changed
But wait, you have had your chance, so we‘ll stay on our ways
Just know, I‘m grateful for the things that I lived through with you
But now, it‘s time to leave because I‘m better off without you

[Chorus]
Without you, oh without you, I‘ve gotta make it make through
Without you, oh without you, I‘m gonna make it gonna through
Without you, without you
Without you
Without you, without you
Without you

Without you, oh without you, I‘ve gotta make it make through
Without you, oh without you, I‘m gonna make it gonna through
Without you, without you
Without you
Without you, without you
Without you

Without You (Rough Mix)

Just a little live recording of a song I recently wrote...

Probability & Definition
(In the key of Segno)

It's a hard pill to swallow to see promises die
And a radiant future  wave its goodbye
But isn't any medicine just supposed to heal one,
And did it do its job if the existence is gone?
As I search the whereabouts of my supposed sins
Others dissolve in their well-meant sweetish grins
The tired ol' tale of probability and definition
After all everyone wants their share of recognition

Another eternity dying away, making some room for a memory-filled day
Now that I feel that my place is not here
But continue searching anyway, for sure its not near.

The best ones leave, as the worst stays behind
Still tells me to believe that destiny's kind
And to numb my mind with an easy way out
In the end, no one knows what all this is about
Awaiting and forming some kind of apology
I sink into the sands of modern technology
And how much would my wisdom be worth in the end
If no one's there to listen or willing to descend.
                              ...
Just what will it take for these tides to finally turn
How many words and tries without bridges to burn
And freedom's just another word to easily reject
An easy sign for someone, the truth to suspect
My haphazard walk on the edge of this knife,
Would it ever bring me closer to the elixir of life,
Or just spark some more madness, aloud and within
As my dreams were etched into the depth of my skin.
                            ...
Maybe its near.

Probability & Definition (Demo version)

Coverversion des Bob Dylan Songs „Simple Twist of fate

Simple Twist of fate

~lyrics:
On a lazy sunday afternoon, I guess
I‘m in my room it‘s such a mess
The floor is clean, my head is cloudy
What was your name? I scream it loudly

On this day I‘m just afraid to think
Are you with me? This boat will sink
At least that‘s what I‘m scared to see
I wander all the time, what will be?

On a lazy sunday afternoon
I just won‘t let you in my room
You‘ve been here, you‘ve been there
Just to know I‘m not scared
On a lazy sunday afternoon
I just won‘t let you in my room
Go search someone else to fool
Like you did when I was in school

Yeah, yeah

On a lazy sunday afternoon
I just won‘t let you in my room
You‘ve been here, you‘ve been there
Just to know I‘m not scared
On a lazy sunday afternoon
I just won‘t let you in my room
Go search someone else to fool
Like you did when I was in school

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stay safe!

sunday (acoustic home demo)

The Journey - An Orange Day
(written, recorded and mixed in the (beginning) key of Segno)

Night falls down, our thoughts drift off, to places far or near
Memories where we were happy or sad
Mix in the starlight clear.
                               ---
And I'm certain I'll see thee again someday,
When the orange sunlight falls down on me
And on the willow tree, down by the bay
                               ---
The unforgettable, wounded hero
And the starry-eyed bard from the lost-and-found
Breaking the bread over coffee and chocolate
To the green notes of an ancient lute's sound.
                              ---
Thy words had grown wings and took off my frown
To accept my sonorous reality
Like the dark-eyed youth from the ancient old town
In the north by the shore of the sea.
                               ---
Bathing in moonlight with thee by my side,
Washing the past scars away
The new day'll be dawning and it looks so bright
With nothing to lead us astray.

The Journey (An Orange Day)- Demo version

written and recorded by shane m. blanchard

<3

when my life is over
hiding in the corner
is the love we shared

our hearts must have deceived us 
and this loneliness redeems us once again

we could never find it
constantly reminded
that our love would end

its happening in stages 
ill cry about the changes   

i know thats its hard for you to be alone this time
you never trusted your heart my dear
i think its gonna take a long time 

lost within the pages
copy and then pasted in your arms again
is it just me dreaming
i can’t possibly believe it 
ill pretend that I am next to you
in these dreams

when my life is over

//

I’m gonna drive my car into the lake
I live my life in all the wrong ways
foot on the gas and I’ll lock myself inside
and maybe then, I can get some peace of mind

I’d say I tried but I know that isn’t true
not up to par and the water’s flowing through
thought I could handle a little more than this
seems I was wrong; that I’ll readily admit

I guess my mom thought that I could make it big
or at least move out by 26
I guess my dad thought that I could be a star
but here I am drowning in his shiny car

Looks like I drove this car into the lake
I lived my life in all the wrong ways
there’s no one here, it’s the middle of the night
I’m out of time and I should’ve said goodbye

//

car in the lake

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