Sounds from Monday morning

06/09/25

i really like playing The Finals, and I whack off an unhealthy amount, I stay inside so long that the sun makes my eyes water when I leave, I starve myself for days and then eat oven pizzas and multiple bags of chips, I pick up cigarette butts and reroll them, I partake in elicit substances, I sleep much to long then much to little, I refuse to listen to new music because change frightens me, I refuse to answer my phone because confrontation frightens me, I drink alot, like way to much and it never gets me drunk enough yet I still drink it, I've eaten food out of my bin multiple times, I chew my filthy nails till they bleed, I chew my filthy toenails till they bleed, I rewatch multiple youtubers content because it will appease the very sick part of my brain that refuses to accept I am no longer the same man, I still love my ex, I will always love my ex and I choose to be single because of this, i refuse to move forward and do not pertain the constitution to end this, I am flawed and within the flaws is failure and foetid flames forever fucking fiercely (cool alliteration)

I miss her, I don't like me, I hate her, I sincerely think I'm a very unique and cerebral individual, she was the most beautiful person and none shall compare, I'm a whore for any substance, why was I so attracted to how brash a woman could be, i couldnt be the most simple of reliability to her, she lied about forever, I lied to her face, she left me, I pushed her away.

honesty within anonymity, or perceived anonymity. bloody whatever, fuck you tbh, fuck me tbh, fuck the world fr.

I never really liked women, I just happened to fall madly in love with her. </3

imfinite